You Don't Know The Half Of It
He would've helped. He really, honestly would've. How was The Famous Edward Cullen supposed to know that his high school girlfriend had given birth to his daughter? How was he supposed to know that his ex-girlfriends brother, who was also her best friend, got in a car accident and the hospital wasnt child friendly? How was he supposed to know that his six year old daughter had to stay with him until her uncle recovered? And how was Emmett supposed to know what stupid was a mean word? AN: A little OOC. Oh, who am I kidding? Bella and Edward are so out of character, its not even funny! Well, I hope its funny. But still. You get what I'm saying. Oh, and banner courtesy of lunamoon!
This is kind of based off the Game Plan. I watched it with my brother and liked the idea of it so I made it a story. Some of the stuff in her is straight out of the movie, but most of the stuff is mine!
9. Shopping Horrors
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I was currently having a staring contest with a child. My child. My Lila. Tanya had left and I wasn't sure what to say to her. Should I apoligize? Should I buy her something? Should I hug her? I hadn't a clue. I was way too new at this parenting thing.
"Lila..." I started, uneasily. "You know, I would never hit you, right?"
"How would I know?" She held her head high. "Dino hits Grandma."
She knew about that? Bella let her be around that vile man? She seemed to sense my skeptisism, so she explained.
"Dino came home early. Grandma was watching me. Mommy thought Dino would be at work, that's why she left me there. Grandma told me to up to mommy's old room, so I did. But before I got there, I saw Dino hit Grandma on the cheek. She cried." Lila explained. "Would you make me cry?"
My heart almost broke at that moment. Did she really think I would hurt her? She had been around that kind of domestic violence, so I suppose it was possible for her to beleive that. I looked into those frightened, innocent eyes and smiled. Those were my eyes.
My eyes. My daughter. It may have only been two days. But I loved my daughter. Bella warned me this would happen. I would fall for that little face in a heartbeat. I fell for Bella in a heartbeat. And my daughter was the same way. I love Bella and Lila so much.
"Lila," She stayed quiet. "I would never hurt you. Ever."
"I beleive you." She murmured.
"Tanya is just a...." What did I tell her? I couldn't exactly call my ex girlfriend a bitch in front of my six year old daughter.
"A meanie? A jerkface?" She asked.
"Exactly." I nodded.
"Then why did you love her?" She seemed cutely confused.
"I didn't love her, sweetheart." I told her, softly.
"But you kissed her!" Lila accused.
"That doesn't mean you love someone." I shook my head as I said this.
She looked at me sadly. "But I kiss mommy and I love her. And Uncle Jacky and Grandma."
"You can kiss someone to show them you love them." I allowed. "But that doesn't always mean you love them or care about them."
She looked at the floor a moment before leaning over and softly kissing my cheek. I placed my hand where her lips were.
"What was that for?" I asked, touched.
"I love you. So I kissed you to show you." She explained.
Her eyes were so sad. So loving. I couldn't help but lean over and kiss her soft cheek, delicately. She smiled.
"Does that mean you love me, daddy?" She checked.I nodded.
"Yes. It does, sweetheart."
Daddy loved me!
I knew that mommy loved me. And Uncle Jacky and Grandma. But I didn't know daddy loved me til right now! This was the best day ever!
My daddy loves me!
It has been about a few weeks I told Lila I loved her. Things had been good. We had gotten into a routine. But not before I really got to know her, that is. She is a dancer. Apparently Bella teaches hip hop and ballet, so she signed Lila up for classes. Lila liked ballet a lot better. Her favorite color was yellow. She loved puppies and ponies. Her favorite food was Italian. Jack and Bella were her best friends, but she had one friend at school named Wyatt. He was nice to her and she had a crush on him aparently.
Little things like that. It seemed to please her when I asked questions, so I asked them as much as possible. I also took to reading Bella's diary every night. There were some interesting entries.
I feel so bad for Jack. Today, when we went out for pizza, I ordered anchovie, pickles and pinapple. And he ate it with no complaint! He's the best brother ever. I feel so guilty. I'm making him suffer with me. But he's being so good about it all! He rubbed my shoulders for me earlier. And he goes out and buys me whatever I'm craving at any time, day or night. And he takes me to the docters every time I have an appointment. If he's this good with me, imagine how he'll be with the baby...
