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December Air

Summary:
Edward never came back.
Bella has tried her best to go on, by settling with someone.
She knows she can never love with what she was once capable of.
But when disaster strikes who is it that is capable of putting her back together again?


Chapter 5 is UP

DecemberAir

no need to fret guys
I have a beta; the search is over YAY
The AH-MAY-ZINGG Alyss in Wonderland
has temporarily released me from writers block by being my co-writer "]
Let just say this story just got a whole lot more unpredictable


Notes:
Ok so this one is rather old.
I didn't originally want to post it because
there were so many other ones about
what might have happened had Edward not returned.
This is my story
I hope you like it "]


4. So Close

Rating 4.5/5   Word Count 1580   Review this Chapter

I could try and go throughout the week pretending this didn’t happen. That it was all just a dream that I would sooner or later have to wake from. But it was no dream, and I had to face the fact that the man I was in love with so many years ago had actually come back. Edward. His name didn’t seem like an odd thing to say. I had been thinking of him often for the past few days. But I could never let my mind slip. I could never let Jacob know the real pain I suffer. I owe him too much, to let this effect me. I have to do as he wished and not think of Edward. But that was impossible and he knew it the moment those words left his mouth. “Bella are you ok?” I felt two massive arms encircle my waist and shuddered. “I’m fine Jacob, just cold is all” he nodded and kissed my forehead before turning to pick up his shoes from the ground. “I’m going out. Embry and Paul are having some kind of contest and me and the guys have to go ‘control it’. You know those two” I chuckled and nodded. Most competitive wolves I’ve ever met. “You’ll be okay though. Seth is patrolling, and he will find us if he suspects something” I smiled and nodded. It was definitely a relief to have at least one of the pack around. I am a danger magnet after-all. “I know Jacob. I’m not worried” He muttered something under his breath and shook his head at me. I gave him a confused stare and he sighed. “Bella, you are never worried about you. Maybe that’s just the problem” “Do you want me to worry?” I asked incredulously. He sulked past me to the opposite side of the counter to face me. “No Bella, but a sense of self-preservation would be nice every now and then” I walked to sit at the bar stool beside him. “You sound just like Edward” I whispered staring down into my hands that were placed in my lap. Jacob made a sound very similar to a grunt. I gasped and looked up at him. His face was twisted into an angry bitter mask, and he was clutching his fist so tightly I could see the indentions of muscle strands under his russet skin. “Bella I never will understand his pull on you” I shook my head. “Jake no, Edward doesn’t love me, he left. I married you” Jacob looked up from the floor, to look me in the eyes. “But you love him Bella” I couldn’t exactly say anything to that. I didn’t want him to get angry, but I couldn’t lie to him. “Bella?” I nodded. “Yes Jacob I loved him. But that was a long time ago” he shook his head. “I have to go” he said breaking the tension. I let out a heavy sigh and nodded. The only thing I could hear going through my mind was my thoughts screaming, “Don’t cry. Don’t cry”. It’s hurting me so bad that Edward is pulling my life apart again. Dreaming about him was one thing, but when he’s actually there… It’s like he’s ripped out my heart all over again. And it hurts so badly because this is hurting my family to see me like this. Jacob is constantly around and giving me these weird looks as if waiting for the worst to happen. I knew what he was waiting for. The zombie. He’s waiting for me to get so overwhelmed that I spiral into my deep hole, but I won’t let it happen to me again. I will keep my composure this time. I heard the front door slam and pull me out of my thoughts. Jacob wasn’t too pleased with me right now that much I could tell, but I thought that he of all people would understand, and know that Edward isn’t a threat to our family. This was one night I didn’t need to be alone. It is kind of hard to believe that this time last week Alice had been standing right here in this kitchen, and Edward not too far… I shuddered, and walked to the living room. I was going to try desperately to distract myself. I have to get my mind off of current events. “Seth!?” I yelled. If I was going to do something I could at least get Seth in on it, he was probably bored out of his mind out there. “Bella” I shrieked as I spun around and saw him standing right behind me. He cocked an eyebrow, and took the DVD I had picked up, from my hand. “What’s this?” He asked holding it up. “Do you want to do something with me? I know your probably bored sick out there, and…. Well I’m lonely” he chuckled. “Sure Bells, but not this, I’ll fall asleep, and that’s not safe” I rolled my eyes. “Please Seth. Don’t tell me you are actually in your guard mode tonight” “Guard mode?” He asked cocking his eyebrow. “Loosen up Seth. Take your mind off of the pack for ONE night. It will be fine” He chuckled and nodded “Fine, but not all night ok, and DON’T let me fall asleep. I might as well be dead when I’m asleep” I chuckled and nodded. I honestly didn’t really care. Its not like anything was going to happen tonight out of all nights. He opened the case and walked over putting the DVD in the player. I relaxed slightly as I fell back onto the plush chair feeling it filling the contours of my curves. “Bella you can’t fall asleep either” He announced as he walked to the other side of the room with the DVD remote in his hand. I nodded. “Ugh I KNOW” I moaned throwing my head back onto the headrest dramatically. I did it a little hard causing my head to get a little shaky for a second. I sat up quickly as I heard Seth bust out laughing. “Bella, if anyone could injure themselves on a plush chair I could have figured it to be you” I rolled my eyes. So I wasn’t the smartest person, but apparently my klutziness wasn’t going to go anywhere in time. “Whatever Seth just press play” He chuckled one last time before pushing the button. I couldn’t have picked a sadder movie, if I was trying, probably. But ‘A Walk to Remember’ was my ultimate favorite movie. It was forty minutes into it and I was starting to feel exhaustion hit me. I looked over to the sofa, and saw that Seth was already out of it. I snickered under my breath. I would let him sleep. He probably really needed it. There’s no telling how long it’s been since he’s actually gotten sleep. Sam is a great guy and all, but he over-works that pack way too much. I put my arms on either side of the chair lifting myself to my feet. Since he was going to be asleep for a little while I needed to find a way to preoccupy myself. I walked up to the television and turned it down, so he could rest more peacefully. I spun around quickly nearly falling but grabbed the table scraping my hand. I stood up to examine my hand. I wasn’t anything to be worried about, just a small cut. I could fix that. I gasped as I heard a loud screech. I half assumed Seth to wake-up, but he didn’t even squirm. I guess he was right when he said being asleep he might as well be dead. My gut was telling me to wake him up, but I wasn’t really sure if that was going to be possible. I took a few steps testing. I could after all be hearing things. Then I heard it again. A loud sickening screech. I shuddered, and ran to the couch. I stopped to look around quickly. I shouldn’t wake him up. I was just being paranoid. I could just be hearing things. I decided that what I needed was a hot shower to relax me. I flipped off the light next to the couch and made my way to the stairs. I was stopped dead in my tracks as I walked face-to-face with the scariest thing I could have possibly run into again in my life. “Hello Isabella. I have to say that I thought this might have been a little harder. You made it too easy, and I’m no too happy about that” I couldn’t even breath let alone reply. The she-devil herself was standing in front of me, and I was completely defenseless. “I-I” she placed her finger over my lips. “Shh now you don’t want to wake the wolf” In actuality that EXACTLY what I wanted to do, but this a Victoria. Seth had no chance against her. It would be signing his death certificate. I shook my head, and let my eyes wander to the ground. “Now” she whispered menacingly in my ear “You and I are going to have a little fun”