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Alone

Summary:
ALL HUMAN. What if Edward Cullen isn't the good guy all the time? Bella is Pregnant and Edward refuses to accept it.


Notes:
Just a little story I wrote. Hope you all like it.


23. Chapter 23

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Bella POV

"So," I said. "I've made my decision."

These next words would be the most difficult words I would ever say. I knew it would hurt, and I silently prayed that pain wouldn't last too long. I knew they'd support my decision because they both loved me and I loved them in their own ways. My decision brought me peace and for once, I was able to dream of something other than the two of them.

"And what would that be," Jake asked.

"First, I need to know that the two of you will abide by my wishes and not make me feel horrible,-"

"Bells, Jake and I already had this discussion. Just tell us your decision," Edward said.

I took a deep breath and reminded myself that I could do this.

"My decision is that I choose myself."

"Huh," Edward and Jake said together.

"I've decided that I need more time. I love both of you too much to not fully think it over. While I was gone I realized that as much as I love the two of you, I really hate the two of you."

"Why!?" Jake asked.

"Edward, I still hate all the things you've done to me. I still feel resentment and betrayal when I look at you. But it's not as strong as what it was, but it's still there. And I think part of the reason is that we never really had a chance to talk about everything that happened. Even though it was so long ago, I think we still need to figure out a way to put it behind us. I think once that happens, our relationship can get better."

"So wait, then you're choosing Edward," Jacob asked.

"No." I took in another deep breath. "Jacob, I hate that you made me feel like I had to say yes to your proposal. You knew I wasn't ready, and yet you said whatever it took for me to feel guilty and give in. Damn, Jacob! First you tell me you love me, and make me feel completely uncomfortable because I wasn't sure if what I felt for you was the same, then you go and force a ring on my finger! You pushed our relationship way to fast. I think you decided that since I was vulnerable, that I wouldn't catch on to what you were actually doing."

I knew this isn't what they expected. I knew Jake had assumed that I would choose him because i accepted his proposal, and I really wasn't sure what Edward had hoped for. Either way, I knew that my decision would let me sleep at night. It wasn't going to be easy, but as long as I held my ground, I would be alright.

"So, what are your terms, then," Edward asked.

"My only request that you accept it. It took me the entire time to realize what I wanted. You two have no idea how much it hurts me to give you this answer."

I looked at the two of them and was actually stunned by their expressions. It wasn't at all what I expected. They both looked so calm, like even though I didn't choose either one of them, they were okay with it. It was...weird.

"Can we at least spend time with you," Edward asked.

"Yes, but I don't want any nonsense. The minute you start hating on the other one, I'm done. And no rushing me into making my final decision because you'll only get me angry and then I'll do something really stupid like hunt down Mike Newton and marry him!"

"I seriously doubt that," Jake said.

"Anyway, I do have one special request for Jake, and that is that you still come to Charlie's wedding. You know he's going to expect you. Don't let any anger you have towards me be deflected onto him."

"I won't. I'll be there."

"Good."

Standing there, looking at the two of them, I felt happy with my decision. It wasn't an easy one to make, but I'm glad I did it. I knew the two of them would find ways around my request, but it didn't really bother me so much. At least they didn't start blaming each other. I took comfort in Esme's words to me, knowing that this decision was made entirely on my own and that it was okay. I would be okay...with whatever and whoever I finally chose.