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1. Prefaces 1 & 2 an chapter 1: Good News

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Preface #1

I had to tell them. I couldn’t let them die not knowing. I had to tell them what really happened. I had to tell them the truth.

The truth about me, about Edward, about my daughter, about the Cullens, about the Denalis. About us.

It’s my last chance before they die. I have to tell them the truth. They can’t die with out knowing. I owe it to them. They gave me so much the least I can do is tell them the truth. Even if they asked to know as little as possible, they ought to know the truth.

They have to know the reason for everything. The reason I didn’t leave Forks when Edward left. The reason I went to Italy. The reason my daughter has reached full growth already. The reason I look different. The reason we are not ageing. The reason we don’t go into the sun. The reason our skin is ice cold. The reason I don’t visit as often as I should.
They need to know why everything happened. Everything happened for a reason. They needed to know the reasons for everything.

It’s my last chance for everything.

Preface #2

I had a decision to make, and had only two choices. But the question was which choice do I chose?

I watched as he lay there taking his last few breaths. I knew Alice would not be able to see the decision I would make. I only had minutes to deiced and only seconds to lose control or stay in control. Many things had happened in the last eight months, and in the last ten years, but none of those things mattered at this moment. None of them could have prepared me for that one phone call eight months ago.

My two choices: do I change him, or do I let him die? Only one can win this battle. But can I win the battle with myself?

How could I change him? I loved him too much to put him through that pain. But was I not ready to give him up to nature?

How could I let him die? I loved him too much to watch him die in pain. But was I ready to give him up to nature?

I watched as someone I love took his or her last breath, my decision was made.

But was I too late?

and here is the first chapter

1. Good News

"I can’t believe that it’s been ten years since I’ve been changed into a vampire!” I said the morning of my vampire and human birthday.

“I can’t believe that Nessie and Jacob have been married for three years.” Edward said glumly.

“Ease up, Edward. Jacob really loves her. We should be happy that she is happy. That’s the main thing, right?”

“Your right. The main thing is for her to be happy. And, she is.” he agreed. We walked along the hallway to Nessie’s and Jacob’s room, hand in hand. We were just about to walk in and surprise the two of them when we heard Nessie laugh. So, to be on the safe side, we knocked.

Jacob answered the door, which didn’t improve Edward’s mood. “Hey Bells! Hey Edward!” Jacob seemed happier than usual. Suddenly, I didn’t want to know what he and Nessie were doing last night.

“Jacob?” Edward said in a confused tone.

Nessie came to the door with a huge smile on her face. It made me happy seeing my daughter so cheerful.

“I have good news!” she exclaimed. “I want the whole family there when I announce it, so, let’s go.” She and Jacob ran ahead while Edward and I took our time.

“What’s her good news?” I asked Edward when we were out of hearing range.

“I don’t know. All she was thinking was ‘we have good news.’ It was really strange.”
When we got to the house, everyone was already there and seated in the dining room. Edward and I took are place and waited for Renesmee to tell us her good news.

“Okay,” she said. “You all know how Jacob and I have wanted a kid for sometime now. Well…”

She didn’t have time to finish before Jacob went flying across the room.

“You got my daughter Pregnant!?” Edward was fuming. “How could you?! I’ll kill you and I’ll do it now!”

“Dad, be angry with me. It’s just as much my fault as it is his.” Her hands were on her hips, staring at Edward.

“Nessie, I’m so happy for you!” I got up to hug my daughter. “Jacob, I’m a little bit irritated with you, but I’ll manage.” I turned my attention to Jasper. “Jasper, can you try to calm Edward down?”

“Bella, you’re happy about this?!” Edward looked shocked.

“Not completely. I’m just being supportive of Nessie’s decision to have a child.” I was trying to give Edward an expression that read, ‘Remember our discussion this morning?’.

“Aunt Rose, Aunt Alice what do you think about my decision?” Nessie asked in a small voice.

“I’m really happy for you! It will be fun having a kid around, again. What do you think, Alice?” Rosalie turned her head to Alice.

“I’m in shock, still. I hate not knowing what you’re going to do, Nessie. But, other than that, I’m happy too.” Alice smiled.

“Nessie, are you sure you’re pregnant?” Carlisle questioned.

“Yeah, I took the test this morning,” she said in an unsure tone. She probably thought she did something wrong.

“You won’t mind if I want you to get a more thorough test then?” he asked. As a doctor, he needed to get his patient’s opinion on tests he wanted to run on them.

“No, I don’t mind.” she said.

“Now we know what you and Jacob do at night!” Emmett commented in between giggles.

