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Desperate

Summary:
I know there's a few of those stories where either Jacob or Leah imprint on someone in another pack but this is different. What if imprinting doesn't always grant happiness and love? The night Leah Clearwater imprinted she was desperate to be rid of her love for Sam. Her imprint's name is Nick and he's a werewolf from another pack in the east. He's dealing with a pain that may be just as great as hers. She's dedicated to her imprint and he to her but neither of them feel the love that's supposed to come with imprinting. Sometimes even imprinting can't cure a broken heart. Can they fall in love the normal way? On top of all of this the soul mate and imprint of one of Leah's pack brothers is killed by a fellow werewolf. The pain and guilt is tearing her pack apart. Somehow it all keeps getting worse from there. Is there really such thing as happily ever after? Or is life just agony and sadness? So I decided I loved this banner best! It was made by my lovely beta Delenda!


Notes:
I know what you're thinking... 'WHAT she's writing ANOTHER story even though she's in the middle of two!' Well... I'm stuck, in both of my stories. So I started this one! I was just listening to Desperate by David Archuleta and I started to think about Leah. So this story popped into my head and I wrote it down. And I do not own the Twilight series obviously. I know there's a disclaimer at the bottom of this site but I like to be safe and put it in here anyways. Enjoy!


12. Chapter 12:Forgiven

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Chapter 12: Forgiven

Friday night's such a beautiful night
Where you going?
I didn't mean to blow it
You're upset and I don't know what I said
But I'm sorry
Don't you give up on me

Take off your jacket
Don't walk out that door

You and me
We should be
Making a memory whenever we're together, yeah
Look at me
Can't you see
We were meant to be
Making a memory

Nick Steel. The Nick Steel. My body craves him so badly, it leaves my hands shaking and my mouth depleted. I felt empty, and deserted without him....I don't feel whole. I can't forget him, I can't stop thinking about him, I can't even seem to stop talking about him. I don't even want to make myself forget him. I shook my head, stupid, stupid Leah.

I have to see him. I knew where he lived; I could just go and see how he was doing. If he was really actually as happy as he said he was. He didn’t need to see me. I really just needed to see his face before I went insane. I stood up warily. My mind was made up. I was going to find my imprint. I jogged to my back yard where I took off my clothes and tied them to my leg. I let anger consume me momentarily and quickly became a giant wolf.

Sam and Seth were immediately in my head. Apparently I wasn’t the only werewolf running around today. My mind focused on Seth. I hadn’t talked to my brother in a while. I’d been so selfishly wrapped up in myself. I felt a pang of regret.

“It’s ok sis. There’s a lot going on in your life right now. We can catch up when you get back.” He answered, hearing my regret.

”Thanks Seth, love you bro,” I thought back.

“ Love you too. Good luck with Nick.” His voice echoed in my head before it faded away as he turned human.

“Be safe,” was all that Sam said.

“See you soon. I’ll be back before you know it.” I thought. “Don’t miss me too much.” I added sarcastically, but Sam answered seriously.

“We’ll try, but things just aren’t the same without you.”

“You didn’t seem to care much when I was locked in my house.” I tried not to think it but it came out bitterly anyways.

“We did miss you.”

Then he was gone. My mind was blissfully quiet. I knew it was immature but I never truly realized that Sam still cared about whatever happened to me. Probably because I’d been looking for romance from him and hadn’t seen the brotherly affection he could still have with me. I’d been so blind.

I concentrated on the thud of my paws that heavily beats against the hard earth, trying not to think at all. That didn’t work of course. Nick wasn’t the only thing I was afraid of haunting me. Flashes of the scene that had scarred me for life kept intruding on my thoughts. I’d see Kim’s body so physically broken, Jared so emotionally broken. My memory of Paul’s destroyed face before we turned his body in. I shuddered with grief. These emotions were so heavy.

I ran non-stop for two days, not bothering to eating or stopping to drink. My mind was now focused on one thing, Nick. As more days past by they blended together hazily. I wondered if I would ever make it to Nick. It was then that I had finally reached the town in the dead of night. I decided to sleep wolf and phase back human in the morning when I’d go look for Nick. I settled down and stared up at the stars. Then I closed my eyes and my mind warmly greeted the sleep as I drifted.

The next morning I reentered the town. It wasn’t that hard to find Nick’s street, Blue Sky Dr. His house was a dull tan color and very small. The lights were on and I could see a dark form that I heartily assumed was him through the curtains. When he threw them wide open I felt a jolt at how amazing he appeared with is just-woke-up look. His messy hair stuck up in every direction and I longed with every cell of my body to touch it.

I watched him all morning as long as he was in a room with a window. I felt very much like a stalker but I was unable to pull my eyes away from him. Around noon he left the house. I followed him quietly hoping a sudden breeze wouldn’t carry my scent to him. He walked around the corner and entered a house I too hastily assumed was Talia’s. It was a dainty little home. It was coated in bright blue paint. Rose bushes grew in a row under windows with white shutters.

