Sometimes Goodbye Is A Second Chance
After 5 years of rebuilding his life and putting the pieces back together, everything falls apart once again when she comes storming back into his life. Alice/Jasper - AU and AH
Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me. I am not, will never be and never was Stephenie Meyer. This is an Alice Jasper AU and AH story. And also my first Twilight story.
25. Chapter 25
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CHAPTER 25: New beginnings
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Love Song by 311
I had forgotten how much I loved drawing and sketching. I haven't done it in so long, but it used to be my sanctuary from the outside world. It felt amazing to have a pencil in my hand again and to draw lines on a piece of paper. I tried to come up with my wedding dress, but kept drawing general, everyday clothes. I drew skirts and tops and dresses and jeans and just couldn't stop. I sighed contently.
"Alice," Jasper called from inside the house. He was working on a new book, and so I left him inside and went to draw outside, bringing Amber with me. If we both worked in the same room, we quickly got distracted – by each other – and so neither did any work.
Our peanut was currently asleep in her stroller next to me, bathing in the morning sun. She was such a good baby. I adjusted her light blanket before I slipped inside to see what Jasper wanted.
"Yes?" I asked.
"Phone," he said. "It's your sister."
"Oh, thank you," I grabbed the phone and went to the kitchen so I wouldn't disturb him.
"Hello," I said into the phone.
"Hi, Alice, it's Cynthia. I hope I'm not disturbing you," she apologized.
"Not at all, you can always call," I quickly answered her.
"Thanks. I've been thinking a lot about your offer and suggestions and I might take you up on it. Could we meet to discuss this somewhere, maybe in town? I don't want to talk on the phone." I was happy and relieved she called. The other day was unpleasant and I didn't know how she would react. But she was making the right decision and I was happy for her.
"Sure," I said, "do you want to meet for lunch?"
"That would be great. Say 2 p.m.?" Cynthia suggested.
"See you then," I said and hung up.
I knew well how it was being kept in that golden cage at home; I went through the same, sans the golden part. She wanted to go to Seattle so much and I could help her. Our parents really didn't have any right to keep her trapped at home; she was entitled to living her life how she wanted it and not how they preferred it.
"Jazz," I called him and danced into the living room.
"Yes, darling," he opened his arms, so I could sit on his lap.
"Can I take your car today? I'd like to drive into town to meet Cynthia and talk about things with her," I asked him, while I nuzzled on his neck.
"Sure," Jasper answer, "do you want me to come with you?"
"Nah," I said, "it's ok. You have to work anyway, I'll take Amber with me, so you'll have a little time for yourself."
"As you wish," he kissed my nose. "When are you going?"
"We are having lunch at 2, so a little after 1," I made the calculation. "I'll finish the sketch I've been working on and then get ready."
"Ok, let me know if you need any help," he offered readily.
"If you help me, I'll just be late," I chuckled.
"Isn't being late fashionable?" Jasper tried once more.
"Not to lunch with one's sister," I giggled and promised him, "Later."
I fastened Amber's baby seat belts, so she was comfortable and secure. I gave her the pacifier and she sucked on it gently. I already had her baby bags in the car, Jasper only had to put in the stroller and I was ready.
"You look good in red," Jasper leaned me against the car.
"Thank you," I blushed. I loved putting together outfits, although I was in a hurry today, so I just put on a strapless red summer dress. Apparently, I made a good choice.
After kissing me lingeringly and making me forget who and where I was, I just wanted to return inside and forgot about everything else.
"Come back soon," Jasper said. "And drive carefully."
"I will." I promised him with my words and much more with my eyes.
"Now go, before I carry you back inside," Jasper said in a husky voice.
I got in the car laughing and he waved us off.
Cynthia was already waiting for us, when we got there. Amber was wide awake and took in her surroundings readily.
"Hey," Cynthia greeted us.
"Sorry we're late," I apologized.
"Don't be, it's ok. Look at her, she is adorable," Cynthia offered Amber her hand and she took it.
"I brought her a toy, I hope that's ok," Cynthia said and took out a baby rattle.
"Of course, thank you so much," I replied. She just smiled and offered Amber the rattle. She took it readily and began shaking it immediately.
"She likes it," I said to Cynthia.
