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Missing- the love my life!

Summary:
When Renesmee is fully grown, Jacob finally tells her how he feels about her. But what if Renesmee doesn't feel the same way about him? Rated Teen Just in case!!


Notes:


2. Moved On

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As soon as the bell rang Jacob was out of the door. He hadn’t said one word to me. I couldn’t blame him; I wouldn’t want to talk to me either.

When I walked out of the doors to the school, I saw my and dad waiting for me with pained expressions on their faces. “Renesmee, I’m so sorry, I didn’t know.” “I don’t want to talk about it,” I handed dad my books. “Don’t go too far.” I started walking down the street.

When I finally got away from everyone I started running. To be honest, I didn’t know where I was going. When I finally looked up I was in the middle of the woods. I heard a growl from the woods. Just great I was on La Push land. Two huge wolves appeared from the woods. I had to think fast or they would be ripping me to pieces soon.

“Wait, don’t hurt me. I’m a Cullen. I came here to see Jacob Black.” Why did I say that? Jacob wouldn’t want to talk to me, and to be honest I wasn’t sure if I could handle having a conversation with him. One of the wolves walked into the woods, and came back out as a human a few minutes later. He was almost as tall as Jacob. “You must be Renesmee. Tell me why I shouldn’t let my brother tear you to pieces.” Crap, maybe this wouldn’t work. “You broke his heart, and now you come here and want to talk to him.”

A voice came from the woods, “leave her alone Chris.” “But, Jacob.” “No buts, you and Josh go back on watch. I’ll take care of this.” “Yes sir,” Chris and Josh left into the woods. Jacob must be the Alpha. They wouldn’t have left if the Alpha hadn’t told them too.

“Renesmee, I knew you would come to back to Forks eventually. I wasn’t expecting you to be in my science class, but I guess I will just have to deal with that. But, I can’t deal with you coming here, and almost getting yourself killed because you want to talk to me. I know you don’t love me, and I’m over it so go home and don’t come back to La Push again.” Oh no he moved on, just like I told him too. “Jacob.” “Renesmee, just please go.”

So I left, what else was I supposed to do. I didn’t go home though. I knew they would all try and comfort me, and I didn’t want that. I finally went home around midnight. When I got close I asked dad to tell everyone I didn’t want to talk about it. Thankfully, they all listened. I went straight upstairs and cried myself to sleep.

“Nessie, please don’t do this.” “Don’t call me that! My name is Renesmee! And you know we have to leave Forks.” “Well, let me go with you like we had planned.” “NO, things have changed Jacob.” “Just because I told you I imprinted on you! I told you I could be just friends if that’s what you want. I don’t understand why we can’t be friends at least.” “Jacob, I want you to find love. You think you’re in love with me. But that’s just the imprint talking. Just please go, I don’t want to be friends.” And so he left. Not because he wanted too. Because he thought it would make me happy, but really it tore me into a tiny little pieces.

When I woke up the next morning dad told me I didn’t have to go to school. But, I did anyway. I would have to see him sooner or later.

He was at lunch today. I couldn’t help, but stare at him. When I thought he looked my way I turned away. He’s moved on I need to do the same thing. It’s been 100 hundred! I told him to leave not the other way around. Maybe if I left town it would be better for both of us.

“Renesmee, don’t think like that.”

“Sorry dad.”

“Maybe Jacob hasn’t moved on as much as you think he has,” Uncle Jasper chimed in. I was surprised he wasn’t calming me with his powers because right now I was panicking like crazy. “What’s he thinking about Edward,” mom asked.

“He doesn’t want me to know. He keeps saying the alphabet over and over again.” I couldn’t help but laugh at that. Jacob always did do the stupidest things to keep dad out of his mind when he wanted to.

Soon enough 6th period came around. I took a deep breath before walking through the doors. When I walked in Jacob was already in his seat, and there was a girl sitting in my seat talking to him. Wait, she’s not talking she’s FLIRTING! I saw her write her number on his hand. “You should call me sometime Jakey.” Slut! Took everything in me not to punch her, but I didn’t cause I was supposed to be moving on.

Today we were doing a lab. A lab where we had to work together. We talked as little as possible. Even though I wanted to tell him right then that I was in love with him. Even though we got an A we didn’t say more than ten words to each other the whole class period.

When the bell rung he was the first one out of the door again. I went running again after school. When I got home around one AM I went to my room. Why can’t I just tell him how I feel? I know why. Because he doesn’t love me anymore I wished I would have went back to him as soon as I found out I loved, or better yet that I let him come with us to Alaska. Another good thing that would have come from having him there he could have kept me warm. Even though I’m half-vampire I still get cold, especially when it’s negative fifty degrees or lower. His body temperature is always like 120 degrees.

Somehow I came up with the decision to do something about the pain. I couldn’t really think about it though because of dad. And I couldn’t plan to do it because of Alice. But, I would only do that if the pain becomes worse than what it already is. If that is even possible. When I was almost asleep I whispered, “Night Jake. Love you.” Not that he would hear it. Not that it made a difference. Just too finally say those words. The words I’ve wanted to say for a long time.