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Awakening Dusk

Summary:
Bella and Edward's story after Eclipse. A new chapter in their relationship, Bella's change, a new treaty with the wolves. A conflict in the Volturi coven will make them choose a side. Canon. Not OOC "Bella" he called.I turned to glare at him. "What do you want Edward?He was in front of me in a flash. His eyes were on fire, they smoldered. One of his hands pressed on the small of my back and the other tangled in my hair. "You". His voice was low and husky. "All of you. Every part. Right now".Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!BellaandEdward4-1-1-1-1.jpg picture by bedazzledangel


Notes:
This is my first story. It's sort of how I expected Breaking Dawn to be. I hope you enjoy it.


1. Time

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Awakening Dusk

By Silkoverglass

Tempus fugit Time flies.

Some believe that time flies when your having fun, I believe this statement is true to a certain degree, time is relative, it can speed up when you don’t want it to end and drag on endlessly when you want it to accelerate.

The weeks before the wedding I was completely convinced that time had stopped. Alice was all over the place with wedding preparations and she seemed to be losing it a little bit. This had me worried for a while but Edwards only comment was“Don’t worry about her love, Alice just really gets into things, you know how she is, she gets a little carried away, but I assure you she’s having a lot of fun in the process”

“Fun” – I said rather unenthusiastically- “What Alice regards as ‘fun’ really frightens me. I don’t know how much more I can stand of all the shopping and the fittings and the hair and make up rehearsals. I mean you would think that since she can see into the future she would know by know what things I will pick, and what style of hair and make up will best suit me

”Edward chuckled “I know, but you have to give her credit she’s done all the work here and has left us alone for the most part. I think were getting a pretty good deal”

“Well you’re right, at least this gives us time to be alone. Good time to practice” I hinted with a wink.Edward just smiled at me, but it looked little forced. So I thought that maybe he needed a little cheering up. I pulled myself closer to him so that I could reach up and grab his neck I then proceeded to very gently place small kisses in his throat working my way up to slowly whisper in his ear ‘I love you’.He responded immediately cupping the back of my neck and bringing my lips to his. I crushed my self to him and very enthusiastically returned the kiss. My heartbeat beating at an incredible pace and my skin overheating. Edward moved his hands slowly to my face and angled my head up so that he could kiss my neck. His breath was ragged and I was almost hyperventilating. I moved my hands- that had been lying in his chest now- up to his shoulders and tried to pull myself closer to him. A low moan resounding deep within his throat.I wasn’t worried about waking Charlie, it was about 2:00 am now, and I could hear him snoring contently down the hall. I sometimes felt a little guilty deceiving him like this. Because I knew in my heart that if he ever found out that Edward spent almost every night with me in my narrow little bed he would probably have a heart attack. But I buried those thoughts far away in a corner of my mind for now, because I knew Charlie would never find out. And even if he did, it’s not like we were doing anything inappropriate. Ok maybe the boyfriend "sleeping" over was not the most appropriate thing, but Edward had already defined very specific rules as to our physical relationship and we weren’t breaking any rules here.

His hands started to move down to my shoulders dragging with his fingers the thin straps of my camisole pulling it down my arms.Ok, ok …. He had never done that before…whatever my mind wasn’t working right now. I pulled myself closer to him like a drowning victim clings to a rock, my leg seemed to have a mind of it’s own as it moved up to his leg. In a flash one of his hands hitched around my knee and pulled my leg all the way up to his waist so that I was now completely on top of him.Holy crow… sould I sop him!...hmm..uh? maybe later. His hand moved up my thigh to my waist caressing the small of my back, his fingers interlacing with the hem of my camisole. I could feel as his fingers grabbed a handful of the cotton fabric in a tight fist. His other hand grabbed my hair and he crushed his lips so hard to mine that I thought that for sure I would have a bruise by tomorrow. He broke apart and started kissing my shoulder.Suddenly I heard a low rip and the next thing I knew I was lying face down alone on my bed.

