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Awakening Dusk

Summary:
Bella and Edward's story after Eclipse. A new chapter in their relationship, Bella's change, a new treaty with the wolves. A conflict in the Volturi coven will make them choose a side. Canon. Not OOC "Bella" he called.I turned to glare at him. "What do you want Edward?He was in front of me in a flash. His eyes were on fire, they smoldered. One of his hands pressed on the small of my back and the other tangled in my hair. "You". His voice was low and husky. "All of you. Every part. Right now".Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!BellaandEdward4-1-1-1-1.jpg picture by bedazzledangel


Notes:
This is my first story. It's sort of how I expected Breaking Dawn to be. I hope you enjoy it.


4. Duty

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Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of it's characters. They all belong to Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter 4

Duty

"He gives nothing but worthless gold

Who gives from a sense of duty"

- James Russell Lowell, Vision of Sir Launfal -

He was sitting on the edge of the bed, his feet still on the ground. Both his hands clutching the edge of the mattress. He studied me intently.

"Disappointed?". I asked trying not to smile because it was obvious that my choice in night apparel was not what he was expecting.

"NO! Of course not. You look beautiful as always"

He answered quickly, widening his eyes.

"But it isn't what you expected. Right?" I couldn't help it I had to laugh at his expression.

"I...No....I mean. I didn't know what to expect". I had never heard him stammer so much before. It was hilarious!

"What's funny?" now he was getting suspicious.

"The look on your face when I came out was priceless". I has shaking violently, clutching my sides.

He surprised me when he started laughing too. I loved the sound of his laughter. Loved to see him like this; so carefree, so happy.

He extended one of his arms to offer me his hand. I took it and he pulled so that I was standing in front of him between his legs.

"And what are you laughing about?" Still smiling I took his face between my hands and looked into his eyes.

"It's just that your laugh is so contagious. It makes me so happy. I can't help from laughing myself."

He was smiling my favorite crooked smile and looking at me with such love in his eyes that I thought my heart would burst.

I leaned closer to him and kissed him softly on the lips. He returned the kiss. It started out slowly with gentle smiles I between kisses. He looked into my eyes serious now, a new intensity in his face. He kissed me, this time longer his lips crushing mine as my mouth molded into his. The urgency started climbing. I wrapped my arms around his neck. He had both his hands on my waist pulling me closer to his chest. He started slowly moving his hands up my back. I broke apart from his lips gasping for air. His lips didn't leave my skin as he swept my hair from my shoulder so that he could have better access to my collarbone. My lungs didn't seem to be able to expand properly.

I needed to stop him! I had to tell him what I had decided. Although, he didn't look very scared now.

NO! I needed to keep my head. It was just so hard with him kissing me this way.

He kissed my lips again, pulling me to him as he leaned back to lay on the bed. Oh...Never mind!

I knew I had to tell him something, but I couldn't remember what that was!

His fingers were in my hair and he pushed my hair back to look at my face.

There it was. The fear. Back again.

"Bella" He said in a very low throaty voice. "I promised that we would try, and I will keep my promise. But I ask for one in return" He was being so cautious, like just his words would brake me.

"If I do something wrong. If I hurt you. Promise me that you'll tell me"

I exhaled And laid my face I is chest trying to slow my breathing.

"Edward" I started. "I don't want to do this now".

It took a while for him to digest what I had said and answer.

"Oh. Are you tired? We did have a long journey. You could use some rest. It's fine love, you can sleep".

He was worried about me not getting enough sleep! After I had slept almost the whole way here!

"No. I can't sleep now".

"You want me to sing you to sleep? Maybe it would help".

I should've explained myself better. But I was having a bit of trouble getting the words out.

"No. I meant I'm not sleepy".

"Are you hungry then? I could fix you something if you want. I had the kitchen stocked. A first for this place I might add".

OK! Just say it you coward! I thought to myself. "No Edward. I'm not hungry. What I meant was that..." I stopped. My throat felt suddenly very dry.