We found out! We found out! Mom and Jack came with me to my appointment today. I found out what the baby is! It's a girl! A girl! A girl...I can teach her how to dance....I can sing her to sleep....I can be a girl with her! I wish Edward was here for this. I know he'd be thrilled. A little girl for him to protect. But he's not here. And it's my fault.
Jack and I were going over baby names today. Mom wants me to name her something classic, like Mary or Emily. But I'm not one for the normal names. And neither is Jack. Jack wants me to name her something pretty. Something to show her how beautiful we think she is, is what he told me. I like that idea. I haven't told anyone, but I'm thinking of naming her Charlotte. You know, after my dad. Charlie, Charlotte. Almost identical.
I really like the name Lila. Lila means night. I'm almost positive that's what I'm naming her. After all the nights I spent with Edward, singing me to sleep. It'll give me some closure about not telling him, if I know that she most definately has a small part of him with her. But I still want to name her after Alice.
Alice is the only friend I've ever had that isn't a guy. And she was my best friend. Aside from Jack, that is. But she really stood up for me. Not that I can't stick up for myself, I'm good at that. But she helped me be a girl. I spent my whole life with Jack as my hero. My biggest idol was a guy, so I was just raised to be like a guy. Jack taught me everything mom never had the chance to. Mom was into ballet and cooking and chick flicks. Jack taught me how to fix a car, how to play baseball, how to be myself.
But Alice showed me how to do something much greater. How to be crazy. Don't get me wrong, Jack and I have had some wild times...but never with shopping or make up. I remember when Alice let me do her make up. I made her look like a clown whore. She looked like she belonged in a circus. I think I'll make her middle name after Alice...but not Alice exactly.
How bout Alicia?
I laughed out loud when I read that. So Alice had been right. Bella really did name her after Alice. It was nice to know she missed me. And that she wanted me to be there. I missed her too. I want to raise my child with her, so be a family. I know why she hid her from me though. Bella knew the only thing I wanted all my life was to fufill my dream. To be a star, to be famous. She didn't want Lila and her in the way. The most un selfish person in the world, is what Bella is.
I also watched a few of those videos. Let me tell you. In the first one....I was not well liked.
Bella was on a hospital bed, in labor obviously. The docter was encouraging her, telling her to be strong. A girl with blond curls was next to her, screaming with her. Jack was on her other side, letting her squeeze his hand. He didn't wince once. Renee was next to the girl, giving Bella smiles and words of comfort.
"I hate him!" Bella screamed. "I hope he burns in hell!"
"That's good, Bella, you're doing good." Jack told her.
Bella screamed. The girl next to her did that same.
"You're doing great, Belle!" The girl cheered.
"I know that, LuLu." Bella snapped. She screamed again. "Ahhhhhh!"
"It'll be over soon, Bella!" Renee yelled.
"C' mon." The docter urged. Bella screamed one more time. She was breathing heavily and sweating. Jack was smiling and the girl was laughing. A minute later, the docter came back with Lila in his arms. She handed her to Bella.
"What are you going to name her?" LuLu asked. Bella smiled down at the baby, tiredly.
"Lila." She murmured, before she yawned. The nurse chuckled.
"I think it's time for Bella to rest." She told Jack and LuLu. "Go on and tell your family." LuLu left the room, grinning at Bella. Jack kissed her forehead and walked out. Renee smiled and bruched back ehr bangs before leaving. Bella turned to the camera that was in front of her, as she hadned Lila to the nurse.
"G'night, Edward." She murmured, before falling asleep. The video switched off.
(Later that month)
I was putting Lila to bed one night. I was about to start the lullaby, when she stopped me.
"Daddy, do you love mommy?" I froze. What am I supposed to say? No? But that would be a lie. I love Bella with all my heart. But did Lila need to know that. I knew the answer, already. I looked into her duplicate eyes and melted. She was perfect.
"Yeah, baby. I do." I kissed her forehead and hummed her lullaby until I knew she was asleep. I played with her hair before whispering,
"I'll see you in Dreamland."
I was pouting. I was sitting in my carseat in the back of Aunt Alice's car, on our way to the mall. Aunt Rose was up front, singing along to the radio. It was a dumb song about paper planes. Mommy hates that song. Aunt Alice kidnapped me. Daddy was still asleep, so she left him a note when she came and got me today. She said I needed new clothes.
That wasn't true.