After ordering our food, I said to Cynthia, "I hope the other day wasn't that bad for you. I'm sorry if I offended you in some way, but I just had to say that to them."
She just nodded, "I know and it's ok. We have different relationships with them and at least you know where you stand. They were really cruel to you and that bothered me immensely."
I smiled at her.
"I'm really confused about the whole thing and have no idea what to do," she continued, "it's really hard. On the one hand I despise them for what they have been doing to you and on the other hand I love them. They are my parents."
"It's ok, Cynthia, this must be confusing for you and I don't really want to convince you any way. I just want to help you if you want. Whatever you decide, I'm going to be ok with it." I didn't want to make her hate our parents, they have never treated her the way they had me, although her life wasn't peachy either. But it was her life and her choice.
"I've been thinking of accepting your offer and going to Seattle next month. I don't know what mom and dad are going to say, but I will tell them I have to go. I really want to go to college there. And I will see how it will work out then, I don't want to make any rash decisions. I will deal with them as I go along."
"Ok, I think that's a good idea," I smiled. "I've been talking to Edward and Bella and they will help you find a place to stay and set you up if you want. They can also show you around and just help you get settled there." I explained.
"That would be really great, thank you," she said.
"I have their phone number here and you can them or tell me and I'll do it. You remember Bella and Edward, right?" I asked her.
"Yeah, sure, the shy girl and the Adonis," she chuckled.
"Well, I wouldn't put it that way, but yeah." I joined her. "Bella is really easy to talk too, so I think that will work out great. And Edward even teaches music there, so I bet he knows some people."
"It sounds like a dream," Cynthia sighed.
"A dream well in your reach," I told her.
"Thank you so much for everything, Alice," she said. "I know we haven't always gotten along well and I know I haven't always been fair to you and I am so sorry about that."
"Shhh," I stopped her, "I'm your older sister and it's my duty to look after you not the other way around. And you were basically still a child or a teen when I last saw you. You didn't know any better."
She nodded gratefully, "It would please me very much if we were friends. I've really missed you, Alice and I'm so happy you are back."
I hugged her, "That would make me very happy."
After we finished our meal and discussed a few more things, we went for a short walk. I had to keep picking up Amber's new rattle, because it landed on the floor every other minute. I was slowly running out of wet baby wipes.
"Oh my God," Cynthia suddenly gasped, "I think a half-naked god is coming our way."
I looked in the direction Cynthia was looking and saw a familiar face approaching. My face lit up and I couldn't help but smile. I haven't seen him in so long and he had grown up so much. He was only wearing pants and had a tool belt around his waist and I couldn't help but noticed how muscular and well shaped he has become. He really was a sight to behold, so tan and naked. Suddenly, I found myself deep in his embrace. He also became really tall.
"Alice," he said while twirling me around. "I haven't seen you in forever."
"Jake," I laughed. "Put me down, you giant."
"Where have you been, doll?" Jacob asked me.
"I've been a little lost, but now I'm back," I smiled. I turned to Cynthia, who was drooling all over herself and introduced them.
"This is my sister Cynthia, I'm not sure if you guys ever met before," I said and turned to Cynthia, "and this is Jacob, a good friend of mine."
"Hi, nice to meet you," they shook hands and I noticed Jake's gaze lingered on her a bit.
"And this is my daughter, Amber Rose," I introduced my peanut to Jake.
"Wow, you're a mom," Jake kneeled down to take a better look at Amber. "Congratulations."
"Thanks," I beamed.
"So, who's the lucky guy?" Jake asked grinning, but still looking at Amber.
"Jasper," I answered.
"I figured," Jake stood up again.
"How so?" I asked him. I bet he heard all about the whole mess, too.
"Well, she looks a lot like him," he smiled.
His comment made me happy. I had no idea why, but I really liked it that he saw Jasper in Amber. I was proud.
"So, what have you been up to?" I asked him. "Your hair is short and you got so tall and … well, in shape." I think I even blushed a bit.
"Well, I'm working for my uncle's construction company during the summer and am staying on the reservation," he explained. "Otherwise, I am attending college in Seattle. I'm in my third year now."
"Oh, you do?" I asked excited. "Cynthia is going up there this fall and will be starting her first year."
He turned to her. "You are?"
"Yes, I can't wait." Cynthia said excited.