“Yeah, the same thing that you and Aunt Rose do.” she replied to his snippy remark with a roll of her eyes.

“How do you know that?” Emmett asked a little defensive.

“When I was younger, I over heard you two talking about what you do at night. Not to mention, I could HEAR everything you were doing.” She answered, coolly.

“Bet you didn’t see that comin’.” Jasper laughed.

“I did, too!” Emmett exchanged looks with Rosalie. “Okay, maybe I didn’t.” Emmett hung his head.

Edward seemed calmer, now. For once, he was the one who had the temper tantrum and not me. So, I thought it would be a good time to ask him how he felt about our daughter having a baby. Esme beat me to the punch.

“Edward, how do you feel about Renesmee having a baby?” Esme asked, calmly, taking the pressure off of me.

“I’m worried. We’ve never seen anything like what it’s going to be.” He sighed and looked down at his feet. “I just don’t want her to die because of it. I took that chance with Bella and I don’t want to take it, again, with my daughter.”

“Daddy.” Nessie ran over to Edward, hugging him. “I’ll be fine. Mom survived and she was only human. I’m half vampire; I’ll be okay. Trust me.”

“I wish I could.” He said.

I walked over to where they were standing and kissed Edward. That one, tiny moment that our lips were touching was enough to convince him that Nessie would be fine.

After I leaned away, he said “Okay, but Jacob if she dies, you will be dead! Do you understand that?”

Jacob took a deep breath before he answered. “Perfectly. I would probably ask you to kill me after she died, anyway.”

“Okay. Now that we all support your decision, Nessie, let’s get down to business. I’ll have to be your doctor, obviously, considering you’re half vampire, and you’re pregnant with a ¼ vampire, ¼ wolves, and ½ human.” Carlisle almost laughed. I’m sure he never thought he’d utter those words.

“Carlisle, we don’t have to start anything, right now. We can wait a few days, right?” Esme started rubbing his back.

“We could, but it would be better to start now. Why do you ask?” Carlisle said.

“Well, Tanya’s family should know, and so should the wolves. Also, there’s Charlie we have to think about.” she reminded us.

Tanya’s family would be okay with it, and the Pack had to accept it; Jacob imprinted on Nessie. But, Charlie still didn’t know anything about us. How was I going to tell him? Was having him not know about us the best thing for him? Was keeping him in the dark better…or, was it worse?

The car coming up the long driveway interrupted my thoughts about Charlie. I knew it was Tanya’s family coming to help us celebrate that Nessie and Jacob are having a baby (Well, to help Edward get through the pregnancy). All of us were on the porch waiting for the Denali clan to arrive. Well, all of us, except Edward. He was taking out his anger on a boulder. Good thing there was a thunderstorm going on.

“Tanya, Kate, Cameron, Eleazar.” said Carlisle, as he nodded toward each of them stepping out of the car.

“Nessie, what’s the good news?” asked Tanya. We hadn’t told them yet. We wanted to see their reactions when they found out. “Where’s Edward?” Tanya asked turning to me.

A loud crashing boom answered her question. I still answered it more thoroughly “He is a little upset about Nessie’s good news. He’s well…” Another loud boom interrupted me.

“He always had a little bit of a temper, didn’t he?” Kate said.

Nessie, finally, couldn’t stand them not knowing, “I’m having a baby!” she blurted out.

It took them a second to make sense of her words. And when they did they all were in shock. They probably didn’t think that she was pregnant with a ½ human but that she was pregnant with a wolf and vampire.
We stood there in silence for a few minutes. Nessie and Jacob were the only ones that were breathing, the rest of us were not.

“No wonder Edward’s angry,” Eleazar broke the silence.

“Do the Volturi know?” Tanya asked.

“Not yet. I’m hoping they don’t find out until the baby’s all grown up.” Carlisle responded..

“Do you think you can stop them from finding out?” Tanya seemed concerned.

“I’m not sure if we can stop them from finding out.” I said.

Finally, Edward came out to the porch. He seamed calmer, but from the look on Jasper’s face… he wasn’t.

“Hello, Edward.” said Tanya.

“Hi.” he responded in a cold hard voice. It was the same voice he used when he was angry with me, and not anybody else.

“Daddy, are you okay?” asked Nessie.

“Nessie, I do not support your decision . . . at all.” Edward didn’t look at her.

“Edward and I need to talk to each other.” I told them as I turned to face Carlisle.

“Very well.” Carlisle said.

Edward and I went to the cottage. He went straight to the fireplace without looking at me. He must have been too scared to look at me, or maybe, too nervous. Or, maybe, too upset.

He should be scared.

