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Alone

Summary:
ALL HUMAN. What if Edward Cullen isn't the good guy all the time? Bella is Pregnant and Edward refuses to accept it.


Notes:
Just a little story I wrote. Hope you all like it.


16. Chapter 16

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Bella POV

What the hell was he doing?! Push him off of you, Bella, you're with Jake, I screamed to myself. Try as I may, he just pulled me closer and tighter. Ugh, I can't stand the feeling of him being this close. There was absolutely no way I was going to let him back in my heart. Not now, not ever. He hurt me too much and too deeply to just forgive and forget this time. If he honestly wants a relationship, the only thing he's getting is maybe my friendship, and that'll be on a good day, but he's going to have to work for it, and I'm going to have to stand my ground.

This new relationship is good for me. Jake makes me see the woman I am; that I don't need to rely on anyone but myself. He doesn't make me feel complete, not yet, but he definitely fills something in me that was empty. And I'm not saying I love him yet, either. I enjoy his company, though. He doesn't push me to do things I'm not ready for and understands that there's still baggage left from Edward that I'm trying to dump. We both know I'll never be rid of Edward completely and Jake's okay with that. There's just something I can't get enough of. And he's so sweet with Maddy and Masen. Before he left, Jake brought Maddy a new stuffed animal, and gave Masen a small authentic native drum. That's all I've heard for the past two days. I'll have to remember to smack him for that. Jake's the kind of father I wish Edward was.

"Get...off...of.. me!" I managed to get out. When he wouldn't let go, I dug my nails into his arms and pulled down, scratching him.

"Damn, Bells! What the hell was that for," Edward asked.

"You self-centered, arrogant prick!"

"Oh come on," Edward said with a smile, "you know you liked it."

Before I knew it, my hand was smacking Edward's face, and more than once. I couldn't stop myself. I just hated him so badly right now. Jasper finally caught my hand and pulled me into the kitchen.

"Stop, Bella. I think he gets your point," he said.

I took a few deep breaths to calm myself.

"I can't believe I did that."

"Me either. But it's about time."

"Everything alright in here," Carlisle asked as he walked in.

"We're fine. Edward just got a bit out of control," Jasper said.

"What did he do?"

"Nothing, it's fine," I said. "Could I use the computer in your study, Carlisle? My laptop died and I need to write a paper."

"Absolutely."

"Thanks."

I walked back into the living room.

"Did you say your laptop died," Edward asked.

"Yes....why?"

"Maybe we should go get you a new one."

"Huh?"

"You need one for class, Bells."

"I know, and until I can get the extra money, I'll have to make due."

"You're so damn stubborn, you know that," Edward said standing.

"Sorry, but not all of us can just go out and buy whatever the heck we want."

"Fine then, consider it a belated birthday present," Edward said.

With that, he grabbed my hand and led me out to the garage. We drove to the Best Buy in Port Angeles in his new Volvo in silence. I hated being alone with him. I felt incredibly uncomfortable. Once we got inside, Edward started talking to one of the employees about which laptop would be the best for me. I think I maybe understood three words in the entire conversation. All I wanted was one that worked. Edward ended up getting me not only a laptop, but a new bag, extra battery, new digital camera, since I didn't have one, a printer and a massive service plan so if I broke it, I can bring it back. I wasn't sure how much money he spent, but I knew he did it to try to get on my good side. Afterward, Edward insisted we go out for dinner and a restaurant that was way over priced.

"Just humor me, please," Edward asked.

"Fine," I mumbled.

We were seated at a table in a dark corner. The atmosphere was romantic: soft candles, dim lights and low music. I was completely uncomfortable. He was doing this on purpose, I knew it.

"Bella, if I promise to behave, can we talk," Edward asked after we ordered our dinner.

"Fine."

"Do you think we'll ever get back to where we used to be?"

"No. I really don't."

"Why?"

"Really Edward? Do you honestly think I'm just going to forgive you?"

"Eventually, yes."

"Eventually I may, but I don't think we'll ever be what we used to."

"Why?"

"I'm happy where I am. I like being independent; I like knowing that when I look in the mirror, I see Bella Swan. Not some girl who feels trapped in a relationship."

"You felt trapped?"

"Not so much trapped, maybe stuck. I just got to a point where I saw myself as your trophy wife who sat at home doing nothing and it started scarring me. Then I got pregnant and I thought maybe you'd change. But the rumors started and you stopped believing me. It made me open my eyes as to what I wanted."

"And what is it that you want? What is it that he gives you that I don't?"

"It' not necessarily what he can give that you can't."

"Then what is it?"

"I'm not sure. He supports every decision that I make without hesitation."

"So did I."

"No, you were always plotting a way around it so you could be in control. And if you do the same with Maddy and Masen you'll only drive them away too. It's a bad habit of yours, Edward."

"I know. Esme says the same thing."

"So let me ask you something. Why do you think we deserve to be together?"

"Because I love you. Isn't that reason enough?"

"No. There has to be more than that."

"And I suppose he gives you that?"

"I never said I love him. We've only known each other a few months."

"I still don't understand where we went wrong, though," Edward said.

"Simply put Edward, you lost my trust. I don't know how many times I told you she was lying and you never believed me. Being pregnant with Maddy and Masen was scary and all I ever wanted was for you to be with me, and yet, you were with her. What did you ever see in her, anyway?"

Edward was silent for a few minutes, but I already knew the answer.

"I guess.... I guess she was different too. But I didn't want her or love her as I love and want you. Don't you have any feelings for me?"

"I'm sure I do, but they're not the same as what you feel for me. But I need you to understand something. I've said this before. Maddy and Masen deserve to know you as their father, not some guy that's in the same room. I know you're probably scared and feel like you have no idea what you're doing, but you have got to step it up. They're your children, not your families. Please, Edward, be their father."

The rest of dinner and our drive home was in silence. I felt bad. I knew I hurt his feelings, but maybe this is what he needed to get the point. It wasn't about us. Like it or not, he as a father. Maybe it wasn't the picture perfect family, but it is what it is. Whether he chose to accept it or not is another story. All I knew is that I stood my ground, for once and I was proud of myself.