Bella has a nightmare about her wedding day where her beautiful, but mysterious groom is attacked by a monstrous wolf. After she wakes up, she goes looking for the groom where she remembered she had noticed him in real life only a few days before. When their meeting is interrupted she wonders, why is everyone trying to make decisions for her? and why is Edward so dangerous? Banner courtesy of Eternitys_Charm Based off of the movies (and the book) Ever After, and Twilight.
10. Chapter 11
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I went to bed again, not able to sleep. I would have been able to if Jake hadn't made me feel so guilty, he made my day until he walked away from me. I could tell, if Edward wasn't there we would become great friends, maybe even more than that. But I had already made my decision. I wouldn't cause Edward any heart-ache, one man was enough. The simple truth was I loved Edward more, and Jake was like a brother, I couldn't choose my brother over my soul-mate.
There was practically no heart left in me at all now, just a hole. It was more like a black hole than anything else, I sucked Jacob into my little world not thinking what would happen, and that I would hurt him and everyone else I loved, including Charlie. Charlie. I didn't think of it before, I would have to leave him too, without an heir to the throne. I'm sure that would devastate him, especially with my mother not alive. How could I put him through that?
My mind was racing. I've never had to make this sort of decision, but at the same time I didn't really have to think about it. I loved Edward unconditionally, and I would always end up choosing him. I would just have to live with the pain knowing I hurt others for eternity. My one selfish request.
By now I was gasping for air. If this castle weren't so large Charlie would be coming in here by now, asking what was wrong. All he knows is that I found the love of my life, not that I would have to run away with him, and there was no option for that. We would both stay the same age forever, and everyone would notice after several years that we were so youthful. But why couldn't they know? Everyone would be frantic if they found out though, that wouldn't be a good idea.
I tried calming myself down. I pictured Edward’s face in my mind, though my imagination could never do him justice. Eventually I drifted into sleep, embracing the darkness.I didn’t dream that night, thankfully. I didn’t want to think of the nightmares that could have haunted me. Especially ones about Jake.
I decided that I would try talking to him again today. I would need a little piece of mind if I was ever going to make it through the week.
Immediately, when the door was answered, I knew I wasn't welcome. Billy answered, keeping the door mostly closed.
"Hello, Bella." His tone was anything but inviting.
"Hi. Is Jake here?" He glanced back, letting me know he was.
"No." I decided that I wouldn't argue with him, arguing with Jake's dad wouldn't make anything better.
"Well, can you tell him I came by. I need to apologize for something." I tried looking really beat-up, which wasn't hard at all, considering. "If he could come see me soon that would be great."
"I don't know Bella. He's actually...sick." Somehow I didn't believe that.
"It doesn't matter if I get sick. You could send for me once he comes back or something. I just really need to talk to him."
"Thanks." I turned, heading to my room again.
Right as I sat on my bed, a knock came on my door. I stood up, expecting Billy to tell me Jake refuses to see me, or he's too sick. I couldn't help but thinking I was what made him sick, and then I think again. Why would he be that depressed? He couldn't love me that much already. An example to counter that would actually be Edward and I. We only knew each other for a couple of days, whereas I had truly known Jake since I was little. I opened the door surprised to see Jacob.
"Bella." He wasn't excited to see me either.
"Jacob." I think he was trying to make me feel bad.
"You wanted to talk to me?"
"Yes, do you want to come in?" I opened the door a little wider and he squeezed his way through. Had he gotten bigger in the past day?
"Jake, I just wanted to apologize if I hurt your feelings." He turned away.
"What makes you think you did that?"
"Don't pretend I can't see it Jake. You're all mopey, and when you left yesterday...you were devastated."
"I was not devastated." He started getting defensive.
"Alright. But you were sad. Admit it. I can't help that I'm in love with Edward. He's just my match. I don't want you to be unhappy."
"I thought you didn't care that much."
"I told you. You're like a brother to me. When you're unhappy, I'm unhappy."
"I guess you're right, Bells. I'm sorry for over-reacting."
"No. You had every right to. I wasn't thinking that much about your feelings as much as mine." I went in to hug him but he pulled away before I even got to him.
"I'm sick remember." I raised an eyebrow, confused.
"I thought that was just a cover-up."
"You heard me. I don't care if I get sick." This time he didn't object, but I pulled away.
"Jake, you're burning!"
"I told you." His skin was just the opposite of Edward's, it felt like he almost burned my skin.
"What kind of sickness do you have?" It had to be something serious.
"It's really not that bad, Bella. I just need to rest and I'll be over it.
"Then you need to go! I'll help you back."
"No, Bella-" I cut him off.
"Jake, you're scorching. You need help."
I tried supporting his weight part of the way, but he was heavy. I had one of his increasingly hot arms draped over my shoulder so he could lean on me, even though he was slightly too tall for that. I was trying.
We were finally at his door, and I was about to knock but he stopped me.
"Bella, this is my home. Well, room at least, you don't have to knock if I'm with you. Actually you don't have to knock at all, you are the princess." And no one knew how much I disliked it.
"Oh, right," I opened the door and sat him down on his bed.
"Is there anything I can get you?" His face was sweating, and I knew he was nearly asleep.
"No. Thank you, Bella."
"Anytime, Jacob." I got up and went to get a glass of water, to see Billy coming back with one in his hand. He stopped and whispered to me.
"Bye, Bella. I'm sorry for how I acted earlier, but with Jacob all gloomy and the sickness, I was just a little defensive." He smiled.
"It's alright. No hurt feelings." I grinned back.
I slept relatively well that night. No dreams or nightmares again, only darkness.
I wanted Jacob to get as much rest as possible, so I didn't visit him until a few days later. The day before Edward would be coming back.
He was still on his bed when I came to see him, sweat still gathered on his forehead.
"Bella." He looked delirious, but he was smiling, and that made me feel better.
"Hi, Jake. How are you doing?" I went and held his hand. Hopefully he wouldn't think much of it, or maybe he would even forget.
"He'll be back to normal in a day or so." Billy stated from behind me.
"I'll leave you two alone." Billy left us, Jacob probably wanted me to reconsider everything, and he just wanted to give him a chance to tell me.
"Bella, do you know why I'm sick?"
"Don't you just have influenza or something?"
"No." He laughed, "I actually told you a few days ago. Think really hard, Bella." He couldn't have told me he was getting sick unless he had premonitions like Alice. But to do that he would have to be a vampire, and from the warmth in his skin, I could tell that wasn't it.
"What are you talking about? What's going on?"
"I can't tell you, but I already did. Think back to our conversation about the legends. That's all I can tell you." I didn't understand what he was trying to tell me, all he told me was Edward's family were vampires, and his family were-
"Bella?" He looked to me with anticipation.
"You're trying to tell me you're a...a werewolf?"
"But...how?" It made no sense.
"We become werewolves when there is a need, and with Edward here, there's a need I guess."
"You won't hurt him though, right?" The idea made me want to run away, but I wouldn't be able to because I would collapse first.
"Not unless he breaks the treaty." Relief flooded over me.
"Good. So you'll be better soon?"
"Yes, the transformation," he made air quotes around the word, "will be over by tomorrow."
"And you're tempurature will be normal again?"
"No, that's permanent." He looked up at me.
"This is a lot to take in. Especially after finding out the man I love is a vampire. Sorry." I looked at him sympathetically after talking about Edward.
"No, it's fine. Maybe you should just rest your mind a while to take it in."
"Yeah, that sounds good. I'll see you tomorrow?"
"Sure, sure. Bye, Bells."
I walked away again, laughing to myself. What a crazy world I lived in.
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