Mommy took me shopping before I came here.
"Cheer up, Lilie! (Lie-ly)" Aunt Alice said in a sing voice.
"Lilie?" Aunt Rose asked.
"Yeah. It's called a nick name." Aunt Alice said. She was too happy!
"I don't want to go shopping!" I whined.
"Yes you do." Aunt Alice insisted.
"No I don't!" I complained, hitting my head on the window.
"Don't worry, be happy!" Aunt Alice sang to me. I groaned.
"Hey, Lila?" Aunt Rose asked, turning around to look at me.
"Yeah?" I answered in my pouty voice, picking my head up.
"What's your family like?" She asked.
"There lots of fun." I told her. I looked at Aunt Alice. "And they don't take me shopping."
Aunt Alice made a gaspy sound.
"No," I sounded scary. Hehe. "It's nice."
When we got to the stores, Aunt Alice took me to every one. When we went into an Aunt Alice store, she took me into the dressing room so she could try stuff on, while Aunt Rose went to get me and her smoothies. Aunt Alice changed into a pretty pink dress. It didn't have straps and it went to her knees. Her legs were small like Harlie's.
She bought that dress and then went to look at shoes. She found a pair of black cowboy boots and slipped them on.
"Why are you getting those?" I asked. Aunt Alice didn't look like she would buy cowboy boots. I had cowboy boots. Everyone in my family did.
"For when we go to Tennessee." She answered, putting them back in the box.
"Were going to Tennessee?" I asked. Yay! "Daddy didn't tell me!"
"Well, he doesn't know." She made an annoyed when she mentioned daddy.
"Well then how do you?" I accused.
"I had a...feeling." She said, quietly.
I shrugged. Aunt Rose came back and gave me my smoothie. It was banana. Yum. She got strawberry and Aunt Alice got coconut. Ew.
I started to think about my Uncle Jacky. I haven't seen him since he got in the car bang. I hope he's okay. If he's not...I don't know what I'll do. What mommy will do. I don't think she'd be very okay. No one will be very okay. Grandma will cry...so will Gram. Gramp will be sad. Aunt Mari and Uncle Joe will be mad because that guy hit Uncle Jacky's car. Rosie, Harlie, Bliss and Delilah will be blank. That's how mommy was when she heard Uncle Jacky was in the car boom. Carson will be...what was that word?....furcos?
No, no. Furious. Yeah, that's it. Furious.
Aunt Alice dragged me into a store called Aeropastle. I think Bliss shops there. Mommy always takes me to Kohls or JCpenny's. She says its easier then going all around the mall. I think she might be right. Aunt Alice bought almost everything she saw. It was scary.
"What do you think of this?" She asked, trying on a purple cowboy hat.
Aunt Rose gave her a thumbs up. I think she knows we're going home too. I liked the hat on Aunt Alice. It made her hair look bluish. I told her it was pretty. She went to the hat rack and found some other cowboy hats. She said that they have to look the part for Tennessee. I didn't complain. I thought it was cool.
She bought Aunt Rose a red hat with white boots. She bought Grandma a tan, kind of white, and brown boots. She said that Grandpa, Daddy, Uncle Jazz and Uncle Emmy didn't need boots, they would look silly. So she bought them each a brown hat. Even though I have one at home, like everyone else, Aunt Alice got me a yellow cowboy hat with light brown boots. I liked it.
She bought lots of clothes. We went into Macy's to look for some clothes for me. She held a white, pretty dressy thing up.
"Do you like this?" She asked.
"Whats it for?"
"For you to wear." She looked at me funny. I shrugged. She bought it after that. We ended up with twelve bags.
Except, Aunt Rose carried my bags for me. I was too little, so I only carried my smoothie.
- The Life And Times Of Me: Edward Cullen
- Meeting Lila
- Named After Alice
- Thanks For That, Jack
- Mean Words
- The Mind Of Bella Swan
- Shopping Horrors
- Tennessee Traveler
- The Door To His Destiny
- Through Their Eyes
- The Fight
- Filling Him In
- Making Up
- Mafia, Family and Bull
- Getting In Touch
- The River
- Blast From The Not So Welcome Past
- Figuring It Out
- The Prodigal Father Returns
- Charlie's World
- Renee and Charlie: Not The Best Of Friends
- The Not So Wicked Step Mother And The Oh So Wicked Step Daughter
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