Before I had time to even comprehend what had happened this time I heard Edward’s voice across the room.

“I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me”

His voice was so full of grieve that I almost jumped out of bed to console him. But as I moved my torso I noticed a small piece of cotton fabric next to me. Oh, OH! My shirt laid in tatters in the bed. Only small pieces of it clinging to me. Now I understood! Huh, wonder how I didn’t feel that?. I wanted to fly to his side and reassure him, but I could hardly move without basically revealing my whole chest to him. So I tried humor.“It’s ok. Didn’t even like this one. Pink is not really my color”

Silence.

“Edward?”

“I’m here.” He said, then noticing my predicament added. “ I’ll wait outside and give you some privacy”.

“Don’t leave!” my voice sounded desperate.

“I should. But I won’t. Just call me when you’re a little more…um…presentable” He a added slowly.

“Ok”. I didn’t even hear him cross the room, but I felt a cool chill coming from the window that was now opened. I sighed and got off the bed to look for a shirt on my drawer. I threw a t-shirt on and murmured his name. He was back sitting in my rocking chair, like he had been there all along.

“Edward” I started, kneeling in front him trying to see his eyes, but he wouldn’t meet my gaze. “It’s ok, it’s just a shirt”

He looked at me then and I almost gasped at the look in his eyes, he was in complete sorrow! Why? Over a stupid shirt? Why does he always have to overreact?He tried to smile then but it came out more as a grimace.

“I know. I’m just glad it was just a shirt and not you”

He was really tormenting himself over this! This is so ridiculous!

“Yes” I said starting to get angry now. “I was just a shirt. Why do you have to overreact like this?”.

He let out a burst of air through his lips before he answered.

“Bella you have no idea how hard it is for me to control myself when we are together like this! It’s almost painful”.

“Painful?” I repeated perplexed. “Being with me causes you pain?”

“No. I don’t mean it that way. It’s just that…” He trailed on into silence.

“It’s just that what?” I was starting to feel a little hurt now, I could feel the color rising in my cheeks.He took my face between his hands and looked into my eyes intently.

“You misunderstood me. What I meant was that when we are this close and I start to loose complete control of myself it’s extremely difficult for me to regain composure. I need to control myself so that I don’t kill you Bella! You know that! You have no idea what a herculean effort that takes, when all I want is to be even closer to you!”

His eyes looked desperate, agonizing. How could I do this to him?

“I’m sorry Edward”. I said slowly, tears starting to built in my eyes as I realized his pain.

“No. Don’t be! This is not your fault. It’s just the reality of who- of what! I am. You’ve done nothing wrong” He had cradled me in his lap now and was gently caressing my hair.

“Don’t even think about starting with that!” I retorted. “You are not a monster Edward!”

“Then what am I Bella?! If not a monster! I can’t even be with you and love you like you deserve without putting your life in peril!”

“Edward” I gasped. “How can you even think of yourself that way? I can’t even begin to describe how many ways you make me feel your love. You love me more that I deserve and I feel complete when I am with you. You can make me feel loved just by smiling at me! As for what you are I can’t even start. I would take all eternity to describe all your qualities. All I can say is that you are my everything”.

I looked deeply into his eyes trying to some how make him understand what he meant to me.He inhaled deeply and sighted.

“You love me more than I deserve and I hope that I can someday come close to deserving that love. I know I will never truly deserve you but I am more than happy to spend all eternity trying”.

“I love you, and although I think you have that backwards the eternity trying makes me really happy”.

He smiled then his crooked smile and this time it looked sincere. I yawned and he moved us to my bed. I snuggled to his side and he pulled the covers over me.

Kissing me on the head he whispered. “I love you Bella. Now sleep my love”.

He started humming my lullaby and I felt myself slowly drifting away into subconscious. I couldn’t help but remember what he said, he was in pain. Maybe I had to rethink about our whole deal. Was I being selfish by pushing him to do this when he clearly felt so worried about it? My thoughts became rambled as I lost myself to sleep.