"Yes?" He encouraged me. "Tell me love. What is it?" He looked at me inquisitively. "Are you afraid that I will hurt you?" Anguish bathed his whole expression. He looked terrified and resigned at the same time.

"NO! Edward. Of course not! Ugh! THAT. Right there. That look in your eyes. That's why I can't do this. I'm not afraid but I know you are. You are scared to death of loosing your control. I don't want this to be like that".

I waited for his reaction studying his face. All I could see was shock as he took in my words. However that shock was quickly replaced by anger. He suddenly took my face in both his hands and looked deeply into my eyes. His lips pressed together in a straight line.

"Bella. I can't let you do this again. We made a deal. You met your half of the bargain and now it is my turn. I won't go back on my words. I made a promise". His words were flowing out of his lips so quickly that I had to strain to understand them. "This was the one thing you asked for before I change you. Just this one thing! You have given up everything to be with me. I can't let you give this up too!"

What was he talking about?! Given everything up to be with him? If anything I had gained more that I ever dreamed of having and then some. Sure, I would have to say goodbye to Charlie and Renee but I knew in my heart that they would be fine. I would miss them dearly but I could hardly stay with them forever, change or no change. It's how life is. And I would be gaining a wonderful family that I could love too. They would never replace the love of my human family, I would love them both, always. And yes, I would miss my friends too but that separation was inevitable for all humans. Angela and Ben were leaving soon and Jacob...Jacob. The memory of the last time I saw him revived the pain in my heart. But I needed to get back to the present. Edward was still looking at me with a grim expression.

"Edward. I have made my choice. Becoming part of your family is what I want most in the world. It is the key to my whole existence with you. And although I will be leaving my family and friends behind". My voice broke a little at the thought of saying my goodbyes. "I feel that I will gain so much more in return for I will be with you; nothing is more important to me than that".

"Why Bella? Why now? Why do you always have to put everybody else's feelings before your own? I'll admit your selflessness is one of the qualities that drove me to you. But when you put my own feelings before your own your just martyr zing your self! I can't have that".

How dare him! "Edward!" I shouted at him sitting on the bed away from him. "I am not trying to be a martyr or anything like that. I am doing this for me as much as for you. You think this is just about you? Get over yourself! How do you think it makes me feel to know that you are only doing this because we made a deal?" I was livid.

"That's not the only reason Bella! You know I want this too!"

"Oh. So you don't have any doubts? You are not scared?"

We both sat there glaring at each other across the bed.

"Yes Bella. I am scared, but..."

"But what?" I interrupted him. "We made a deal?"

He pinched the bridge of his nose between his fingers and closed his eyes like he always did when he was mad.

"Bella". He whispered

I hated this. Hated the distance between us. We had just gotten married and here we where fighting already. I needed to be close to him. I leaned over and placed my hand on his face. I immediately felt better by the contact.

"Edward please listen to me".

He opened his eyes. "I'm not saying that I don't want this to happen. All I'm saying is that I don't want it like this. I want it to be special for both of us. I trust you completely, but you need to trust yourself too. You are not ready. So until you are. I want us to wait".

He had calmed down now and pressed my hand to his face. "I don't know what to say Bella. I know I can't make you change your mind. You are incredibly stubborn when you want to be. What can I do?"

I smiled. "Well now that you mention it, there is one thing".

"Anything you want love".

"You know your offer before - about making me a snack-? Well I changed my mind. Now I'm hungry".

"Your just trying to distract me" He said smiling. Maybe he hadn't completely gotten over our whole conversation but at least the smile didn't look forced.

"Well Yeah. But I'm also very curious to see what you can come up with". I was really trying to distract him. I wanted to make him happy.

"Alright, let's go to the kitchen". He said taking my hand and pulling me off the bed. As we walked out of the room he stopped by the door to look at me. "You know this is not over right?"

"I know". I'm counting on it. Whenever your ready honey.