I waited until I was sure nobody was coming out before peering through the window. Ok, I know this was SO another extremely stalker like thing to do but I was curious.

Nick was sitting on a dark red couch. I couldn’t see Talia because her small body was hidden from view behind his large one. I could tell what was happening though. Talia reached up to kiss him but he shook his head and turned his face away. She wouldn’t get the hint though. She took his face in her hands and pulled it back around so she could press her lips passionately against his.

Absolute fury exploded inside of me. I struggled to keep my human form, I barely managed not to go wolf but it was excruciatingly hard. My pulse was pounding furiously in my ears and my breathing sounded like I was bordering on hyperventilation. I marched to her front door and tried not to smash it to splinters when I knocked very, very loudly.

I didn’t have to wait long before the door was opened. Talia was not the tall, devastatingly beautiful, snobbish blond I imagined she would be. She was short standing at about 5’2”. I towered over her. Her plain brown hair hung in a straight line half way down her back. Her full, glossy red lips pushed out in a pouty expression. That along with her vulnerable, innocent, enormous green eyes framed by long thick lashes gave her the appearance of a helpless, pampered puppy. She looked so fragile, terrified as she stared up at me, and overall simply pathetic. What did Nick see in her?

“Is Nick here?” I snarled menacingly.

“Yes!” she squeaked.

I was glad I scared her, pleased I intimidated her. She invited me in. The moment I stepped through the door I nearly gagged at the too strong smell of her perfume. Did she dump the entire bottle on herself? Perhaps she bathed in it. I was led down halls that was painted in a terrible pale pink. The living room I’d seen through the window was painted the same color. Nick was on the couch with his head in his hands looking tired and defeated.

“Nick?”

He looked up hopefully. His eyes lit up when he saw me and my heart jumped frantically in my chest. He got to his feet with a smile spreading across his face. Oh gosh he was so perfect.

“Leah!” He stepped forward to sweep me into a hug that would have crushed my bones were I not a werewolf.

Don't pretend you're not smiling again
Let's just leave it
You know I didn't mean it
Don't know why we put up such a fight
Over nothing
When we could still be something

Take off your jacket
Don't walk out that door
There's no need to leave anymore
Yeah!

You and me
We should be
Making a memory whenever we're together, yeah
Look at me
Can't you see
We were meant to be
Making a memory

I didn’t answer. I tried my best to hide my delight that he seemed to miss me too. But then I remembered I was supposed to be mad and totally furious with him. I scowled, waiting for his excuse that better be good.

“I know I said I didn’t love you, that I love Talia. It’s not true. I just needed time…”

“You just needed time?” I cried. “You left me, made me think you didn’t love me, you broke me because you NEEDED MORE TIME?”

“Leah. I’m sorry. When Talia called I still wasn’t decided. It took being away from you to show that I needed you. Then when you called and begged me to come back I felt so stupid, like you deserved better then me. I thought that maybe you could get over me, find someone better.” He said.

What.

The.

Heck????

“Oh my gosh you sound like Edward!” I groaned.

He laughed. “Sorry.”

“Ya I got that much.” I muttered.

I heard a small cough behind me and remembered Talia was still watching us. “I think I’ll go make some sandwiches or something.” She grumbled. I heard her leave.

“You still mad?” He asked softly.

I looked away.

“If you’re so mad then why did you come find me?” Nick challenged.

I blushed, not answering. He laughed. “I thought so.”

I still didn’t speak. He rolled his eyes. Then Nick reached up to touch my face softly. His expression changed and the new look he gave me set my soul on fire. Slowly, cautiously he brought his lips to mine. The instant they touched we burned.

He was everywhere. His heat and mine was so hot, it seemed to scorch my skin without the pain. His lips were soft and sweet. They moved gently against mine, trying to break my stubbornness. I felt my legs give out and his arms kept me from falling, his lips still pressing kisses on my mouth.

“Ok.” I gasped, “You win.”

“I know. I usually do when I want something.” He agreed.

A gasp and the clatter of a tray being dropped made me remember once again that Nick and I weren’t alone. Talia’s puppy dog eyes were filling with tears.

“You were just using me weren’t you Nick?” She accused.

“I wasn’t trying to. I honestly thought we could be together at first. Then I realized I loved Leah. I was going to leave you so I wouldn’t be leading you on but I began to put all of the pieces together. You were the one using me weren’t you? You got in a fight with Alex and you wanted to make him jealous.”

She looked down, ashamed. “Yes. How come didn’t you freaking tell me when you figured it out?”

“I have to admit I was still pretty mad at him.” He chuckled. “I figured he might as well get a taste of his own medicine.”

Then he looked back at me. “Come on beautiful, let’s go home.”

Can't do this myself
No, I need some help
We all need some help

Friday night's such a beautiful night
Now you're staying

You and me
We should be
Making a memory whenever we're together, yeah
Look at me
Can't you see
We were meant to be
Making a memory

Friday night's such a beautiful night (making a memory)
Now you're staying
(Making a memory)
Don't know why we put up such a fight (making a memory)
Over nothing
(Making a memory)