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Cries of a Dead Heart

She lost her meaning for life.
Everything has gone so wrong in her life, lately.
When she meets the Cullens can they help her find a meaning to live, and even a family?
Or will she find love in all the wrong places? I have a majority of this story writtenthe more reviews I get the faster the next chapters will go up :]

“Edward, what did Alice see?” she asked, like she didn’t even want to know the answer.
I don’t think I really wanted to know either.
The whole room, including me went into shock at the sound of one word.

“Wolves” he whispered.


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7. Meet the Pack

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“Oh. My. God” I whispered slumping to the ground. Nessa is missing? How did this even happen? “No Nessa isn’t missing….Jacob took her” Edward sneered. I knew the hostility in his voice was towards the boy….the one I warned them about. No werewolf should be a vampires friend. It’s against nature and just not right. “You’re right” he said, getting up from the ground, and pulling me up “I should have just let you rip the beast’s neck out”. I smiled. Maybe when they come back I can finally do that. “If they come back” My eyes shot to him. “What do you mean ‘if’? Nessa can get away at least can’t she?” I assumed that since Nessa had vampire in her, and Jacob is a pansy, she could put up a good fight. He shook his head. I took off. I will find my friend, and when I do I will kill Jacob. I focused all of my energy and power on Edward. I closed my eyes and pulled up my last encounter with him, and the wolves to give me extra anger. Not that I needed any. Nobody hurt my family like this. Nobody. Why Jacob? Why did you take my baby? It was Bella. I could tell from her thoughts. I sped up to see her sitting on the ground shaking. I ran to her quickly grabbing her in a tight hug. I just want my baby back. More sobs “Bella” I try soothing her “It’s going to be alright. I will find Nessa and bring her home”. She stopped shaking and looked up to meet my eyes. “C.J. It’s too dangerous” she whispered “I don’t want you to get hurt” ha hurt. Jacob doesn’t know who he’s dealing with. “Bella just trust me” I groaned “Now tell me what happened. How did he get away with her?”. She started shaking, and broke down into more sobs, as she handed me her phone. I grabbed it and twisted it around in my hands trying to figure it out. I finally got it open to the messages, and read the last one received. It was from Nessa. It read: mommy dont be angry w/me. Its too dangerous for me to be with you guys anymore. Jacob is going to keep me safe. dont worry. I love you Nessa I gasped and dropped the phone. That’s what Edward meant when he said ‘if they come back’. Nessa doesn’t want to come back. Because of me. And she’s right. Every day I spend here is just more dangerous than the last. Every second I’m here this family is in constant danger….because of me. “Don’t even think about it” I twisted around. It was Jasper. How did he know? I must have been feeling extremely guilty. I tensed up hoping I didn’t seem to guilty, that he might have figured out what I was about to do. Edward came up behind Jasper, and I let out a scream. “Chill out” he muttered. Clearly he was still in his mood. “You scared the crap out of me Edward” I yelled. He smirked. “Then your hearing is shot” he said simply. I had a thought about slapping that smirk off his face. He wasn’t acting like himself and it was starting to piss me off. He walked over to where Bella still crumpled up, and scooped her up in his arms. She clung to him tightly burying her face in his shirt, still shaking. He attempted to soothe to no avail. She had this look. You would have thought Nessa had died, the way she was crying. Edward shot me an anxious glance at me. That was odd. “If the feelings I’m getting from his are correct. Edward is seeing first-hand what she was like when we left her all those years ago” Jasper whispered to me. I jumped back. Edward had left Bella? They were so much in love though, and you could tell just by the way they look at each other. “He left her?” Jasper nodded. “It was a tough time for all of us. We had all grown so accustom to Bella, but Edward said our life was too dangerous for her. We all left” I gasped. I never heard any of this before. Why wouldn’t they have told me? “Because we try to forget it ever happened” It was Edward that spoke. He was standing in front of us. Bella was still gripping his shirt crying. Why would Nessa put poor Bella through this? I would never have it in me to do something like this to my mother. I nearly got exposed trying to save her. But this… this incident must bring back memories from when Edward left. Poor Bella. “C‘mon” Jasper whispered “We better get going before they get worried. Has anyone seen Alice?” “I’m right here” she whispered looking down, walking towards us, from the shadows in the trees. Where did she come from? Maybe my hearing really is shot? But nobody else heard her either. Jasper grabbed Alice’s hand, and I walked quickly ahead of them. If I had to see them the whole way home, I might start spiraling downwards. The house came into view a good eight minutes later. None of us really had it in us to run. It was still faster than a normal pace, but slow for