Why was I doing this? Why couldn’t he just turn me? Why must I be such an average plane boring girl? What could I do other than this? Why am I doing this to every one whom I love and that love me? These questions have yet to be answered. And I know I’ll have to involve Jacob or another werewolf so that Alice can’t see any thing. Or will I just not plan anything? All I know is I will die. Nothing will stop me. (This story is very confuzing but if you read the whole thing you'll understand....and love it! Please write a review, thanks!)
This story actualy takes place in the middle of Eclipse, right after Leah and Seth become werewolfs.
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The morning I awoke from that night’s slumber Edward decided to question me on what I wanted to do.
“Well, I could go get our pictures printed while you catch up on laundry. Have you seen that pile of cloths lately? It’s huge! And we have gone out almost every day. Let’s not push Charlie too far. He just ungrounded you.”
“Okay! I can’t wait to see the pictures!” I was frightened to see the comparison between Edward and I but I made an attempt to hide it. I haven’t forgotten about the things I was contemplating last night.
“Alright, I’ll be back in an hour.” Then he pecked me on the forehead and left.I put a lode in the washer-which only made a dent in the heap. Then started on the pile of dishes I’d let sit unwashed for the past five days or so. The only bad part about this was that it only kept my hands busy; my mind was free to wonder. But then Charlie woke up and came down the stairs to see what all the racket was.
“What…what’s goin’ on down hear?” He was still mottled and tired, I could tell.
“Nothing dad, I’m just doing the dishes.”
“No Edward today?” He sounded hopeful he hadn’t forgiven Edward for the depression he sent me in when he left Forks not long ago.
“No. He should be here in an hour or so.” Charlie’s face fell. He had enjoyed when I was grounded-Edward wasn’t hear as much, or aloud to be.
“Oh. Well I’m going to the Blacks’ today any ways. Jakes going to be gone all day today and I thought I’d help Billy around the house. You know keep him company. I’ll be back for dinner.”
“You and Edward aren’t going to go any where while I’m gone right?”
“Nope. We’ll be here all day.”
“Okay.” He settled with that.
”I’m leaving now though. See you later Bells.”
“Bye.” Then Charlie left too.I was all alone. This wasn’t good for me; I’m still not quite over my depression. I feel like he’s not coming back. But I only had twenty more minutes left though I don’t know if I’ll make it that far the walls seam to be caving in on me, my hole is only stitched. Not yet healed.
I got back to work on the dishes and ran to the washer every time the timer went off to put in another load. I was beginning to panic, I only had ten minutes now but the piles of cloths and dishes were now gone and I was left with nothing to keep me busy.
I decided if I couldn’t go to La Push until Wednesday-because of Edward’s request that I stay with the rest of his family while he and his bothers are away-then I figured why not call Jacob and kill some time? He might answer the phone, even though the last thousand times I called the Blacks Billy answered and told me that Jacob didn’t want to talk to me.
But when I got to the phone I remembered that Jake wasn’t going to be home all day-probably a wolf thing.I panicked and went to listen to the radio for the next five minutes, big mistake.
They were playing a slow song-the kind that it was impossible not to understand what the person was saying. It was a song about a girl whose boyfriend went to go get some groceries and never came back. The boyfriend left her and she committed suicide, then when he found out she died he thought there was no reason of living and also committed suicide.
Could it be any more ironic!I curled up into a ball and held the stitches in. Then, finally Edward got back with an envelope in his hands.His face was tortured.
“Sorry. I should have just stayed here with you and had Alice…”
I interrupted him then. He didn’t need to stand there and writhe in guilt. “Shhh, Edward. Shhh. It’s okay, I’m fine.” I stood up and tried to show him how well I felt. Or pretend I felt well.
”See no harm done.” I was fine now that he was back. No more bursting stitches.He let out a sigh.
“Alright, I believe you.” He didn’t. But I let it go and snatched the envelope of pictures out of his hands.
“How many are there?”“Forty. I’ll take twenty, you take twenty.”
I ripped it open and on top of the stack was the first picture we took. It was just me standing by the door in his room, I wasn’t interesting at all. The picture was almost boring to me, yet Edward gasped at the sight of it.
“What? It’s just me, nothing special.” He took my face in his icy cold, marble hands then and looked deep into my eyes.
“Bella, you are very, very, very unbelievably special. That’s why I gasped, you’re just so beautiful. The color of your skin next to that lovely blue blouse, the way your hair is curved back around your ear, how your eyes look at me though the picture. Bella, you’re the most special little thing I have ever seen.”
“Okay, Edward. If you think so that’s all that matters. Now, let’s keep looking.” He leaned down and passionately kissed me, his marble lips crushed mine.
“Alright, I just needed that first. Continue.”I handed him the picture of me and said “here, I don’t want pictures of me.”
I was the one to gasp this time. This one was of just Edward; his eyes were melting gold, his smile-my favorite-cocked to the side. He was simply beautiful.
“What? It’s just me, nothing special.” He said mocking me.
“Edward, I’m being dazzled by a picture.”
He scoffed, handed me the photo and said “You can have this one then.”
The next picture was of us together-Esme had taken this one and another so we could each have one of us both. It was…what I expected. He was so much more beautiful than I was. I couldn’t look at this much longer, so I took it, put it with my other photo and handed the copy of it to Edward the minute I saw it.
The next was Alice and Jasper. “Can I have this one?” I wanted one of Alice, and not the one of her and me together.
“Of coarse you can, love.”
