On the surface

I spent the rest of the night wandering around the forest. One good thing about being a vampire, I didn't have to go home (and face Edward and Alice) to sleep. I knew that eventually I would need to go back to get a change of clothes. I was still wearing my trousers and my wet (drying) shirt, hanging open so the moonlight shone on my chest. I wondered briefly, what Alice and Edward had done after I'd left. Probably continued with what they'd been doing. Never mind that their brother/husband was wandering around probably trying to kill himself. I kicked a rock, shattering it. I thought about the meeting I had had with Niam. Her emotions were strange and confused. There was self-loathing, anger, sadness, confusion and frustration. I thought about her brother. Confidence, lust and possessiveness. What a strange emotion for a brother to have, lust. It was down right confusing. Maybe I was just getting paranoid that everyone secretly wanted everyone else. I started humming tunelessly. Then I yelled out in pain. Someone nearby was in tremendous amounts of pain, it was crippling! Not physical pain, more a mixture of different emotions. Fear, anger, sorrow. I had to get away from it. I ran very fast in the opposite direction. Oh, crap. I was at the house. Hmmm...face that amount of pain or face my own at the sight of my wife and brother together? I'd rather face the strangers. I was turning to leave when the front door flew open and Esme stepped out.
"JASPER! Where have you been? I was so worried!"
"Relax Esme. I'm a big boy and I can look after myself," I teased, trying to ignore two particular people's emotions I was feeling (mentioning no names *cough* Alice and Edward).
"Don't you give me that! Emmett and Rosalie came home five hours ago and said you'd gone ahead. Edward and Alice said they hadn't seen you since Friday. I was so worried" everyone else had appeared from the house. I couldn't contain my rage at the outrageous lie.
"They might not have seen me, but I saw them. Having sex on my bed!" I shouted at them.
"Jasper. Calm down" said Edward.
"Oh get lost you arse. I never want to talk to you again"
"Jasper, you're behaving childishly"
"Oh am I? Right, imagine how I feel when I come back from hunting and find the wife and brother I loved making out! Of course I'm going to be bloody childish!" I shouted "God! I was a fool not to realize sooner. I mean the lust coming off you two practically wants me to make out with Emmett! I'm leaving. I'm just going to get some clothes and go" I dashed upstairs and into my room. I wrinkled my nose at the stench of...well, better not to dwell. I seized a few items of clothing and turned to leave.
"Jasper" I turned. It was Esme.
"Jasper please. You and Alice will work this out. Don't leave, please"
"I can't help it Esme. I love Alice but right now, I can't stand to look at her. If I have to stay and feel that...I'll hurt someone and it might not be Alice or Edward. Just let me leave. I'll visit I promise" if Esme could cry, she would be.
"Okay" she hugged me and I left, trying not to look at the stares of my family. I jumped into my car and sped off. A car was annoying but I needed somewhere to dump my stuff, and it would be hard to explain that tomorrow. I drove off, never looking back.