us. Everything around here was going to be different without Nessa. She was a very unique person, from what I knew of her. We had barely had two conversations, but I already saw her as a sister, and it would hurt me too, with her not being here. Why was Jacob such an influence anyway? I just really hope it’s not some sort of trick to get her away from her family. Carlisle came racing down the steps as soon as we were in view. “Sam Uley is on his way” he said when he reached us. Edward nodded, and Bella wiggled herself out of his arms. “Who is that?” I asked. They had mentioned him once before, but nobody ever told me who he was. “The Alpha of the pack in La Push” Edward answered. Great; werewolves. “They are all coming. Sam said he doesn’t think this pack is civilized”. Gee, what clued him into that one? I thought sarcastically. Edward nodded, and grabbed a hold of Bella’s hand in an attempt to lead her to the house. She obligated well. I don’t think she had the strength to argue in whether or not to stay and see the pack. I should probably leave too. “C.J. it is crucial that you maintain your temper around these wolves. Most of them are older, but they have a few young ones” Carlisle confirmed my plans. I am not staying for this. I was likely to start a huge fight right here in their front yard. I turned on my heel, and headed towards the house. Nobody stopped me, like I though they would have. I was very relieved of that. When I walked into the house, I could feel the immense tension in the air. I felt so out of place, and that me being here wasn’t such a good idea anymore. I have already caused them too many issues since I’ve been here. I’m a jinx to anyone who gets to close to me in my life. I cant even go to the Volturi anymore and have them just end it all because of my newly found power. They would just make me join their precious guard. Is it even fair for one person to deal with so much in one lifetime? What is the pack gonna do to help us resolve this situation anyway? Fight? I seriously doubt it, and that seems to be the only way to get rid of the problem. I have to fight. I stopped my thoughts dead in their track when I saw Edward. He looked at me and cocked one eyebrow. “What are you hiding from me?” he asked. So I was making him suspicious; great. “Nothing Edward” I mumbled looking at the ground. He knows I’m lying. I’ve ALWAYS been a horrible liar. He surprised me by letting out a sigh. “C.J.” I looked up at him “You don’t need to feel this way. You have us now and we aren’t going to let anything bad happen”. If he only actually knew. Apparently my mind was temporarily blocked. I would humor him, if that kept the truth under wraps. I walked forward and pulled him into a hug. He gripped me tightly. I’m going to miss this family so much. But before I do anything…. “Edward can you help me…..learn to control my power?” I did half assume him to be skeptical about. Seeing how I would have blocked him when I did. He nodded. So that was one thing I had for me when I left. “Where are you going?” he asked looking down at me puzzled. Crap. That wasn’t suppose to happen. Stupid temporary, unsteady power. “I’m not sure Edward” I stuck with the truth “Whenever I have to deal with this life that fate dealt me”. His expression changed to worry, understanding immediately that I wasn’t about to take a vacation. “You aren’t going to have to face this alone C.J.” He whispered pulling me back into a hug. I pulled away, and sulked across to the other side of the room. “Edward listen to me please” I said when he starting to protest “This. No. Me. No. My Life. Right. My Life is too much for your family to handle. You can’t expect to help me out of every situation. That‘s just the way it is for me. The way is always has been. The way it always will be. Don’t get me wrong. I love you and your family so much for everything you have done for me, but I can’t…NO won’t out your family in danger just because a couple of immature werewolves have a sick goal of making my particular existence extinct. Ok. Don’t stop me from trying to do what’s right for everyone” . He walked over to me quickly, staring hard at me as if I had just been speaking ‘Pig Latin’. “C.J. you are so much like Bella; you just don’t even know” he mumbled. I sighed “I can’t let you do that”. I looked up to see his piercing eyes staring at me. “And Edward I can’t out your family through this. They want me, so I have to find out why. BY MYSELF” I said grabbing his face to make him listen. He just chuckled at my attempt to be tough. “You know that no werewolf is going to be intimidated by you” he chuckled. So he was going to play this. Well I could do it too. “Well ok Edward let‘s say for argument’s sake I said I did want you guys to come with me. What would be intimidating about that?” He lifted one eyebrow, as if asking ‘Why even go there?’