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AU. Bella hasn't spoken a word since the accident - 6 years ago. In a bid to start a fresh, her mother sends her to live with her dad in Forks. There she is the freak to the other kids. Apart from the mysterious Edward Cullen, who helps unlock her past.

A very different try at a fan fiction for me. I don’t know how this is going to turn out. I’d thought I’d give a go at a more serious fanfic. I hope you like it. Please review if you can. Thank you. Disclaimer: I own nothing.

7. Tuesday 4th January 2005 10:33pm

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Chapter 7! Enjoy!

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command. - Alan Watts

Tuesday 4 th January 2005 - 10:33pm

Dear Diary,

Last full day here in Phoenix. I’m packed & ready to go. That’s what makes it, that bit more scarier. It’s getting closer, I can feel it. Only hours now. The very thought, makes me, want to hurl again.

It was my last session with Dr West this morning. One thing, I suppose, I should be grateful for. He bought me a goodbye present. Obviously chosen by his wife. It was a little gold charm bracelet. The rather expensive type, that you got in fancy jewellers. Quite pretty really. I will never wear it, though. Mainly for the fact, that he had bought it. It felt like charity. I don’t like charity.

David came over too. Not for long though. It couldn’t have been more than half an hour. He’s no mute freak David, but he’s not much of a talker either. He, prefers to write poetry and play his guitar. He wears black often, though denies all accounts that he’s a goth.

Most of his poetry and songs are sad, like him. Like me, Melanie’s death, had taken a toll on David. Though he never spoke of it. He loved Melanie, in the different sort of way, that me & Suzie had. The way, I dreamed of feeling of someone someday.

He misses school often, but nobody ever asks where he goes. Nobody has too. The main reason Melanie’s grave is so well kept is because of David.

All of these things add up in school & make him, as big as a reject as me. Although for some reason, this doesn’t bother him. Nor does it bother Suzie, who could be popular, if she wanted to but instead hangs with us two. Though it bothers me, every waking second.

David, wrote me a song. Which was very sweet of him. I wish I could love David. I mean really love David. And the same for him to me. But we will never be more than friends. My heart is still searching and his belongs to a girl, who died 6 years ago. Life was unfair.

I spent the rest of the day, with Mom. We watched old bewitched reruns, on the television and then when she an Indian takeaway whilst Phil, was out with his friend.

She didn’t speak much. Mainly small talk. The weather, tv, celebrities, that sort of thing. It can very hard to talk to a mute. I know that. It can be even harder, to talk to a teenage emotional wreck of a mute.

It was perfect the way it was though. I will miss her, more than anything in the world. And she will miss me I’m sure too. But this will be good for her. I hope.

We went to bed, early after that. We have an early start tomorrow. The very thought, of the whole move, still makes my whole body tremor. Nobody knows what the future will bring.

My life is going to change, diary. That’s inevitable. Whether it will for better or for worse, time can only tell.

Personally, my moneys on worse.



Ok, that was chapter 7. Reviews would be go kind people. I love them ever so much. X

Oh & also, I’m unsure, whether to make the fic unhuman or as the Cullens as Vampires. I’d like to know, your opinions. Thanks x