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Thankful

Summary:
Third part of to my stories "Alone" and "Together". **ADULT CONTENT** All Human. Bella and Edward have moved up to Seattle with the kids to start their lives... find out what happens.


Notes:


10. Chapter 10

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Thankful 10

BPOV

These past few months have been the hardest ones yet. Masen got in a fight in school and was suspended for a few days. Seeing the rage in his eyes reminded me of Edward that night, and I immediately made an appointment for him and Maddy with a therapist. They needed someone to talk to about everything and since they weren't talking to me or the other Cullen's about it, I though this would be better. Carlisle and I had sat down and talked with them about everything that happened regarding the tumor. They seemed to understand the jest of it, but i still think they were confused.

I was finally back at work. James caught me up on the latest gossip in the firm which was all about me. I didn't really care. I spent most of my days in my office getting ready for a trial anyway. I felt like I needed to win this one to prove to the partners they still needed me. The last few nights James had been a regular at the house, as we needed to work overtime, since it was a pretty involved case - just the kind I like.

I also made daily calls to Edward to make sure he was doing well. He as still living with Carlisle and Esme. His therapy was going well and he was back to work on a part-time basis. His headaches were still there, but getting better as well. Each night he would ask about the kids and about my day. Although, during yesterday's phone call he asked if I was still going to the Forks Hospital Benefit tomorrow night and if he could escort me. I told him I was still going and that Charlie and Rebecca were going to watch the kids, but I wasn't sure yet if I wanted him to escort me or not. That led to an argument which led to Carlisle taking the phone from Edward and telling me he'd call later after things were calmed down. I hated it when something I said upset him.

The next afternoon I piled the kids in the car and drove to Charlie and Rebecca's house. I was eager to see the new additions they made, since they just had baby number two. I prepared myself for the line of questions Charlie would have for me. And I knew there would be plenty.

"Hey Dad," I said getting out of the car.

"Hey Bells."

The kids piled out of the car and ran inside.

"Thanks for doing this."

"No problem. We haven't had the kids in a while, anyway."

Charlie took Lilly and walked behind me into the house while I carried my dress and bag with my shoes and accessories. Rebecca was in the living room with the kids.

"Hey Bella."

"Can I hang my dress in your room? I don't want it to get wrinkled."

"Of course."

Upstairs, I hung my dress on the back of their bathroom door. When I walked out, there was Charlie, standing in the doorway.

"Feel like talking?"

“About," I asked.

"Edward. His arrest. The divorce."

"Sure, no and no. But seeing as you're going to ask anyway, go ahead."

"I just want to make sure you and the kids are going to be okay."

"We are," I said.

"And the divorce?"

"It's not a divorce, Dad. We're separated. There's a difference."

"Please tell me you two had a prenup."

"No and it's none of your business anyway. What Edward and I choose to do is our business."

"Bella, I just don't want to see you rush back into his arms like nothing's happened."

"I'm not. I've been taking my time with this. It's not easy, though. Please, for me, just let it go. I have enough to worry about."

"Alright, alright. I just worry about you."

"I know. I love you, Dad."A little while later I had changed into my dress, did my hair and make up and put on my jewelry. It was events like this that I pulled out the family jewels. Since my dress was rather plain, I decided to pull out the big guns and went full out bling-bling. (Links to dress and jewelry are on my page) I always felt out of place when I wore the Cullen Family Jewels, but tonight was different. Taking one last look at myself in the mirror, I grabbed my purse and invitation and went downstairs.

"My, my, my, don't we look stunning," Rebecca said.

"Thanks."

Outside my cab honked its horn. I quickly kissed my kids goodnight and left.

When I got to the benefit there were people everywhere. Waiters were walking around with champagne; a band was playing and people were dancing. This was my favorite party of the year. I didn't see any of the Cullen's yet, so I mingled with people I did know. I found Tyler Crowley's parents and chatted with them a bit. Tyler was now in New York working on Wall Street. He had a house in the Hampton's and an apartment in Manhattan where his wife and their three kids resided.

And then, I saw them. Esme, Rose, Emmett, Jasper and Alice. But no Carlisle or Edward. I excused myself from the Crowley's and joined my family.

Esme was stunning in a yellow crossover bodice gown. Rosalie, who was due any day now, was gorgeous in a red halter dress. Alice was in a short black number. (Pics of these are on my site too)

“Bella...wow," Emmett said.

"Where did you find that," Alice asked.

"Sacks. Why? Don't like it?""It's beautiful," she replied.

"Edward not coming," I asked.

"He's outside with Carlisle," Jasper said.

"Is he alright?"

"I think he's nervous. You know, first public appearance since everything," Emmett said.

