Eternal Damnation

Cries...my baby girl cries as I slip into unconsciousness. I didn't want to die. I knew I was but I couldn't leave Edward and Renesmee. Edward had nearly killed himself when he heard I had died. I couldn't allow him to do that. Renesmee couldn't lose both her parents at once. If she did...I just couldn't think of it...no. I'm not abandoning my loving husband this soon. Not ever...I wouldn't allow it!

I heard the cries become to soften and I realized my little baby girl was taken away. No! I needed her. I wanted her.

Out of no where I felt pain. I felt a needle being stuck into my heart and the burning trail of fire left after. Then ...I felt paper cut like incisions on my throat then my wrists and finally the creases of my arms. All leaving trails of fire. It felt as though someone had set my veins on fire and had left them into dusty ash. I was sure of it.

Then I remembered the pain. When James had bit me it felt alike. This time it was worth. But I felt cool paths on my arms decreasing the pain. I heard my love muttering ‘I'm so sorry,' and ‘will you ever forgive me?' in his velvety smooth lips. He felt guilty for the pain.

Though the pain was so severe, I didn't scream. It wouldn't do me any good. It would only make the love of my life, Edward, guiltier and my baby scared. How could I do that to both of them? I wouldn't do it.

I bit my lip to keep from screaming. Though. I remember Edward putting morphine in me, it didn't help. The pain over ruled the morphine and almost washed it out of my system. I bit my lip harder as the pain increased. This was only day one and the pain was petrifying. What would day two feel like? I knew the pain got worse over the days and I couldn't bear to imagine what it would feel like. The unbearable pain causing screams of pain would cause my husband to blame himself for everything he had ever done to me and would regret it. He thought of himself as a monster from hell but he was the polar opposite. He was an angle from the heavens, sent to save me from death, to give me a family, a daughter to cherish and a husband to treasure, a life forever to spend with people that cared for me and everything good in life.

I heard more mutters but this time, they were louder. There were more people. I recognized Edward and Carlisle's voice. Carlisle? I thought he was gone.

"Carlisle, what if I did something wrong? I can't bear it. She isn't even uttering a word!" Edward's panicked voice rang in my ears like bells. Even when he was scared he sounded like an angel.

"Edward, listen to her heart. It's beating faster and healthier then Emmett's. She will do just fine. You did everything and more then what I could have done." Carlisle's reassuring voice traveled to my ears.
What day was it? Oh, yes, this is day two. I had gone through one painful day and now I have today and tomorrow to endure. The pain would be utter agony as the day travels on. I dreaded them like living a nightmare that no one could even imagine, even with the biggest imagination.

"Bella, if you can hear me, please respond. I need to know if you are in any source of pain. Please, I'm begging you!" Edward panicked voice reentered my ears. If I opened my mouth, I would scream and I couldn't allow myself to do that. I just sat silent and endured the pain. I heard Edward mutter ‘please, Bella' at least six more times before I heard my heart start to beat faster. Then I heard a whoosh and Alice's voice chimed in.

"It's time; I'll go get the others. She's going to be dazzling Edward, just dazzling!" She said.

"She already was Alice." Edward said. Alice's bell like laugh echoed the room.

"Okay, Edward. You know what I mean." And with that, she left the room, only to be back within two seconds with the rest of the family. I thought it was only day two. The transformation took three days.