This is the story of Renesemee after Breaking Dawn. It shows her extreme love for Jacob and fight with the vampire side of her. When something horrible happens how will Nessie cope? And will Jacob stand by her side? banner by MRSBellaCullenBlack! Inspired by Black stars by Lunamoon! (Check it out!) Rated R for language and mature themes.
7. Almost gone.
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I almost thought it was a dream…or more suitably I nightmare. The moonlight hit his face just right to light him up like some kind of illusion- a twisted figment of my imagination. He stared at me wistfully with a smug grin on his face, slight but oh so powerful…it made me want to barf. He looked over at Dawn, the child of his wrong doings, and a certain shadow passed over his face, it almost seemed like he was capable of some good in his terrible existence until he glanced back at me. I would know that look anywhere and it was different from all the others he had given me...it reminded me of my dear Jacob, smiling at me as we lay across from each other having one of those loving staring contests. Felix looked at me like this and then took a cautious step forward, knowing very well what I could do to him if he made one wrong move. As he inched closer I waited for him to say something, anything that would make any of this right but he said nothing. Finally I spoke up.
“What do you think you’re doing here?” My voice was rigid and shaky. He unlocked from his strange chance and finally looked at me with that old murderous glint in his eye.
“I told you I’d be back didn’t I?” His voice was low, with a lot of bass. It made me shiver in disgust.
“So you’re just going to take him? Just like that?” I asked calmly not wanting to set off Dawn.
“You make it sound so bad Renesmee…”
“It is.” I snarled. “Everything you did was bad Felix. None of it was acceptable.”
“Well if you would’ve just listened to me instead of being a little snot nosed brat, you could’ve had a choice.” He growled black.
“I never had a choice!” My voice broke and I felt a lonely tear string down my cheek. He stopped a foot away from me and looked down at the floor before glancing at Dawn. Dawn tilted his head to the side, as he always did and smiled, reaching up to Felix. It broke my heart.
“How did you know where to find me?” I asked as Felix picked up his son and cradled him gently.
“A little birdie by the name of Jacob told me. It’s a shame I had to almost break his god damn neck to get it out.” Questions raced through my mind franticly. Jacob knew? Why didn’t he come looking for me? Did my whole family know?
“B-bu-but-” I stammered.
“Yes, I was surprised he didn’t come looking for you too. He was supposed to be your night in shinning armor wasn’t he? You know Renesmee…or should I say Vanessa, I may have hurt you but at least I didn’t pretend to be the bad guy.” I walked over to the pile of suitcases on the table and leaned on them for support. If only we had left a day sooner…
“Yeah well I guess you never really know somebody.” I finally said, shocked and hurt by this new information.
“You know Nessa, you might be mad at me and all but you can always come to Volterra with me. I won’t bite, plus my son does need his mother.” I looked back to Felix and Dawn and wanted to tear my heart out right then and there.
“God damnit Felix you think you can just come in here and take everything I have? Ruin my life twice!? Why? Why are you doing this to me?” I fell to the floor and shook with sobs. I felt a cold hand touch my shoulder and I cringed away from it.
“Come with me Ness.” I looked up at Felix and saw Dawn behind him, sitting on the floor looking at me with sadness and love. I remembered how it felt to have him inside my womb, I always had him there to help me, to comfort me and get me through the day. He smiled at me as I thought about this.
“Momma?” Dawn whispered. Felix looked back at him and I saw a smile creep over his face.
“Well would you look at that!” He said still smiling his idiotic grin.
“Yes, I see.” I replied gazing at my beautiful son. Don’t leave me momma. It was as clear as a bell and it was coming from Dawn.Don’t leave me momma…don’t leave me momma… don’t leave me momma…don’t leave me momma…
Dawn’s little voice rang in my head a million times as I sat to the one person I hated the most. He grabbed my hand but I pulled away, gripping Dawn tighter in my arms. The plane rocked with turbulence as we flew over the Atlantic Ocean and I cried silently to my self, holding him in my arms.
“I’m never going to leave you.” I whispered in his ear so silently only he could hear.
The plane had uncomfortable seats and smelled of peanuts and sweat but this didn’t distract me from the impending landing that was about to take place. I would soon be in Volterra, living the life of a goddess, with my son and bastard baby’s daddy. It was all so sick I wanted to pull my hair out. Usually vampires were ecstatic to enter the Volturi but not me, oh no I wanted no part in their tyranny. I hated Aro, I hated Cauis, I hated Marcus and most of all I hated Felix… I could barely comprehend my decision at all. But it was my decision and as long as I wanted to be with Dawn I had to do what I had to do. He was all I had left, not even my family cared for me.
I couldn’t believe that they knew but how else would Felix find out where I was? My dad or maybe Alice must have tracked me down and told Jacob where I was but he didn’t even care enough to come look for me. He didn’t even care. Everything that I thought I knew about him was shattered, every last bit turned into dust. I’ve been betrayed before no doubt but not like this, not by him. I thought he loved me all this time, I thought he cared but no, I was just a complicated burden to him, thrown into his life by the fateful act of imprinting. It made my stomach twist into knots and do flips, I looked over at Felix staring at an old lady down the aisle from us. I could smell how delicious she smelled but I don’t think that was what he was noticing.
“Have you ever thought about what it would feel like to grow old?” He asked quietly.
“No.” I answered.
“I think it would be quite wonderful actually, I think it would be amazing.” Felix looked at me with that same Jacob looking face again and I laughed. That was probably fake too.
“What so great about growing old? Your skin gets all wrinkly and your tits sag, there’s nothing amazing about it.” I snorted.“It’s not the physical part of it thats appealing, it’s the mental. Knowing that one day soon you’re going to die and maybe you might even find out the meaning of life…its actually quite magical.” He glanced around at the cabin and tried to comprehend through his thick skull.
"What ever you say Felix." He looked down at Dawn and sighed.
"I really wish you would be nicer to me, at least for Dawn’s sake. How do you think he would feel I his parents were always fighting?"
"How do you think he would feel if he knew he was re outcome of a vicious rape?" Felix grinned his scary grin and the person in front of us fidgeted nervously in his seat.
"Let's not talk about that right now Vanessa."
"Yes let's not…all in good time." I bit my lip and looked out at the endless ocean. Dawn squeezed my finger and laughed.
"Tell me about him." Felix said.
"What do you want to know?" I wanted to know why he was being so god damn nice.
"Everything...." He looked at me for a second but I tore my eyes away from his stupid face. I just couldn’t stand to look at him.
"He does have blood but it's colder and slower then mine. His heart beats a couple times a minute but he does have hard jeweled skin." I started.
"Yeah, yeah but what does he like?" I was thrown off by this question, not expecting him to care.
"Well he likes Power Rangers but only the original ones, he hates taking baths and he loves to be outside." They were little, inconspicuous things about him but they were my favorite details. I kissed the top of Dawn’s head and left my cheek on top of his cold skin.
"That’s umm nice." He smiled and then a look of mysterious pain washed over him. I decided maybe that wasn’t what he was looking for.
"Aren’t you forgetting the most important question Felix Volturi?
Don't you want to know if he has any powers?" Felix tried not to laugh and looked away.
"Well I guess that would be interesting but just to let you know I'm not power hungry like Aro. Our Gifts are not our only positive attributes." I rolled my eyes and then closed them tight, annoyed by the sounds and vision of Felix making his smart ass remarks.
"He can use the emotions and powers around him like there his own." I finally said exhausted from the hopelessly long conversation we were
"I guess he is special then." He answered a few minutes later.
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