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AU. Bella hasn't spoken a word since the accident - 6 years ago. In a bid to start a fresh, her mother sends her to live with her dad in Forks. There she is the freak to the other kids. Apart from the mysterious Edward Cullen, who helps unlock her past.

A very different try at a fan fiction for me. I don’t know how this is going to turn out. I’d thought I’d give a go at a more serious fanfic. I hope you like it. Please review if you can. Thank you. Disclaimer: I own nothing.

8. Wednesday 5th January 2005 9:15am

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Chapter 8! Last entry in Phoenix. Reviews would be ever so appreciated. Enjoy! x

The real hero is always a hero by mistake; he dreams of being an honest coward like everybody else. - Umberto Eco

Wednesday 5th January 2005 - 9:15am

Dear Diary,

This will be my final entry here in Phoenix. The next time you hear from me, I’ll be in Forks. The thought of that makes me feel sick. Though I’ve already been twice this morning.

I can’t sleep. The son is shining through my blinds, where it is rising. This, combined with the feeling now lurking in my stomach makes it impossible for sleep to com again.

I dreamt of her last night - Melanie that is. It was about time. I was beginning to think, the nightmares were starting to disappear, but again, that would be wishful thinking.

In my dream, she was a dancer in a show. Though the real Melanie, couldn’t dance, she was almost as much as a klutz as me. But in my dream she was. And me, Suzie and David, were spectators at the show. It was utterly breath taking. She looked like an angel. But then just as she was ending it all, with a magnificent lift, the image changed again. It changed. To one that I knew too well. To a one that creeps into all my nightmares. Her, motionless. Dead.

I woke up then, as I usually do. The fright, has shook me and I’d soaked the sheets of my bedding with my sweat. I ran to the bathroom and was immediately sick. I lay on to floor in the bathroom then. Calming myself, letting body temperature return to normal. I fell back to sleep then. Dreamlessly. The best way.

Phil found me. He didn’t say anything to my Mom - for which I was immensely grateful. Phil’s only been my step dad a few months and I know the whole concept of how I am, discomforts him. He never says, but I know what he’s thinking. We barely see each other. If I weren’t for my Mother, we’d be complete strangers. But I know that he loves her and she him too. So I’m happy for them both. At least they’ll have each other now.

I got dressed then. I wasn’t exactly sure what to wear. If I wore something too warm, the heat would be unbearable in Phoenix and if I wore something too flesh baring, then the cold would surely get to me in Washington. I decided on my favourite top, a little lace white shirt, bought by my Mom. I’d wear it as a sort of goodbye gesture. I’m taking my parker, for Forks though.

It’s sunny now, outside my window. This’ll be the last time, I’ll be able to enjoy the sunshine. But I’ve decided to stay indoors anyhow. Say my goodbyes, to the house, to my Mother, to as close to normality as I’m going to get.

I have to leave in 5 minutes. I can not explain how much I will miss Phoenix. But there’s no turning back now.

Even I’m not that cowardly.



So, that’s chapter 8. The rest of the fic, will be in Forks. You’ll be hearing from the Cullens pretty soon, do not worry about that. Oh & also just so you know, I’ve decided to write the Cullen’s as vampires. =D Reviews would be really appreciated. I jump for joy when I notice them in my profile. Thank you!