"Awesome. I could always show you around a bit," Jacob offered.
"I would be nice to see a familiar face there," Cynthia blushed.
They exchanged numbers and arranged for a coffee meet later this week. I just kept standing there, smiling. I have known Jake since high school. He was younger than our 'gang', but that never bothered him. And once upon a time he had the biggest crush on Bella and desperately wanted to win her over. He tried so hard to persuade her he was the right one for her and that Edward would never make her as happy as he could. He was like a love-struck puppy. But since he was a few years younger than Bella, it never came to anything, especially since Bella always thought of him as her little brother. The crush phase passed and everyone got along well again. Jake was fun, relaxed and uncomplicated. He would be a good friend to Cynthia. He would show her a completely different side to life and she needed to see and experience that.
We chatted for a while, Jake told us a bit about what he has been up to in the last few years and I told him some bits of my life. I also asked him if he saw Edward and Bella much and he explained they saw each other every now and then, but not regularly. Everyone was so busy, so it was hard. But they always kept in touch.
Cynthia couldn't stop staring at him and I wanted to give them some privacy, maybe get to know each other a bit. And I missed Jasper. I have no idea how I survived without him for so long; today I was only gone for a few hours and already missed him desperately.
"I have to go, guys, Amber will need to be changed and fed soon, and I want to be home by then" I said to them. It was not exactly a lie. "Cynthia, I will talk to you soon, ok? And Jake, it was so nice to see you again. We have to have lunch while you are still in town, catch up a bit and all that, ok?"
"Sure thing," Jake laughed and gave me a quick hug. I also hugged Cynthia and a minute later, Amber and I were on our way home.
I had no idea where all the ideas came from, but they kept me busy for the better part of the day. I loved writing, it was fun, and although sometimes really frustrating, I always enjoyed it on some level. After my last book, I just couldn't write anymore. I had a deadline coming soon, but had no ideas and no story. That was until a few weeks ago, when ideas just started forming in my mind. And now I couldn't stop.
I was lost in my own world and didn't even hear Alice and Amber return.
I felt her lips brush my neck and I turned around. "Hey, you're back," I kissed her.
"I missed you," she said. "How is your book coming along?"
"It's going." I smiled. "I don't know, I have so many ideas, I have to sort them out and rearrange them a bit. Right now it's all a big mess."
"I'm sure you'll do great," Alice smiled at me.
"How was your day?" I asked her. I looked for Amber but didn't see her anywhere.
"She's asleep in her car seat on the kitchen table. I brought her inside but you didn't notice." I guess I really was absorbed in my work.
"It was a lovely afternoon," Alice said and pulled me on the couch. She relaxed back and I started rubbing her feet.
"Cynthia decided to go to Seattle and asked me for help. Oh, and we ran into Jake. He's huge," Alice exclaimed.
I chuckled, "I've noticed, yeah."
"Anyway, Cynthia really liked him. Might have had something to do with the fact that he was walking around town practically naked," she giggled.
"Naked?" I asked amused.
"He's in construction for the summer. And it's hot out there." Alice giggled. "I left them alone and went home."
"That was nice of you to do, especially taking into account he was practically naked." I teased.
"I know, but I have plans of my own that include nakedness too," Alice sat on my lap.
"You do?" I asked smiling.
"Oh yes," she said and started unbuttoning my pants.
"Have you decided on your best man yet?" Alice asked me.
We were having lunch and she was reading a bridal magazine Rose has sent over.
"I have actually." Alice looked up interested.
"I'm going to ask Emmett. I know Edward is practically my brother and all, but I want to ask Emmett. But I was thinking of asking Edward to play us a song on the piano while you walk down the aisle or whatever and one during the ceremony. What do you think?"
"Oh, that is a great idea," Alice gushed and swallowed some salad, "And quite brilliantly pulled. That way no one will be offended."
"Exactly," I agreed.
"Do you think Ella and Jack are old enough to be in the wedding too?" Alice asked. "I was thinking Ella could be the flower girl and Jack the ring bearer."
"I'm sure it could work. It might be awkward and take a while, but who cares." I answered.
"I'll talk it over with Rose," Alice was excited.
"Just let me know if you need anything," I offered. It was the polite thing to do.
Alice just smiled at me.