. “Easily the more vampires they won’t fight in fear of ‘losing a brother’” he answered. I’ve never even seen a wolf lose, which is what makes me mostly terrified. I don’t know If I would have to guts to fight one. I know that they arent like regular wolve. They were made to kill vampires. “I think you should meet Sam” I shot him a glare. He couldn’t be serious. Sam is my enemy. If I start a fight they would all hate me. And besides why would I even want to meet a werewolf? It was already bad enough that I couldn’t destroy that other one when I clearly had the chance, but now when I have the choice. OHHHHHHHHH NO. Not happening. “They are not like the wolves that you are used to” he said referring to my recent thoughts. “Can you make sure I don’t do anything stupid?” I whispered. He nodded. I couldn’t believe I was actually saying this but… “Let’s get this over with” he grabbed my hand and pulled me out the door. We ran to the middle of the yard, him pulling the whole way. “Guys this is C.J.” He said pointing to me. It took everything in my control to not snarl or even be slightly aggressive. “Don’t take it personal Sam” Edward said, reading his mind “The only encounters C.J. has had with wolves has been bad”. So apparently I wasn’t hiding my hostility very well. I forced a smile at the tall russet colored man standing a few feet from me. I need to put on my best face. I need to find out the best way to figure out these wolves. I need to speak for myself. “Ummm Sam?” Everyonne turned to me shocked “How exactly do we figure out what these wolves want?” “Well…” he said unsure if he should answer or not “It would be very dangerous for any of the Cullens to be near them, since they seem pretty wild. So we are going to try and figure that out” he was actually concerned about, and what was dangerous. This changed my percpective on these wolves 110%. I gave him a real smile, and he returned it. “Thank you. It really does mean so much to us. But…” he looked at me puzzled “If it gets violent don’t fight. This is my battle. Just get out”. He looked confused, but saw that I was serious and nodded. I thought it would be a snow day in hell before I felt concern for my enemy, but I honestly did feel concern for these wolves, standing in front of me. They are actually not wild and crazy. I jumped back when a small boy stepped forward, approaching me. Ok so he wasn’t small, but he looked to be the youngest. Edward looked like he was ready to stop me if I did do something. “Hey I’m Seth” he said reaching out his hand. Should I shake it or not. I didn’t want to harm this boy, but I didn’t want to be rude. Edward nodded, saying it was ok. “Hey Seth” I cautiously stuck out my hand and he grabbed it eagerly “How old are you?” I asked before I could stop myself. I was honestly curious thought. “I‘m twenty-four” He looked about mid-twenty’s, but younger compared to the others who looked closer to thirty. “They don’t actually age until they stop phasing completely” Sam eyes Edward. I don’t think he was comfortable with me knowing these things. “It’s ok Sam” He said looking back to him “C.J. shares our way of life, and she has no reason to change” He looked pleased. So he thought that maybe I would turn into a savage one day, and use that against them? I guess I did deserve that. They didn’t know me as well as they apparently knew the Cullens. Every eyes flashed to me when I took a step back. Something I was dying to ask was just on the tip of my tongue, but I just couldn’t do it. But I have to know, and they would probably tell me. “Why did Jacob take Nessa?” Sam was in mid-sentence talking to Carlisle, but stopped to look at me. The look on his face, gave away that he knew, but he wasn’t planning on telling me. “I will find out eventually Sam, so please just tell me” I whispered. He sighed and nodded. “Jacob thinks this will turn into a fight. When he got the smell from your house he knew that these wolves were very different from us. He was able to convince her that she needed to go with him”. Why would he be so concerned about Nessa? I mean I’m glad he is, but it didn’t make any sense. “Jacob imprinted on Nessa when she was born” Edward said like that would an explanation. As if I actually knew what that meant. “It’s something rare, but it happens to wolves” Sam said seeing the confusion on my face “The first time we see the person we are meant to be with it’s our whole world shifts, and nothing matters but keeping them happy and safe no matter what. Right now all Jacob cares about is getting Nessa as far away from the danger as possible” That’s the strangest thing I’ve ever heard. “And you can imprint on anyone….even vampires?” he nodded. “It would seem so” he said as if he wished otherwise, but I couldn’t entirely hold that against him. I would feel too comfortable if the person I was meant to be with was my mortal emeny. If a werewolf imprinted on me I would kill him. Edward flashed me a look. “C.J. I need to speak with you really quick” I nodded and he grabbed my hand. We ran up the front porch steps and through the front door. I stopped, and he paced in front of me. “Ok Edward you are freaking me out here. Spit it out” I said grabbingg him, to make him stop. “Do you think it might be possible that maybe one of these wolves imprinted on you, and that they are trying to kill you because you are their mortal enemy?” I never thought about that. I never even knew that it could happen until just a few minutes ago. A werewolf imprinting on me? Maybe or maybe… “Do you think there could be something like completely opposite from imprinting. Like once they see me nothing else matters but making me miserable, killing me, or turning my life into the deep black hole of the abyss of which it has recently turned” He chuckled. So my hypothisis was ridiculous. But at least I was trying. It could be anything at this point, but whatever