“Edward?” He didn’t say anything.

“Edward?” I tried, again. Nothing. So, I’ll have to do all the talking, for now. He would have something to say after I talked. I knew he would. He always does.

“Edward, you know you can’t resist me. You give me anything I want. I wanted to be a vampire; I was changed. I wanted to marry you; We got married. I wanted a baby; I got one.”

He sighed, knowing that I spoke the truth. It was just unbearable for him when I wanted something he could give me.

“Edward, I know you don’t like that Nessie is going to have a baby, and, neither do I,” I started.

“Then why didn’t you say anything?” he growled.

“Because, even though we don’t like it we have to face reality. She’s pregnant and we just have to deal with it. You had to deal with it when I was pregnant, remember? We can be mad about it and mope around, or we can give her the love and support she needs. My choice is to give her the support. You have to choose.”

“My choice is to mope around” he wouldn’t look at me.

“That’s the wrong choice, Edward; you might regret it.” I was frustrated.

“No, I won’t.” he was confident.

“Yes, you will” I continued.

“No, I won’t.” he almost growled.

“Edward, what’s gotten in to you? Do you really hate Jacob that much? Or, are you not ready for Nessie to have a child?” I was confused about his reasons. He didn’t answer, though. I waited for fifteen minutes.

“Fine.” I said. “Don’t answer my questions. I want you to let Nessie have her baby. If you need me, I’ll be at the house.”

I ran back to the house. Before I reached it, I passed Jacob in his wolf form. He was probably telling Sam about Nessie being pregnant. When I got to the house, Alice was pulling out Renesmee’s baby albums. She even pulled out mine. Alice didn’t, just, pull out my baby album, she pulled out the album of my honeymoon, too. On the bottom of mine and Edward’s wedding kiss, Edward had written:

The kiss that declared us husband and wife. “Renesmee.” I hadn’t even realized Edward had come in. But, what surprised me was that he called her ‘Renesmee’. He only did that when I wanted him to, or when he was mad at Jacob. But, I didn’t ask him too, and he hadn’t called her that earlier, although he was mad at Jacob. I was very confused.

“Yeah?” she seemed worried.

“I’m sorry that I threatened to kill Jacob.” He didn’t sound completely serious.

“It’s okay.”

I went over and slapped Edward on the head.

“What?” he asked, a little surprised.

I sighed and rolled my eyes. “And!”

He sighed, too. “And…even though I don’t like that you are having a baby, I’m going to support you.”

“Really? You’re going to support me?” Nessie’s face brightened up.

“Yes.” He nodded his head.

“Bella, what did you do? Kiss him until he said he would support her?” Emmett snickered.

“No, Emmett. I told him he could mope around or help Nessie. Not every one use the same approach that you do.” I winked at him.

“Okay, the packs are cool with it.” Jacob interrupted the conversation. “Well, my pack has to be cool with it. The other one was ranting for a while. That’s why it took longer than necessary. What’d I miss?” he asked confused.

“Dad’s going to support me!” Nessie exclaimed.

“Edward, are you serious?” Jacob asked.

“Jacob, please do not think about that. I am Nessie’s father, remember?” Edward seemed a little irritated and disgusted.

“Oh, sorry. Why are you going through my head anyway?” Jacob was frustrated.

“Jake!” I scolded.

“What?” he asked.

“Don’t think about that stuff when Edward’s around...” Edward looked at me. “or, in hearing distance.”

“Ha! You got in trouble.” Emmett smirked.

Jacob, all of a sudden, phased and sprung at Emmett. Emmett deserved it. But, I couldn’t help grabbing Jacob by the ear and slapping him lightly (my lightly). Edward then came over and scolded Jacob, who was still in his wolf form. No matter how many years Jacob lived he was still the same annoying teenager as he always was.

“Jacob, no jumping at Emmett!” Edward yelled. “He did deserve it, but that’s not the point.” Jacob cocked his head to the right.

“The point is that you promised not to attack him again.” Jacob shrugged his shoulders seeming untroubled.

“What are you talking about?” Alice was irritated.

“We’re talking about why he’s not supposed to spring at Emmett. Jacob, you don’t know how dangerous it is. What if Emmet bit you on accident?” Jacob shuddered. Then a piercing, heart broken howl came from outside.

“Jacob?” we all asked. Jacob went running outside.

The look on Renesmee’s face was a heart wrenching. I hoped that nothing serious had happened. I desperately wanted to ask Edward what Jacob was thinking before he left, but I held my tongue. If it was bad, I didn’t want Renesmee to hear. I would have to wait till later. Hopefully, not much later.