"There is something else I wanted to talk to you about," I began.
"What is it," Alice asked.
"I took a look at your sketches," Alice looked alarmed. "Now, before you say anything, you told me you haven't started on the wedding dress yet, so I didn't see anything. But I saw your drawings and they were amazing."
Alice blushed, "Really?"
"Yes, really. And I'm not just saying that." I smiled. "Listen, have you ever thought what you wanted to do in your life? I'm not saying you have to work or anything, but since I know you want to be productive and I can't actually keep you locked in the bedroom all the time, have you ever considered designing clothes?"
Alice's face lit up, "I have. When I was younger, I always dreamed of being a fashion designer, but I never went to the right school or anything. I don't have the proper education."
"Who cares! You could take a course or something. The important thing is you are good at what you do and I see no problem here. If you want it, I'm sure something could be arranged."
Alice has always loved sketching and she was all about fashion. She could easily work from home and send her stuff in and go in if she needed to. But this way, I would have her at home more and it would be good for Amber too. At least that was what I was telling myself.
"I guess I could try," Alice squeed.
I nodded, that was my girl.
We were all still asleep when an annoying pounding started downstairs. I wanted to get up, but I just couldn't. I tried to ignore the pounding, but it wouldn't go away.
"You go," Alice said sleepily, "it's your house."
I sighed. I was awake anyway, so I dragged my ass out of bed and went downstairs. I quickly look at the clock on the wall, it was 8 am.
"What," I opened the door.
"Don't be all grumpy, we told you we were coming in the morning," Rose said annoyed.
"Well, I took in the morning as at 10 am and not at 8 am," I argued.
"You were wrong, not my problem," Rose handed me over some bags. "Anyway, it's picnic time."
"Where's Em?" I asked.
"In the car with the kids," Rose explained impatiently.
"Where's Alice?" she asked.
"In bed," I grinned.
"Wipe that smirk of your face and get dressed. We have to take some stuff up to the lake, everyone will be here soon." Rose darted past me.
"Hey, my man," Emmett suddenly appeared in the doorframe and patted me on the shoulder. "Have anything to eat? Rose wouldn't let me eat; she was too much in a hurry to get here."
"Probably cause you eat once an hour," I groaned and followed him into the kitchen.
"What can I say, I'm a big man," he grinned and opened the fridge.
"If you are at it already, make some breakfast for everyone," I told him and went upstairs to get dressed.
I was glad I had some clothes in the bathroom, cause there was no way in hell I was going to get them from my bedroom, where Rose and Alice were currently squealing. I washed and dressed and joined Emmett downstairs, who had in the meantime brought Ella and Jack inside and was now busy making eggs for everyone. I got the coffee started.
After breakfast, Rose made us pack everything up and we were on our way to the lake. It was a twenty minute walk from the house and Emmett and I had to go back twice. When we arrived by the lake and had to go back for the rest of the stuff, we each took a beer with us.
When we came back down to the house, mom and dad have just arrived. I walked over to them and gave mom a hug.
"Hey," I greeted them.
"Rose, Alice and the kids are already up by the lake. Rose couldn't wait for this picnic to start," Emmett explained before either of them could ask about their whereabouts.
We left a note for Bella and Edward and were soon on their way back to the lake.
While Emmett entertained Esme, Carlisle started a conversation with me.
"How are things going?" he asked.
"Great, dad, everything is great," I answered him truthfully.
"I'm really glad everything is coming into place for you. It should have happened a long time ago and I am truly sorry you had to go through what you did," dad said.
"I know, but it's ok, really," I reassured him, "maybe it was just meant to be this way, you know."
"You've made us both happy and proud and I want you to know that," Carlisle started. "You know that we have always considered Alice as one of our own and therefore we also accepted Amber as our granddaughter, even before we found out she was really yours."
"I know, dad," I smiled.
He nodded. "So, when is the wedding?" he clapped me on the shoulder.
"In a few weeks. We haven't actually decided on a fixed date yet, but we were thinking September."
We talked about his work a bit and about the cruise he was planning to surprise mom with. We arrived at the lake a few minutes later and the rest of the day just flew by. Edward and Bella brought a lot of food with them, so we barbecued all day long. The kids loved the water and wanted to swim in it, naturally. It was a hot day, and we all took a dive sooner or later. We played ball, ate, drank and just had good family fun. It was nice to see everyone together, to be complete once again.
