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AU. Bella hasn't spoken a word since the accident - 6 years ago. In a bid to start a fresh, her mother sends her to live with her dad in Forks. There she is the freak to the other kids. Apart from the mysterious Edward Cullen, who helps unlock her past.

A very different try at a fan fiction for me. I don’t know how this is going to turn out. I’d thought I’d give a go at a more serious fanfic. I hope you like it. Please review if you can. Thank you. Disclaimer: I own nothing.

13. Friday 7th January 2005 - 7:46pm

Rating 4/5   Word Count 860   Review this Chapter

Chapter 13! Up & Ready. Hope you like. Review if you can, pretty please. x

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. - Friedrich Nietzsche - German Philosopher

Friday 7 th January 2005 - 7:46pm

Dear diary,

Today was shit. Seriously. Blasphemy was much needed then. It rained. A lot. Oh joy what a big surprise. In fact it poured down. The forks kids were used to it. I wasn’t. It just didn’t seem natural.

School was better in ways, but in other ways worse. Most people had become accustomed to me by now & apparently due to some senior having an abortion or something I really was yesterdays new. Still didn’t stop the gossip though.

In fact, in a way it was worse. The school seemed to have divided its self into sympathising me & hating me. Though, all seemed to think, that it was best to avoid me. That probably was for the best. A few boys fought it would be funny to pull away my chair, during Government. And this little sophomore girl, who had more than likely been dared by her friends, had apparently went through the whole day, without speaking. Apparently I was making an influence. That really pissed me off.

What was worse as even some of my teachers ridiculed me. The only teacher, I had had a problem with back in Phoenix, was Ms Keller who taught us for PE & I personally think, that was more for me being uncoordinated than a mute.

This one teacher Mr Varner, possibly a bigger asshole than Dr West, decided to ask me question in Trig. Then silence the whole class until I answered. One that I would no way in hell have been able to answer, in such a time anyway. And two, there’s that one tincy little problem. I can’t speak. He was what Suzie would call a Grade A A-hole.

Then in Spanish, the teacher treat me like I was about 6. She spoke to me as If I was simple, slowly & clearly & that was just in English. She didn’t seem to think It was to my ability to speak Spanish. At one point I felt like smacking the bitch, which is a lot to say, as as it is I wouldn’t really myself a very violent person.

And then there was gym. Ridicule in it’s self. Volleyball, ugh could you get much worse. The blonde guy, who winked at me yesterday, who I now know as Mike, played on the same team as me & amazingly we won, not by my behalf obviously. I whacked the ball several times on to his head, but he didn’t seem to mine. I’m actually beginning to feel, this guy might actually be genuine. But then again not. I’ve had people be like with me before, then totally try to embarrass me. Part of being a freak - trust no one.

What made it worse. Ten times worse. Just when I thought that the day couldn’t get any worse. He didn’t show. That bastard didn’t show. He didn’t come to school. Edward Cullen, of course.

I had anticipated & I don’t know why, all morning to see him. I mean it wasn’t like I could exactly talk to him. But I was still weirdly nervous, excited & angry, to confront him.

And then a no show.

All of his family were there, sitting at lunch, acting as if everything was the same.

He could have been ill, I supposed. I mean that’s reasonable, but I can’t help think it was something else. In fact I can’t help thinking that it’s somehow connected to yesterday.

I mean, surely he didn’t always act like that. Or did he. Maybe that was, why he was so much of an outcast. But I remember him at lunch with his family & it was like he was a completely different person.

I know, I’m probably overreacting but I can’t query over this guy. He’s a mystery I can’t quite figure out. I shouldn’t obsess this much about a person. It’s unhealthy.

But if anything, this beautiful yet strange boy was the kind of distraction I needed. If I was going to try & sort myself out. Stop my awful habit at the very least.

There was also the fact I scared myself, as well, how much I think about him & just him. He seemed to clog my every memory. I haven’t thought so much about 1 person, since well Melanie. It’s odd, unusual, different from before.

It’s terrifying too, but I can’t help but feel exhilarated about seeing a person I’ve only met once. And how I’d been disappointed when he wasn’t there.

What’s weirdest of all diary. Is that this obsession feels almost normal.

I guess normal for me is strange.



So that’s chapter 13. Not the most exciting I know, but it’s getting closer & closer, I promise. Looks like its going to be pretty long fic, so far. I’m trying to every date possible. I’ll make it happen a little quicker than Twilight, so it isn’t too dragging & boring. Ok, so I hope you like it, so far. Thanks for reading. Leave a review if you can. =D X