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Desperate

Summary:
I know there's a few of those stories where either Jacob or Leah imprint on someone in another pack but this is different. What if imprinting doesn't always grant happiness and love? The night Leah Clearwater imprinted she was desperate to be rid of her love for Sam. Her imprint's name is Nick and he's a werewolf from another pack in the east. He's dealing with a pain that may be just as great as hers. She's dedicated to her imprint and he to her but neither of them feel the love that's supposed to come with imprinting. Sometimes even imprinting can't cure a broken heart. Can they fall in love the normal way? On top of all of this the soul mate and imprint of one of Leah's pack brothers is killed by a fellow werewolf. The pain and guilt is tearing her pack apart. Somehow it all keeps getting worse from there. Is there really such thing as happily ever after? Or is life just agony and sadness? So I decided I loved this banner best! It was made by my lovely beta Delenda!


Notes:
I know what you're thinking... 'WHAT she's writing ANOTHER story even though she's in the middle of two!' Well... I'm stuck, in both of my stories. So I started this one! I was just listening to Desperate by David Archuleta and I started to think about Leah. So this story popped into my head and I wrote it down. And I do not own the Twilight series obviously. I know there's a disclaimer at the bottom of this site but I like to be safe and put it in here anyways. Enjoy!


3. Chapter 3: Fake Love

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Chapter 3: Fake Love

(Leah’s POV)

You make me feel out of my element
like I'm walkin' on broken glass
like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion
and you're movin' too fast


Were you right, was I wrong
were you weak, was I strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

I thought imprinting would make all the pain go away. I’d watched that happen to so many of my pack brothers. The quick to anger Paul had mellowed out considerably after meeting Rachel. Jared who had never given Kim a second glance suddenly loved her with all he had as soon as their eyes met. Jacob had been going crazy with his grief for Bella and his hatred for the little half vampire monster that he thought had killed her. He was actually about to kill the baby when she looked at him and suddenly his love for Bella was forgotten and there was no possible way he could ever hurt Renesmee. I’d seen imprinting work miracles.

So why wasn’t the wolfy magic working on me? All I wanted out of life was to forget Sam and the pain he had caused me. I thought imprinting would do that for me from the way everybody described it. I guess I’m just a really messed up werewolf.

This boy was definitely the center of my universe now. I’d do anything to please him. My only goal was to make him happy. I loved him but the love felt fake. My heart could tell that I didn’t really feel love, that I didn’t even know him. My painful love for Sam burned on. The devotion was there but the love wasn’t.

Nick’s POV

You make me feel out of my element
like i'm drifting out to the sea
like the tides pullin' me in deeper
makin' it harder to breathe

We cannot deny, how we feel inside
we cannot deny

Were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

Imprinting never sounded like something I wanted to happen to me. I mean, who would want to be forced to love and be entirely devoted to someone you might not even know. I didn’t want to forget my love for Talia. I didn’t care how much pain it caused, I wanted to remember how I really felt. So I was shocked when I imprinted and the pain, the love for her stayed. It remained, cold and hard like a sharp sliver of ice buried deep in my heart.

I felt everything seem to point to this girl as the top of my priority list. I knew automatically that I could never want to make her unhappy or hurt her but something wasn’t right. I felt like I should love her. Every instinct screamed for me to love her more then I’d loved Talia even, but I didn’t. I’ll bet it was from my stubborn refusal to let go.

I watched this strange new girl I was supposed to love. Her mouth hung open and her lips trembled slightly. Her wide astonished eyes were filled with tears. I would do anything for this girl, except forget Talia. I’d give her anything, except my honest sincere love. The devotion was there but the love wasn’t.

Leah’s POV

Kaleidoscope of colors
turning hopes on fire, sun is burning
shining down on both of us
don’t let us lose it (don’t let us lose it...)

I was suddenly aware that I was gaping at the boy and quickly pulled my mouth shut. I realized that my eyes were teary too and I reached up to brush away the wetness with embarrassment. The two of us stood staring uncomfortably at each other. This was not how I imagined this moment would be.

Shouldn’t we be throwing our arms around each other to declare our undying love and affection for each other? I didn’t feel much like doing that. Like I said before, the love felt fake. I cleared my throat awkwardly.

“Um, hi I’m Leah Clearwater,” I squeaked.

He smiled slightly. I couldn’t help but like the way his eyes squinted when the corners of his mouth pulled up. I may not love him the way I was expecting but dang he was adorable.

“Hi Leah I’m Nick Gilek,” he said in his warm, deep voice.

I was already starting to like him a lot. Maybe I could learn to really love him wholly and truly. My love for Sam might still fade after all. That thought made me happy beyond words.

“Come on!” I chirped happily. “You should come meet my pack.”

Already things seemed much better than they had this morning. I was practically bouncing with joy. I felt even more wonderful then when I had joined Jacob’s temporary pack and been freed of Sam’s thought for a while. I smiled… yes smiled!!!

I knew this exuberance wouldn’t last long. The pain was still there and I figured that it would show itself soon. So I enjoyed my brief spastic happiness while I could.

I looked back at Nick who was following behind me. He had a look on his face that mostly showed amusement with a hint of sadness. I could tell he carried a pain. Maybe when we imprinted we kept our pain for a reason. It could be that fate knew we would never really be happy until we truly healed. He could be the perfect person to stitch me back up and I the only girl who could really cure him.

Nick’s POV

Were you right, was I wrong
were you weak, was I strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah

I was already enjoying Leah’s company though we had barely spoken to each other. Despite the fact that she seemed like she wasn’t used to being happy and her smile seemed unsure it was very cute. Her nose wrinkled slightly and she had slight dimples in her cheeks. The way her eyes were lit up was in an almost crazy way but they were beautiful.

I could sense that there was something broken inside of Leah, just like me. I saw an echo of my own pain behind her sudden, weird, and probably only brief, happiness. We could be more alike then I had thought. I decided that my main goal at the moment was to cure whatever was hurting her. I might not love her but she was still my imprint. I hated the thought of her being in pain.

We lived
we loved
we hurt
we joked
we're right
we're wrong
we're weak
we're strong
we lived to love

But the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
watch the chemicals react
and just like that
the chemicals react
(the chemicals react)