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12. Chapter 12 Moving on and Moving Out

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After Charlie’s death I realized all the good things we had shared together. I never noticed how much of a roll he had in my life. He walked me down the aisle, he was there when I went to prom, he let me move in with him, he gave Edward and me the permission to get married, and all the other little things that he did that helped me get to where I am today.

I didn’t want to go to the funeral because it would be too hard to sit there and see him dead. Never to see him smile his crinkly eyed smile ever again.

A few weeks after the funeral, I wanted to go to Charlie’s grave. I thought since I was still holding on to him that maybe this will help me let go.

Edward came with me to Charlie’s grave. He probably knew that I would not be able to go alone. It would just be too hard.

We arrived at Charlie’s grave. No one was there. Only us the two vampires, and the dead bodies.

I sat down in front of his grave, Edward stood behind me with one hand on my shoulder. He didn’t say anything and neither did I. We stayed in that position for I don’t know how long. I only noticed when it started to rain.

I was glad that the climate of the day matched my mood. If it would have been sunny I would have despised this day more than I already did.

We sat there in the rain, never moving, never saying anything, we just sat there.

I knew it was getting late. I knew that now if I didn’t say ‘good-bye’ to Charlie I would never be able to let go or say ‘good-bye’.

“Good-bye dad,” I said. “I love you. I will always love you.”

“Are you okay?” Edward spoke for the first time today.

“Yes,” I said. “I am ready to leave.”

“All right,” he answered.

We headed home. Edward drove the car straight to the garage. Form there we went to the cottage.

“Damm it Bella,” Edward said when we were in our room.

“What?” I said. It was so unlike Edward to get angry in times when I was getting over things, like deaths.

“You think now that you have said ‘good-bye’ to Charlie that he will not be in your life anymore,” it was a statement not a question. “Now that Charlie is dead I bet you think it will be so much easier being a vampire. Am I right?”

“Yes you are right,” I said. “I do think that.”

“You are wrong,” he said. “It is not that much easier. You live your life not knowing when we will move or when we will stay. Or when someone might guess who we are.”

“I do not know that type of life,” I said.

“I know. That is why I am going to tell you.”

I sat there and waited. I knew that Edward would soon stop and look at me and forget the reason he was angry. I could tell now that he was losing some steam.

“That type of life is,” Edward started. He turned around to look at me. “What was I going to say?”

“I don’t,” I said. “I’m not the mind reader.”

“Very funny.”

“I was serious.”

“You’re beautiful you know that?” Edward said.

“You tell me that everyday, Edward,” I said. “And I’m not that beautiful.”

“Yes you are,” he disagreed.

“No I’m not,” I said.

“Yes you are,” he repeated.

“Edward stop it you are going to make me blush if you keep saying that,” I said.

“You are a vampire now,” he said. “You cannot blush anymore.”

“You did not get what I meant,” I said. “I meant that you are embarrassing me so much that you will make me blush no matter how impossible it is.”

“If I really wanted to make you blush,” he started. “all I have to do is kiss you with so much passion it would make you faint, that will also make you blush. I remember what I was going to say. I was telling you about the type of life we will live now that Charlie’s gone.”

“Edward,” I said.

“Yes?” he asked.

“Please, I have had enough for one day. I do not want to be talking about what are life will be like now that Charlie’s gone.” I said. “Please, I just finally let go of him.”

“All right,” he said. “But their will be some dramatic changes very quickly now. For all we know the others might have started packing.”

“I understand.”

“I think we should talk to Carlisle to see what will happen,” Edward said. “Is that okay with you?”

“Yes,” I said. “It is fine with me.”

We headed over to the house.

We ran through the rain. If I was running at this speed as a human the rain drops would feel like rocks coming at me, but now they felt like little cotton balls being tossed at me. The wet grass underneath my feet felt like velvet. And Edwards hand in mine didn’t feel cold but felt just the right temperature.

Carlisle was waiting for us. “Alice said you guys would be here in a few minutes,” he said. “How are you Bella?”

“I am . . .” I started, “okay, I guess.” But really I was horrible.

Alice danced her way towards us. She then gave me a hug. “I’m sorry,” she whispered in my ear.

“I’m fine Alice. Really,” I said.

“No your not,” she said.

“Alice is right Bella,” Edward said. “You are not fine.”

“Yes I am,” I disagreed.

“Bella,” Edward said. “You need to stop lying and tell the truth.”

I pulled out of Alice’s embrace. I looked at Edward – it was more of a glare – and said “I know how I feel, Edward. If you knew me better you would know that.”

“You lie on how you feel when something bad happened, just so you can make everyone else feel better,” he snapped back.

“Well,” I said. “I know my mind better than you.”

That silenced him.

“Enough,” Carlisle said. “You two can fight latter.”

Can,” I said. “Key word.”

“You two will fight latter,” Carlisle commanded. “Right now we need to tell you guys something.”

“What is it?” I asked.

“We are moving,” Alice said.


“Closer to Tanya’s family,” Alice said. “A few miles away in a different town.”

“When?” Edward asked for me.

“As soon as you two are ready,” Carlisle told us. “We have started shipping things there already.”

“But the wolves,” I said. “What will Jacob do?”

“He will check in with them day to day,” Carlisle said. “Someone will call him when he needs to come and help them with things here.”

“Do the Volturi know?” I asked.

“Jasper and I will go and tell them,” Alice said.

“Don’t tell them about the babies,” I said. “We don’t want what happened with the other one to happen with them.”

“We know,” Alice said.

“I guess Edward and I should go and pack,” I said.

“Yes,” Edward agreed.

We headed back for the cottage. When we were in our room I took one of the books that I had in there and through it against the wall.

“Bella?!” Edward said shocked.

“I hate this,” I screamed. “I hate every part of this.”

“Bella,” Edward shouted over me. “Pull your self together.”

I fell down and landed on the floor in a pile. I cried tearless sobs.

“I know,” Edward murmured. “I know you like it here. We will come back someday. We can visit the house and Charlie and everyone else all the time.”

Edward came over and sat down and pulled my head onto his lap, he ran his fingers through my hair. He held me there while murmuring soothingly to me.

“We are going to go to Alaska and start high school there,” he said. “We will be with each other all the time.”

By now I had pulled myself together. “Okay,” I said. “We can visit?”

“When ever you want to,” he promised me.

We got up and started to pack. Our room took us a few minutes. We then headed to Nessie’s old room. We started packing until I came across something.

It was a locket. It was sliver with a delicate chain. It was so beautiful. I opened it and found a picture of me and Edward in it. I closed it and saw that the words in French on the heart shaped locket read ‘more than my own life’.

“Edward look at this,” I said.

“It’s the locket you gave Nessie that one Christmas,” he said. “I thought she kept it with her when she moved out?”

“Me too,” I said.

We continued to pack.

It took us the whole night to finish the house. That included the breaks that we had.

“Carlisle,” Edward said the next morning. “We are ready to leave.”

“All right,” he said.

The moving truck came and took all the boxes and furniture. I looked at the house one last time as Edward drove my Ferrari down the long driveway.