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Human Emotions

Summary:
In my life, emotions could get you killed. Alice Brandon is an agent for Vascado. After killing for so long, all her emotions have been replaced by death and hate. In my life, Emotions were the only things i understood. Jasper Hale is a vampire, with no mate. His family are all paired off, but he's alone.


Notes:
In this, Bella is a vampire and with Edward, but Jasper doesn't have Alice. He found the Cullen's on his own. They are in Forks which is where Alice Brandon (human) is sent on her latest mission


14. Chapter 14

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I kicked the punch bag with even more hatred then usual. I was back at the centre. I'd been punished but Neferet had let me live. I wish she hadn't. I couldn't forget the look of total betrayal on Jasper's face. He'd turned away from me. But I hadn't been using him.

I'd loved him with all my heart, more love then I thought I was capable of giving. Now, I knew. I could never love. The only emotion I had room for was hatred. I sat on a mat and closed my eyes. I wanted to give in, surrender to the darkness that was the constant threat in my job.

I leapt up, suddenly fed up of sitting still. I did a roundhouse kick and knocked the punch bag of its stand. Good. Then I marched out to my room. I collapsed onto the bed and closed my eyes. I wondered what Jasper was doing? Probably thinking about how much he hated me, if he was at all.


Jasper's POV

"Jasper..."

"What?" I snapped at Esme.

"You should go and find her"

"Why? She's not important"

"You care about her"

"Cared. No more. She betrayed me. She didn't care about me the way I did so there's no point caring about her"

"I think she did love you. She was heartbroken when that lady arrived"

"Probably worried I'd hurt her"

"You hurt her when you turned away from her," said Esme.

"So? She betrayed me remember"

"Jasper, when you knew her...you were different. Happier"

"And now I'm not. End of"

"Jasper..."

"Look, just go away!" Esme looked heartbroken as she left the room. I felt awful. I shouldn't have taken it out on her. It just hurt. What she'd said hurt. I couldn't believe that Alice had loved me or I'd feel worse for turning away.


Alice's POV

I sighed and opened my eyes. Even in my dreams, I wasn't free of him. And these weren't nice dreams, fond memories of the time we'd spent together. These were real, raw and bitter, filled with his emotions and the emotions of others who I'd unintentionally hurt. I felt Jasper's pain as he thought of my betrayal, his anger, his sorrow. And the worry of his mother, Esme. I had never enjoyed my job but I didn't dwell on what I did. I just got on and did it; I had to if I wanted to stay sane.

"Hey?" asked a hesitant voice. I rolled over. A young
girl, about six was standing there. I didn't recognize her.

"Who are you?"

"I'm Bethany" I didn't recognize the name as being one of the more accomplished assassins or a blunderer.

"I'm new," she said "I'm supposed to take this bed," she
pointed at Cara's bed.

"Sure. Whatever" I didn't think about Cara. That just made me think of Jasper and long for him even more. Oh Jasper, I miss you so much.

"Alice Brandon! Report to Neferet's office at once" what had I done now? I'd all ready been punished for my engagement with Jasper. It wasn't a mission call or they'd have said so. I left and went to Neferet's office.

"Alice. Sit" she said. There was no motherly pretence today. Hard, gritty, cold vampire. I was scared.

Alice, why?

"Why what?" I asked. Neferet looked startled.

"I didn't ask you anything," she said.

"What?" I said, confused. I'd heard that melodic voice, clear as day, the voice of a vampire. Neferet was the only one there.

Alice...I loved you. I froze. These weren't Neferet's icy slivers. These were a much more hurtful, more memorable voice.

I miss you so much.

"Jasper" I whispered. I fainted.