Right or Wrong?
Thanks to eternitys_charm for the crazy good banner! Bella Swan is your average teenage girl with a boyfriend named Jacob and a semi perfect life. But what if that perfect life she's come to love is all an illusion and she's just afraid to admit the truth? Edward is gorgeous popular and rich and he's the object of Bella's hate and the only one who see's the real her. When tragedy strikes will Bellla finally see the light and just admit she really loves Edward? Love has consequences but for her it's better then living a lie. Spoiler!Go to my bio to see a sneak peek on the sequel to this story! (All human! Rated teen for some strong language and mature themes.) Thanks to all my faithful reviewers! Next Chapter will soon be up!
7. So Wrong.
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The morning was frosty cold. I could feel a slight breeze and I hugged myself tighter in the blankets. What’s this? Cold foreign arm wrapped my naked body?! I froze stiff until I heard the voice,
“Good morning Love.” Edward purred.
“Umm good morning.” I replied shaky and unsure. This had to be the epitome of embarrassing, I launched myself up and scrambled for my clothes. My body ached and throbbed in places they never did before! Oh my God! Did I just have sex with Edward Cullen?! I paused for about three seconds after I finished getting dressed, Edward was laying on the bed with his brow furrowed, baffled and confused.
“What are you doing?” He asked.
“Leaving.” I replied lifelessly.
“You can’t tell me you regret what happened last night?” He asked astonished.
“Yeah actually I can! Edward, you seduced me while I was hurt and vulnerable. Do you really think I was in the right state of mind at the time? Because I wasn’t! God, this is so totally wrong! I feel sick!” I grabbed my stomach feeling the dinner from last night resurfacing. I looked at Edward who was now clothed and pacing the length of the room nervously.
“You’re not pregnant are you?!” He asked panicked.
“God no!” I screeched, offended. Just then Emmett walked in abruptly and gasped, he stared wide eyed for a long while and then let out a howl of laughter. He grabbed his stomach and tears rolled down his face.
“Did you… I can’t believe you...oh my...Jasper!” He called for his brother who appeared at the door quickly and began chuckling at the scene. I covered my now crimson face and shivered in embarrassment. Emmett reached to high five Edward who pushed his hand away roughly.
“Get out Emmett!” He yelled. I looked up at his also red face and realized it was because of anger not humiliation. Emmett and Jasper backed away still laughing and closed the door.
“Bella I love you.” Edward whispered looking down at the floor now upset. I felt a tinge of guilt and my own brand of sadness tug at my heart strings.
“Im sorry Edward I just don’t see you like that! I don’t know what came over me last night but that wasn’t truly me…” He walked up to me and interrupted mid sentence by cupping my face in his hands and kissing me fervently.
“You love me…I know you do. Just please tell me you love me.” He said softly while resting his head against mine. I looked up at him feeling the same fire I felt last night before I stupidly attacked him. Did I really love him? Or was I just unwillingly stuck in this messed up situation? I knew the truth but questionably deprived myself of it. Just before I was about to give in Emmett burst through the door unexpectedly. He looked away from our embrace and talked to the ground while holding out a phone.
“Bella it’s for you, its Rose.” I jumped towards him and grabbed the phone in a rush.
“Rosalie? Come pick me up!”
“Bells? There’s been an accident! Jacobs in the hospital, he’s really hurt!” My mouth dropped and the room started to spin. Just a minute ago I was about to confess my love for Edward Cullen, now I’m faced with Jacob Black. I felt the old quiver of worry I got when people called about him and questioned my thoughts completely. I couldn’t love Edward, at least not fully; I was still in love with Jacob. After everything he’s done to me I continue to stupidly love the wrong guy. What’s my problem?
“Jacob.” I mouthed quietly. Edward looked up quickly and winced at his name. I could tell this hurt him more then me saying I didn’t love him because I think he assumed I would love him someday. He probably also guessed that after last night, I didn’t have feelings for my rage filled boyfriend, which I knew wasn’t entirely true.