I was sitting on a blanket, leaning back on a tree and took a look around me.
There were mom and dad, going for a walk by the lake, hand in hand. I knew they weren't my biological parents, but they were the best parents anyone could have. Rose and I were blessed to have been accepted into their family. Who knows where we would have ended up without them and what would have become of us.
When I would look back years in the future, I would be able to tell that they had always stood beside their children and their grandchildren. Not a single one of us ever felt alone or unloved. They would be there for all major events and would visit us regularly. The year Alice came back in my life it would be a start of a new Christmas tradition. From that year on we would always spend Christmas together at my parents' place. Dad would continue working in the hospital until he'd retire. Mom and he'd take up traveling after that. They would be very happy till the very end.
My gaze continued and settled onto Edward and Bella. I smiled. Underneath all the bickering and teasing, there was a love so deep between them, nothing could ever break it. They didn't know it then, but Bella would soon become pregnant. It would be a surprise and unplanned, yet still welcomed. Before Bella would give birth, they'd get married. A wonderful wedding, although short and only in the family circle due to Bella's condition. After that, they would wait a few years until having another baby. Bella would open her own bookstore in the future and Edward would continue to teach music and one day record a single, a lullaby.
Rose and Emmett were sitting by the shore, watching over Ella and Jack, who were playing with water. Emmett's arm was around Rose and he seemed proud. The beauty and the beast everyone at school used to tease. But they should look at them now, proud parents of twins and as much in love as they were on the first day. After all the troubles with getting pregnant in the first place, tragedy would strike again. In a few years Jack would get sick and a few months would be spend in terror before he would get better thanks to dad and Ella. Soon after that Rose would be pregnant again and another boy would join their family. We would spend a lot of time together, always visiting each other and sometimes going on vacations together.
I looked down in my lap, where Alice was resting. She seemed to be in a daze too. I ran my hand through her hair and she sighed contently. I finally had her back, her and our baby girl and from then on, life would only get better. We would get married in a few weeks, right here up by the lake. It would be a beautiful wedding. A small gazebo would be set up by the lake, with chairs in front of it. Edward would be playing the piano; mom and dad would be sitting in the first row. Of course, mom would be crying and dad would have to hug her throughout the ceremony, but he would look happy and so proud. I would be waiting anxiously for Alice to meet in front of the altar and Emmett would have to calm me down several times. He stood by me, proudly and a big goofily. When the music would start playing, Ella would come out first, followed by Rose, who would help her with the flowers. Bella would follow her with Amber in her arms and finally, Alice would emerge from the trees, looking hauntingly beautiful. I would never forget the moment I first laid eyes on her that day. She was covered in cream white, long strapless dress with tiny flowers in her hair. Her smile would be reaching her eyes and she would shine on her way to me. And the moment I'd take her hand in mine and we'd promised each other eternity, our lives together would truly began.
Two years later our son Dylan would be born. And two years after that, Charlotte would follow. I would write a few more books and Alice would become a fashion designer. We would both work from home; although after Dylan we would move into a bigger house, but keep the current one for vacations. The new house would be near Rose and Emmett, which would make everything much easier and convenient.
"What are you thinking about?" Alice asked, looking up at me from my lap.
"You, us," I told her and smiled.
She sat up in front of me. "What about us?" she asked tenderly.
"How lucky we are, how far we have come and how good life is in the moment," I explained.
"It's pretty good, isn't it," Alice kissed me lightly. "Who would have thought we'd manage to get through the fiasco and come out stronger and better?"
"Honestly, not me," I grinned.
"I love you," Alice told me.
"And I you, darlin'." I pulled her to me. Everything I ever wanted, I now had. The doubts and worries were gone, the troublesome and restless nights were in the past, my haunted soul and broken heart were mended and whole once again.
Amber stirred beside me on the blanket, she was about to wake up.
"Our little peanut is about to wake up," Alice said.
"Yup, and I plan on tiring her out during the day, so she'll sleep soundly through the night," I teased. "I've great plans with her mommy."
"Oh, you do," Alice giggled.
"Yes, ma'am," I promised her with a deep kiss.
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