EPOV

"I can't do it. I can't go in there," I said running my fingers through my hair.

"Yes you can," Carlisle said to me.

"No. I know she's already here, and if they see me walk in without her on my arm they're going to think,-"

"Edward, this probably isn't easy for her either. Just come in, get something to drink and try to enjoy yourself."

"But,-"

My words left me the moment I saw her. My Bella was standing a short distance from us, the moonlight reflecting off of her skin. She was stunning. Her hair was blowing in he soft win and I could smell her perfume on the breeze. Carlisle looked at me with a small smile and then went inside to join Esme. Bella walked to me and fixed my tie, which was crooked.

"There," she said looking up at me. I couldn't stop starring at her. "What?"

"Nothing."

"We'd better get inside."

Without thinking, I offered her my arm, which she took with hesitation.

The benefit was a success like it usually was. I sat at our table and watched as Bella danced with my brothers, Carlisle and a few other people she knew. She was enjoying herself tremendously and it was the first time in a long while I had seen her smile and laugh like that. And in that moment, I knew what I had to do. I excused myself from the table and went outside, knowing Bella would follow in time. I needed to clear my head before doing what I knew was right. This would be the hardest thing I would say to her, but I needed to.

"Edward," I heard her say from behind me. "Are you okay?"

"Yes. Can we talk?"

"Of course."

I led her to a nearby fountain and sat down.

"Bella, I want to talk to you about the divorce."

"Not tonight. Lets go back inside. People are asking for you."

"No, it needs to be tonight. Please?"

"Fine," she replied after a hard sigh.

"I'm not going to contest the divorce, Bella. Take whatever you'd like."

"Edward, what are you talking about?"

"It's quite simple. I love you...enough to realize that you deserve to be happy. I know that no matter what I do, I will never win your trust back,-"

"Edward, stop."

"Please, let me finish. It's not just your trust I'll never get back, but our children's trust as well. And that's every bit important to me as yours. Masen's in therapy because of me. I never should have let it go that far. And I know you're going to tell me it's just the tumor, but looking back, there were other times I wasn't the nicest person to you either. And for that, I'm truly sorry."

I looked at Bella, who had tears running down her face.

"This isn't what I want," she softly said.

"What do you want then?"

"I...I don't know, but not this."

"I think this is the best way. This way, I can give you all the time in the world."

I stood and walked a few feet from her. It was killing me to say these things to her, but I was right. I needed to let her go in order for her to rebuild her life. If I stayed, I would only do more damage to her and our children and I didn't want that. They deserved better.

“No, Edward, please. It doesn't have to end! I was angry and hurt! Please, please don't tear us apart! I want..."

"What? What is it that you want?"

But she didn't answer. I took a few more steps away from her.

"Edward, please," she cried. "Please, don't go."

I turned and looked at her. She was crying harder than she was before.

"Then tell me what you want!"

"You! I want you! I want my husband back! I can see a change in you, Edward. A big one since the tumor was removed. I see the old Edward; the one who used to sing me to sleep; who read to our kids when they had bad dreams; who held me tight when I was insecure. I see the Edward I fell in love with and who I can't live without," she cried as she buried her face in her hands. "I'm just... I'm just so scared."

“Why?"

"Because I still love you and I need you. I need my husband back. My children need their father back."

I was speechless. This was not what I expected to hear. I had expected her to just agree and that would be that. Instead, she laid it all out for me and I saw how deeply her heart was broken. I stood there for a moment, just starring at her. Her arms wrapped around herself, letting her tears fall where they may. She looked at me again and started crying harder.

"Please, Edward. Don't go," she said again.

I sat back down next to her and she looked away. I brought my hand to her face and turned her towards me.

"Tell me again what you want."

"You. I want you. I want my husband back," she softly said. I placed my other hand on her cheek and wiped her tears away. "I don't want you to go."

I hesitated for a moment, not exactly sure what to do, before I leaned in and softly pressed my lips to hers. Her lips were just as soft as before and just as inviting. I pulled back, wanting to make sure it was okay. Once Bella nodded, I stood and pulled her up with me. Her hand wrapped around my neck and I kissed her again pulling her closer to me. This was not as soft and delicate as before. This kiss made everything around us disappear. I missed this. I missed seeing the passion in her eyes, feeling her fingers wind in my hair holding me in place. In this moment, it was just the two of us.

"You're shivering," I said after I pulled away.

"I'm okay."

I pulled her tighter against me and felt her arms around my waist, where they usually went when I held her. I missed moments like this. But most of all, I just missed...her.

"I love you, Bella. I always have," I said.

"I know. I love you too."

This would be our turning point; the one place I didn't think I'd ever be in again and would fight like hell to stay in.