“Bella I’m coming to get you. I’ll be there in five minutes.” I dropped the phone in Emmett’s massive hands and stared at the wall blankly. I heard Edward leave the room and exit the house angrily. What was I doing? My brain shouted to go after him and my heart cried sickly, yet, I couldn’t move a muscle and I couldn’t admit the inevitable.
The bright lights of the hospital blinded me and I twisted the ring on my finger anxiously as the nurse led me to Jake’s room. After Rosalie picked me up, she explained what happened quickly.
“After you and…umm…Edward left last night Jacob went joy riding while simultaneously drowning himself in liquor. He crashed into a tree and severed a group of nerve in his legs. Billy Black called us asking us where you were because Jacob wouldn’t stop rambling on about losing you.” I stared at her in disbelief and choked when she continued the story.
“When he told him you weren’t with us Jacob started pulling out every plug in his body. They had to put him on sleeping meds, the whole night-he kept begging the doctors to kill him! They don’t even think he should see you but he won’t take his medicine unless he talks to you first.” All the blood rushed from my face, my whole body went numb. We got to the hospital parking lot.
Now the nurse was informing me of hospital rules and trying to slyly convince me not to go in the room. Suddenly, I heard Jacob shouting and I pushed past her and rushed inside.
“Where is she?! Where is she?!” He yelled violently while thrashing around in the tiny bed.
“I’m right here” I said as I kneeled next to him and smoothed his hair out of his face.
“Where have you been?” He asked in a serious tone. His jaw clenched tight and his body became rigid at my touch. I looked at him and bit my lip, trying not to strangle him.
“I came here as soon as I heard!” I replied.
“Where were you last night when I lost my legs?!!” He reached for me and I backed away fearing his deadly grip, then he paused and threw the blankets off his body revealing his stump shaped legs. I gasped and covered my mouth on impulse. His eyes burned with frightening rage and hate.
“Look what you did to me you slut!” He swung at the air between us with his bandaged fists and looked at me as if planning my very demise. My blood began to boil and my hands curled into little balls. Was it a crime to punch a paraplegic? How was this, my fault? He was the one who day after day placed his hands on me for the most insignificant reasons.
“How did I do this to you Jacob? Please inform me of what I’ve done!” I looked at him with an intense pain and acknowledgment. He started to observe the little monitor recording his hearts activity as it slowed and regulated.
“You went out with Edward and you didn’t even tell me. Then you went home with him and screwed him behind my back! And then you stand here playing innocent like you’ve got all the right in the world!”
“I already told you Jacob I didn’t know he was coming! I don’t know why you insist on inflicting pain on both yourself and me so vigorously without any reason!” His body started to shake and the heart monitor began beeping franticly.
“You went with him willingly! And you liked it! you still would’ve gone, if they hadn’t tricked you!”
“I…” I started but Jake interrupted me mid sentence, looking away and calming down again.
“Don’t tell me you wouldn’t Bells because I’ve seen you look at him. I’ve seen the way your head snaps up when people talk about him, I’ve seen the jealous glare in your eyes when a girls talk about how attractive he is! You’re not very secretive. Whether you know it or not, you like him. Look at me; I’m stuck in a wheelchair for the rest of my life! What more can I do to you? Karma really kicked me in the ass, didn’t it? Just leave me, Bells and don’t come back…” Just then a nurse came in an offered him a cup of little blue pills, Jake took them and turned the other way ignoring my presence until I turned to leave.
“Yeah, Jacob.” I said.
“I love you. I really do.” He murmured.
“I know Jake, I know.” A single tear rolled down my cheek as I quietly shut the door behind me. I didn’t look back because my future wouldn’t permit me to do so- not one glance. The road ahead looked unbelievably rough, I didn’t have time to dwell on the past. I didn’t have time to reminisce on the good times, when the bad times stared me right in the face. What was I going to do now? Things weren’t getting easier the way they were turning out. I just knew.
- Not so perfect.
- Impossible love.
- All comes crashing down.
- Disappointing moments.
- What is this?
- So right.
- So Wrong.
- Good news on top of good news.
- Final conclusions about love and life.
- Abel and November
- She waved goodbye.
- With out him.
- Getting Better is hard to do.
- Could this be my happy ending?
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