After Edward's sudden departure in New Moon, we all know how lost Bella felt. When Edward unexpectantly returns, will Bella welcome him with open arms or will she believe he is just a figment of her imagination?
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Another boring day in Forks High, all too predictable. After English I met up with my "friends" I guess you could call them. Angela, Jessica, Mike, Eric, and Tyler all waited for me as we walked to the lunch room. I put a fake smile on for the benefit of others when all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and mope. I had to be strong....for my friends, Jacob, Charlie, and even.......Edward. It hurt to think of him. I changed my thoughts to my friends. I faked a laugh although I had no idea what they were talking about.
I sat down at our table in between Angela and Mike. I saw Jessica smile so I followed her gaze to the permanently vacant table that was...the Cullens. My eyes met with him. I had to have been hallucinating. There was no way that the Edward Cullen the love of my life was sitting right there just feet away. I didn't allow myself to think this way. I was going crazy. I felt myself blush at the fear that someone noticed my difference. I just turned back to Mike.
After lunch I went to Biology where he was sitting at our old table. Definitely a hallucination. I sat down not feeding into my poor hopeless mind.
I was losing it. I was already gone so I may as well look crazy too.
"Hi", I responded feeling totally mental for talking to myself.
He made small talk with me, not once did I meet his gaze. Once the bell rang, I left outside. I met up with Mike who walked me to my truck. I knew that if it were really Edward he would hear Mike's thoughts and be hurt by them.....No I couldn't allow myself to believe that. He left me. He didn't want me. It was his choice. At that point I let go of all control on myself. Mike leaned in to kiss me goodbye just as he usually does just with a bigger smile on his face. I knew it was because Edward was back, and I was with him instead of Edward. I kissed him back and climbed into my truck.
Without thought, I felt tears streaming down my cheeks.
What's wrong with me? Am I crazy? Am I hurting Mike by still having such feelings for Edward? I only got with Mike because everyone thought it would be good for me to date. I never liked Mike in that sense. It was always akward to kiss him. Nothing would ever compare to being with Edward. Nothing.
But there was nothing I could do about that. Edward had moved on, why shouldn't I? Because I care about him. Not a good enough reason. I was lost in thought before I realized I had pulled up in front of my house.
I just walked into my bedroom, under my blankets with a box of tissues and cried until I fell asleep.
No doubt, I had nightmares.