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Forgotten Memories

Summary:
What if in New Moon Jasper had gotten past Bella causing the transformation to start? The transformation causes her to go into cardiac arrest (heart attack) and die. Edward is broken. Jasper is distraught and in his hate for himself leaves Alice, leaving Carlisle and Esme with now 2 barely existing broken hearted children. Now we fast-forward ninety-eight years. Jasper goes to school where he meets someone who looks remarkably like Bella. Her name? Bella Swan, the catch she can't remember anything at all. Can Bella remember? Will she and Edward get back together? Can Alice forgive Jasper? Will Alice and Jasper get back together? Not a Bella/Jasper, Alice/Edward story I swear on Edward Cullen! Please Read! Forgotten Memories


Notes:


12. I have to get away

Rating 5/5   Word Count 1205   Review this Chapter

Previously:

"Were you more important than Jasper let on?" I asked confused.

"Please answer me, I have to know." I begged.

"Yes."

"How important Edward, how important were you to me?" Jasper had already made our relationship sound intense but if it was more....

"You quickly in the short time we knew each other became my reason for being and existing." Edward looked almost as if he feels bad for telling me how much he loved me.

Almost as if on cue, the other members of his family came downstairs. Alice and Jasper are the only ones I know but everyone else looks like I have seen them before.

"Hello Bella." A blonde male greeted me. "Hello, everyone." I politely said, secretly alarmed at how familiar these vampires look to me.

"I'm Carlisle; this is my wife Esme, Rosalie and her husband Emmett." Carlisle introduced or I guess from what I know now re-introduced everyone. "I have a question are you all vegetarian vampires too?" I asked and everyone nodded yes.

Alice engulfed me into a hug and said, "We have to go shopping sometime."

"Um, no thanks I don't really enjoy shopping." I politely stated. Shopping is tedious and pointless for me. I've never really enjoyed shopping other than when it's necessary. Everyone laughed at my statement about shopping, I don't exactly understand why.

Rosalie just shook my hand, the big one Emmett engulfed me into a human bone crushing hug. Esme also hugged me and Carlisle politely shook my hand.

"Are Rosalie and Jasper actually related, it's just they look so much alike?" I asked.

"No, but they pretend to be for a public cover story." Esme explained. It seemed almost as if she was carefully avoiding some part of the conversation. What is she avoiding?

"Bella if you want I'll show you to your room." Edward offered, obviously knowing what Esme is thinking he wants to avoid it at all costs. Absorbed trying to figure out why their being so hesitant while talking to me, I nodded my head yes.

I followed Edward to a room by another room with an enormous music collection and a black leather couch. "This is your room," Edward gestured to the room next to the room with a music collection.

"Thank you for being so kind and Edward, I'm sorry for the pain I caused you by not remembering you or anyone and I'm sorry." I apologized. It's obvious that Edward is not happy I don't remember him. I want to really badly but I don't know how to make myself remember all of my memories.

"You're welcome but you don't have to apologize to me, it is not your fault. Many of us forget our human memories, just ask Alice she can't remember anything at least you can remember something, if you just give it some time and you will most likely remember everything." Edward encouragingly spoke to me before leaving me to myself.

As he left and brushed against my arm, a flash occurred in my mind and I wasn't seeing the present anymore but I was seeing the past:

Two people lying in a meadow. The man; Edward spoke "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb."

The view faded and I tried to remember where on Earth that had come from or why that memory seems so important. I do remember Edward but, just the two memories now.

I walked down the hall to where the blonde female's... Rosalie's room is. I knocked thrice before her voice said, "Come in,"

"Rosalie, I was wondering if you would help me with something." I asked.

"Sure Bella what do you need help with?" She politely asked.

"Edward won't admit that he wants me to remember everything about us but, I don't. Could you maybe remind me of some things from when I was human?"

"Bella, I would love to tell you everything but... it's not my place to tell you. The stories about you and Edward from when you were human are the business of you two, not me." Rosalie told me.

"I know you are right it's just, that Edward has made it a little more than obvious that he wishes more than anything I would remember everything." I acknowledged she is right. I wish that I could remember everything for Edward. It hurts me to see him so sad.

"You have one memory, the fact you can remember something proves that your memories are still there in your head somewhere. Maybe, there is a key of some sort to have you remember everything about him."

"Hopefully you're right. I should go unpack, thank you." I thanked Rosalie and walked towards my room.

On my way to my room, I heard people talking "Edward, she will remember eventually. You should be careful though; Bella noticed how much you love her and its making her sad to not remember you when she knows you clearly remember everything and to see you so sad." Alice told someone. Damn, I am awful at hiding things from people. Alice is a physic so of course, she would be able to tell and Jasper can sense emotions so right there you have any reassurance anyone could possibly need.

"I know and I am trying so hard to be careful with what I say. Imagine you remembered everything about yours and Jasper's relationship but Jasper remembers nothing about it. How well could you handle that? I am trying my best to not let certain things slip through because I love her so much and want nothing more than to hold her and never let go, kiss her, and tell her how much I love her." Edward told them. Oh, I'm causing him a lot of pain by being here. This really isn't fair to him at all.

"Just be a little more careful please." Alice advised Edward.

Putting myself in Edward's place, I tried to decide what would be worse: having the person you love dead or the person you love alive and not remember you at all. Which one would be worse? Both are awful, but one is worse. The question is which one?

Hearing them come towards the hall I sprinted into my room.

Beginning to put clothes away, I opened the drawer to place some shirts in the dresser. As I looked in the drawer, I came across a book entitled Memories.

I opened the book to see pictures of Edward and a human female and as according to the caption at prom. Who's that girl? Oh! OH! It's, it's me as a human. Flipping through the pages, I saw pictures of us at his piano, in a meadow, and everywhere. The captions under each one describing where we happened to be at that particular moment in time.

The passion and love in Edward's and my eyes are inevitable. Feelings from the bits I've been able to pick up don't just go away over time especially if you are a never forgetting vampire who rarely changes emotionally.

I have to get away from here so Edward can be happy like he should've been.