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AU. Bella hasn't spoken a word since the accident - 6 years ago. In a bid to start a fresh, her mother sends her to live with her dad in Forks. There she is the freak to the other kids. Apart from the mysterious Edward Cullen, who helps unlock her past.

A very different try at a fan fiction for me. I don’t know how this is going to turn out. I’d thought I’d give a go at a more serious fanfic. I hope you like it. Please review if you can. Thank you. Disclaimer: I own nothing.

3. Saturday 1st January 2005 6:37pm

Rating 4/5   Word Count 679   Review this Chapter

Chapter 3! Thank you so much for all the reviews & favourites, so far. I really appreciate them. There’s something I’d really like to point out however, I put In chapter 1, Bella’s friend is called Suzie yet in Chapter 2 her names Lucy. This was a typo. Her names Suzie. Just thought you ought to know. Thank you. Reviews would be really nice people.


It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities. - Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter & The Chamber of Secrets By JK Rowling

Saturday 1st January 2005 - 6:37pm

Dear Diary,

This crappy new year, has gone from bad to worse. No thanks Dr freaking West & his stupid ideas. He only went & suggested to my Mom that I should start a fresh, a new, somewhere to begin again, all over. And guess what, she only went & accepted the idea.

So, I’m off to live with Charlie. Great.

Charlie’s my dad. He’s a chief of police, in this little known town called Forks, in Washington State. I would spend every Summer, there during my Childhood. Although I barely remember it. My memories of it are faded, just like many others before my 11th birthday.

I hate it there.

I didn’t say this to my Mom, though. Not that I am able to say anything, but I didn’t indicate that I didn’t want to go. She gave me it as a choice. But I didn’t deny it.

I can’t live with the burden I give to my Mom. Not for much longer. And, although I will detest it there. It will be beneficial, to my Mom & Phil at least. They wouldn’t have the freak, hanging round their necks anymore. They would be free to live normal lives. Something, they could never live without me.

Something, that I could never live. Me & normality, it couldn’t mix.

It rains, a lot in Washington, I remember that. At the very least, in thick clothes & raincoats, in would be easier to hide my scars.

Just like the diary, it won’t work. I know it won’t. Dr West’s ideas never do. But I’ll do this. I will do this, diary. For my Mother.

Dr West’s theory, is that, if I’m away. Away, from it all. Away, from where it all happened. I’ll be able to start a fresh.

I’ve never heard so much shit, in my life.

It won’t make any difference. Not in the slightest. The kids, here in Phoenix are bad enough. I’m used to their jeers at me & their snide comments. But I’ve been this way for song long now. I’m merely ignored, for the most part.

Forks, will be different. But not in a good way. After my talk with Mom, I went & researched the school. It has just over 300 kids. Less, than in my entire year, here in Phoenix. It will be harder to hide. Much harder. I’ll be the freaky new girl, from Phoenix, who doesn’t even talk. A laughing stock. The bullies prime target. I can just imagine it now.

I try to kid myself, that everything will be ok. That so how miraculously, I’ll find my voice. I even think that I’ll be the most popular girl in school. All the girls jealous of me. All the boys cooing over me. I know that’s what my Mom wants. Deep, down, as shallow as it may sound I want it too.

At the very least it would be nice to be accepted.

Fat chance.

But I’ve made my choice. There’s no going back now.

Moms cooking Chinese food tonight. It’ll be awful. She’s experimenting with the wok. But I’ll pretend to like it, just like I will pretend to like Forks, just like how I pretend, that I don’t wish everyday that my life would end.

I want it more, than ever to end, right now.



Thank you so much for reading. I’m trying to at least get a chapter up a day. I have two other main fics, that I’m currently writing, so some days there will be no chapters, some there will be several. Reviews would certainly be kind. Thank you!