This is the story of Renesemee after Breaking Dawn. It shows her extreme love for Jacob and fight with the vampire side of her. When something horrible happens how will Nessie cope? And will Jacob stand by her side? banner by MRSBellaCullenBlack! Inspired by Black stars by Lunamoon! (Check it out!) Rated R for language and mature themes.
5. It's the only way...
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Days passed, then weeks and before I knew it I was huge. I mean HUGE. The light movements that rocked my stomach soon turned into hard, jolting kicks that woke me up at night and paralyzed me at they’re worst. Somehow I fought through it all, even at two months I was still fighting, hoping that it would all get better. The worst thing about it was that I really truly loved the baby, I loved it through all the morning sickness and all the black blue bruises, the weight gain the heartache. I couldn’t help but love the devilish thing, it was so apart of me, so apart of me that I cried everyday knowing that one day he would be back. He would come back and halt all the temporary happiness I had left just to snatch it away like before. And even with everything that was happening Jacob loved it too…whatever it was.
“Carlisle? Carlisle? Can you see what it is?” The cold goo on my stomach was starting to get me irritated and I couldn’t wait any longer to see if it was a boy or a girl. After the first month we all realized that this wasn’t going to be a normal baby, not normal at all. If my dad thought I was special it was nothing compared to how special she or he was going to be.
“Renesmee we just can’t! I told you before we even started. You were half human and we couldn’t figure out what you were…this baby is only a fourth human!” Carlisle said exasperated by his many failed attempts. I closed my eyes as I sent a wave of thoughts to my baby. Kick once if you’re a girl. Kick twice if you’re a boy. I waited anxiously but felt nothing.
“Jake!!! Call my dad over here please!” I had known before that my dad could read my thoughts when I was in my mother’s womb so after many months of being against reading my babies mind, I was finally ready to give in.
“Nessie?” My dad stood at the doorway eyes wide open. He acted like he never saw my belly before. Idiot.
“Can you tell me what the baby is thinking please?” He smiled very condescendingly which was really starting to tick me off. It was his ‘I told you so’ smile.
“Yeah yeah, well you can just go to hell if you’re going to be acting like that!” I huffed. “No I think im getting something here.” My dad closed his eyes and inhaled quietly. Suddenly his eyes snapped open and he chuckled.
“It thinks you are being quite rude and you should appreciate your father more.” He said laughing. Jake cracked up next to him and I growled at both of them. Suddenly my fathers face grew serious looking at me with his head cocked to the side.
“What! What is it?” I asked panicked. “The baby is angry at us.” My dad blurted out in astonishment. “It feels your pain and he’s trying to…trying to do something. Force it back on us or something.”
“So he has a power! Like a real power?!” My face lit up in excitement.
“Yes but it’s so powerful. Could you feel it? It was everywhere…in the air, on my skin. Could you feel it Jake?”
“No Ed I couldn’t. What are you talking about?” My dad shook his head as if to shale the thought from his mind.
“Nothing, never mind. I need to go do something.” In a flash he was out of the doorway and into one of the many cars.
“What the hell was that about?” Jacob asked.
“I’m not sure but you know how my dad is.” I shrugged my shoulders and hopped off the metal table rubbing the blue gel off my stomach. Jacob pulled me close to him with my belly creating a gap between us. He smiled when he noticed but it didn’t make me smile. The baby would always come between us because 1) it wasn’t his and 2) I would lose it in a matter of weeks and probably also lose my mind.
“I know what you’re thinking Ness but don’t worry about it.” Jake said when he saw my frown. “We won’t let him take it, I won’t let him hurt you again I promise.” Jake kissed me softly on the lips but I pulled away.
“We’ll see.” I whispered.
Jake’s Point of View
My poor girl. I watch Renesmee sit on the lonely tree swing and push her self while she cries silent tears. She never wants me to see her cry anymore. I can’t blame her though, I too sneak out every once in a while to have a good sob fest. It’s only normal after everything that’s happened. My poor girl. Sometimes in the middle of the night I wake up to her screaming, yelling the bastard’s name in protest. I don’t even ask what the dreams are about…I already know. That day haunts me too but in a more silent, slow way. It haunts me in her warm smile, one that reminds of who she was before it all. It haunts me in her quiet sighs, when she pretends she’s just tired. It haunts me in her hidden tears, when she claims she just want to be alone. My poor girl. After an hour of this she walks back to the house trying to wipe away her tears. She doesn’t want me to ask what’s wrong, I already know that. I can’t help it though, because I just want to help.
“You okay?” I say as she walks into our room wearing her phony smile.
“Yup! Yup!” She sounds enthusiastic enough so I let it drop.
“Do you want to go in town today to maybe buy some baby clothes?” I offer trying to be a good…well I guess father. Wrong idea.
“What’s the point Jacob! What’s the point in buying clothes of Felix is just going to come back!? Gosh are you that fucking moronic!?” Her voice sounds like nails on a chalk bored and I regret ever saying anything. How come im getting all the shit for something I had no control over?
“Well sorry Ness, FUCK! I’m just trying to be a little helpful here and then you go on bitching at me!” It comes out faster then I can think about it and I clamp my hand over my mouth. To be honest im a little scared right now.
“Helpful? HELPFUL?!!! Why weren’t you helpful when he was raping me you jerk! Why couldn’t you be helpful then?!” The words cut me like a knife and I noticeably wince.
“Ness I just want to make everything better…” I reach up to grab her hand but she pulls away.
“You know how you could be helpful? You could get this baby out of me! You could somehow pull a way to kill Felix out of your ass! Other then that you could just fuck off!” Her pulse is quickening and her eyes seem to almost glow. Oh she’s angry alright. Suddenly my ears are ringing, it’s silent and barely there but it hurts.
“Ow shit! Ness what are you doing? Ow god what is that?” Renesmee looks at me confused and then frowns.
“Stop being a baby it’s nothing!” But it keeps hurting, growing stronger and stronger by the second.
“No im serious it hurts so fucking bad! God damnit what is that?” Ness looks at me and then looks down at her stomach in awe.
“It’s him. He’s doing it Jacob! I’m sorry.” The ringing stops but my head is still aching in pain.
Tears well up in Renesmee’s eyes and I fear the worse. She would never cry in front of me now-a-days unless she was thinking of something terrible. Even more terrible then what happened.
“No Nessie don’t even think about it…” Her eyes finally burst with tears and she turns to walk out of the door.
“I have to leave. It’s the only way. It’s the only way…” She whispers.
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