“Thanks.” I took the photo and set it on top of my stack.
The next was Alice and I, one that I didn’t want to see, yet I looked at it. The comparison was again horrifying. She was so gorgeous! I was so normal. Her beautiful spiky brown hair was so glorious it made my straggly brown hair hanging by my shoulders look almost gross. Her lovely golden eyes were so unnaturally pretty that mine looked like mud. Again this is what I expected so I handed it to Edward.
“Don’t you want it? She’s your best friend?”
“Yes, but I like the one of her and Jasper better.”
“Okay, what ever you say. I’d bet Alice would like this.”
“Don’t you want it?” I asked
“No, I don’t like pictures of you and Alice together. It brings back bad memories.”
Hmmm, bad memories. Did Alice see something in the past he hadn’t told me about? But I ignored that and we continued in this way threw the whole stack. I ended up with five of Edward, only one of he and myself together, two of Jasper and Alice, two of Esme and Carlisle, one of Rosallie with Emmett, three of just Alice, one of the forest, one of me with Carlisle and Esme, three of different places in the house and one of me.
Doing all of that took us two hours and it was now noon so Edward and I went to a diner so I could eat.
“Stanley’s Diner, that’s original.” Edward commented when we drove into the parking lot of the restaurant.
“Well, it can’t be that awful.”
“You’re the one eating it.”
“Yes and I’m not picky.”
When we walked in I saw that the server was, of coarse, female. This sort of thing seems to happen every time Edward and I go out. The lady will flirt with him but he will only pay attention to me so she will get mad and if I leave will give him her phone number and tell him she’s single. Then Edward will politely turn her down and she will go cry in the bathroom. This happens a lot.
So I sighed and let the chaos begin with my thoughts in an annoying state of jealousy.“
Hi, I’m Jenny and I’ll be your server today. Table for two?” The beautiful brunette waitress informed Edward. Her hair was in a ponytalef, her eyes a light powder blue and she had a lovely little high pitched voice that was meant for a perky blonde-maybe she died her hair? She was pretty and I was just a normal boring girl who didn’t deserve what she had.
“Yes, thank you. Do mind getting us a more private table towards the back?” Edward had said these words every time we went to a restaurant.
“No problem.” She said about ready to fall over from the rush of sent that was Edward’s breath.She escorted us to a table in the back corner of the diner. Then she left us because she had forgotten the menus.
“Ugh! I hate going out to eat!” I shared with him.
“Why? You don’t have to cook.” He smiled crookedly and had my thoughts momentarily scrambled.
“Um...uh…Oh yeah! It’s because the female waitresses’ are so annoying!”He chuckled and the waitress was back with our menus.
“What can I get you to drink?” She only asked Edward.Edward motioned to me so I said “Coke please.” And Edward as usual ordered the same and she left.
I started to space off, I was again thinking about why I deserved Edward and again I asked myself the question: Why do I deserve Edward? He’s so perfect and I’m so normal. Why does he love me? I added to my quarry. Then Jenny returned breaking my concentration.
“Here you go.” She said as she set the cokes on the table. “Now, what can I get you to eat?” She asked Edward. He once again motioned to me so I glanced down at the menu and ordered the first thing I saw. “I’ll have a club sandwich, thank you.”
“Okay and nothing for you?”
“Actually, I’ll have the sampler please.”
“I’ll be back with your meal shortly.” Then she took our menus and skipped away to the kitchen.
“That sampler is huge! You really bought that for me?” I said as I realized how huge the plate in the picture was.
“Yes.” He chuckled.
I sighed and once again spaced off. I was thinking again about what had happened with Jasper and the pictures and all the women who are so much better for Edward than me, when Jenny returned. She seemed to be ignoring all the other customers for Edward and me.
“Here you are.” She set the plates on the table and turned toward Edward so that her back was blocking my view of him. “Is there anything I can get you?”
“No, but thank you for asking.” Then she went straight towards the bathroom to most likely cry.
“I honestly don’t know how you do it Edward, how can you break so many hearts?”
“I don’t know? A hundred years of practice I guess.”
I giggled and took a bite of my food. I was done in five minutes then Edward pushed his plate forward.
“No thanks! I’m stuffed!”
Then Jenny hurried around the corner and turned to Edward.
“That will be…” Edward cut her off slapping a dollar bill into her hand. She looked down at the money while Edward got up and he and I started walking toward the door. “Thanks for coming!” She yelled after Edward and I but he was already holding the door open for me, we got to the Volvo and I let out a sigh.
“What?” He asked me when we were both sitting in the car.
“It’s finally over!”
“Well, love, it’s three o’clock. What would you like to do?”
“Let’s go home. I’m going to finish my home work and make dinner for Charlie”
After dinner Edward left and Charlie went to bed early so I had about a half hour until Edward would be waiting in my room so I was in the shower when I realized how badly I needed to see Jake. I hadn't relized until now how much I missed him. I'll have to see him soon, I'm sure he's missed me too.
I turned the shower off and dried myself off. I’ve gotten away from Alice before I can do it again. I thought to encourage my self. I did my nights work of washing my face and combing my hair then went to my room to find Edward lying on my bed.
“Hello, love.” He greeted me as he sat up and moved to sit at the foot of the bed.
“Hello.” Then I took his place under the blanket.
I yawned and he said “you sound tired go to sleep.” He started humming my lullaby and I fell asleep as soon as the hummed the last line I knew so well.
“Good night, Bella.” Edward lulled as my eyes slid shut.