it was these things were drawn to me for some reason. Something about me is different from any other vampire. It could be my scent, my way of life, my power, or just my luck. “I don’t think so” Edward said still laughing. Ok so my theory was a little strange, but not that bad. “Ok Edward it not that funny. You cant stop laughing at my expense” I yelled popping him in the back of his head with my hand. He straightened up quickly. “Sorry C.J.” he was still smiling though. “You are just like Emmett sometimes Edward, I swear” his eyes widened. Apparently he didn’t think so…. “No. No It’s not you it’s….” He looked distant as he walked away. What was going on with him? He’s not acting like himself. I followed him out into the kitchen. Jasper and Alice were sitting it there. Jasper sitting on the counter top looking to the floor, Alice standing by his side holing his hand that wasn’t ruffled in his blonde locks. Alice looked at us briefly before turning her eyes to something distant, trying to hide her moments of non-chirpyness. “Jasper why do you think that?” Jasper’s head shot up, and looked at us surprised. “Jasper what aren’t you telling me?” Alice whispered horrified. I looked at to see her literally falling apart. Nessa’a absence was coming down hard on Alice. “It’s nothing…I just don’t think this is all going to turn out how we hope. The pack is having such a wide range of emotions, it’s hard not to let it get to me” he tried callming Alice by pulling her closer to him, and running his hand up and down her back. “I guess I don’t really blame you” Everyone looked at me shocked as I spoke. Really what hope was there? That the pack would somehow mysteriously stop these crazed teenage wolves from shredding us? And them… “We have to think positive” Edward said grabbing my arm “I should check on Bella”. “I‘ll come too” He nodded. I followed him up the stairs and through the hallway as their room slowly came into view. I could distinctly hear Bella’s sobs. They aren’t as loud and uncontrollable, but enough to make me feel the pain radiating from her. Edward puched the door open to reveal Bella in the middle of her bed curled up in a tiny ball. Her eyes were closed, but we knew she wasn’t sleeping. Edward walked over and sat on the bed next to her. She opened her eyes and sat up. She looked so sad, and weak. Like all hope was gone, before there even was any. I walked over and took a seat on the other side of her. She grabbed me and wrapped me in a hug. “C.J. I’m so sorry you have to see me like this. I just cant seem to pull myself out of the thought that my little girl isn’t coming home” I slowly patted her back, and shot a panicked look at Edward. His face mimicked mine. She sat back and slowly forced herself to smile, but it melted away quickly. “Don’t be ridiculous” I copied Edward’s words from earlier “I cant say that I know how you feel Bella but that we will help you make it through this”. I wasn’t sure I had chosen the right words, but she smiled. My head snatched up as I heard Emmett come through the door. It seemed like it had been forever since I’d seen him. He looked at me then twisted his head to Edward. Edward nodded and stood motioning for me to follow. I hated leaving Bella like that, but Edward wouldn’t have, had it not been important. I followed them out into the back yard. Emmet twisted around and gave me a frightening smile. I chuckled and lunged into him throwing him to the ground. He laughed and lifted me up just to throw me back to the ground. He was a lot stronger than he looked. “As much fun as wrestling sounds right now” he said the next in a much lower voice “And as much as I’d rather be doing that” Edward cleared his throat, and Emmett laughed. “We are training” Edward finished. I nodded. Trainging is good. Training will help me control my power. Edward grabbed my hand and pulled me farther into the yard. We sat on the grass, and watched the rare sunlight turn our skin into diamonds, as the clouds drifted by. “Ok I need you to focus” he said “I’m here for your power. Emmett is here for the physical” I nodded and closed my eyes. This sounded pretty easy so far. Emmett would teach me to fight and Edward would teach me to use my power. I felt him grab my hand from my lap. “Now whatever power you want to use I need you to focus on the person who had it” I had done that before “I just don’t recommend human” I chuckled. I wasn’t planning on doing that. I chose Alice. Her power is the only one I havent used. I closed my eyes focusing all of my thoughts on Alice. All the memories I had of her. Memories came flooding back. I saw Alice in the living room the first time we met. Alice in her bedroom and bathroom dressin me for school. Alice in Edward’s bedroom. In the forest…. I saw myself walking through the forest and looking. I could see my lips moving, but I couldn’t hear a thing. But what was I looking for. I was with someone, because I was talking to someone, but there was nobody there. I saw something and started to run. I was running now as fast a I could…but there was nothing I could see behind me. Edward was staring off when I finally opened my eyes. “Edward what does that mean?” he looked down at me. I could see panic written all over his face. “It means we don’t have as much time as I though. You have to learn a lot…and quickly” he whispered looking back down at the grass.