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Human Again

Summary:
Bella and Edward try to find a way to make Edward human again.


Notes:
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1. Chapter 1

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Chapter 1

The kitchen was bright, happy, seeming to absorb my mood.

"What's for breakfast?" I asked pleasantly.

That threw him for a minute.

"Er, I'm not sure. What would you like?" His marble brow puckered.

I grinned, hopping up.

"That's all right, I fend for myself pretty well. Watch me hunt."

I found a bowl and a box of cereal. I could feel his eyes on me as I poured the milk and

grabbed a spoon. I sat my food on the table, and then paused.

"Can I get you anything?" I asked, not wanting to be rude.

He rolled his eyes. "Just eat, Bella."

I sat at the table, watching him as I took a bite. He was gazing at me, studying my every

movement. It made me self-conscious. I cleared my mouth to speak, to distract him.

“So, I was wondering something… Er…” I began and didn’t manage to finish my sentence.

Edward frowned. “Yes ?”

“Why do you think Rosalie hates me so much ?”

“You can’t know she hates you.” He replied quietly.

“Oh please, have you seen the way she looks at me ? It’s obvious.” I rolled my eyes at him.

He sighed. “It’s not that she hates you, but she’s very jealous. She can’t understand you.”

“Jealous ?” How the prettiest girl on Earth could ever be jealous of me ??

“You’re human.”

“Oh.” Now I was the one who couldn’t understand her, we were so weak as humans. Especially me. “But why doesn’t she understand me ?”

“You want to become a vampire whereas she would trade anything she has, even Emmett, just to be human again.”

“I can’t comprehend this, I mean, humans are weak, we get sick, we have no strength and some of us are so stupid. It doesn’t make any sense.”

He was staring at me as if I was E.T.

“What ? Have I said something wrong ?” I asked, perplex.

“You don’t seem to realize the chance you have to be human. We would all trade anything to be human again. I would trade anything I have to be like you.”

I was surprised, I thought he liked being a vampire. “Why ?”

He looked down at the table. “To be able to love you the way I want it. The way you want it.”

I looked down too, feeling suddenly stupid I hadn’t guessed this obvious fact.

He carried on. “You can’t imagine the precautions I have to take when I’m close to you. I keep thinking about it every single second when I hold you… I can’t ever lose control with you Bella. I can’t hurt you. I won’t take any chances about this.” His voice was hard on that last sentence.

I bit my lip and suddenly an idea occurred to me. “Have you ever looked for it ?”

“For what ?” He frowned.

“Being human again. I mean, if vampires exist, maybe witchcraft exists too…” That sounded stupid to me but why not after all ?

“Are you thinking about a spell or something ?”

I nodded.

“I don’t think it’s possible Bella.”

“But have you ever tried to search ?” I insisted.

“No, never but-”

“So maybe there’s a way after all Edward. I think we should try to take a look.”

He watched me for a long time and said : “Maybe you’re right. Are you ready ?”

I jumped off my seat. “Yes. I’ll be right back.”

I went upstairs to get dressed, chose a long and khaki-colored skirt – my only skirt actually – and the dark blouse he liked. When I got downstairs, Edward was waiting for me in the hall. He smiled as he saw me and I bounded in his arms. He brushed my cheek softly with his lips and mumbled : “You’re very pretty like this.” I felt my heart began to beat unsteadily and blushed. He then smiled at me and kissed me slowly. I made sure not to react as I did in the meadow but I couldn’t help myself tightening my grip around his neck. He released my hold a few seconds later. I sighed.

“You understand what I meant when I said I’d like us to love each other the way we want it ?” He asked, stroking my cheeks.

“Yes and do you understand when I say I want us to begin to search today if there’s a way to make you human ?” I replied with the same tone.

“Yes, love.”

“There’s this esoteric bookstore in Seattle, maybe we could check over there.”

He nodded and then asked me : “How did you hear about it ?”

I bit my lip and chuckled. “Well, after you saved me from Tyler’s van, I doubted there really was something different about you so I looked for libraries of this type on the Internet.”

He laughed. “Ok, I see. You still have the address of this bookstore in Seattle ?”

“Yes.”

“So let’s go.” He took my hand and we ran – well, he ran actually - to his car. When we arrived at his home, I had the surprise to discover it for the first time ever and, oh my God, it was really huge. And beautiful. He gave me some time to recover from the dizziness of the running and then led me to his car.

“Your house is perfect,” I told him as I climbed into his shiny Volvo.

He smiled. “Would you like to visit it one day ? So you could meet my family at the same time…” He started the engine.

Then he looked at me to study my expression and saw the horror on my face. He frowned : “Are you finally afraid ?”

“No, I’m just scared they won’t like me.”

He laughed loudly. “I can’t believe it, you’re not afraid because they are vampires !” He then shook his head. “What’s the name of the bookstore ?”

“Er…” I searched in my bag to find the little piece of paper I noted it on. “The Seattle Metaphysical Bookstore”. It’s on Market Street.”

He nodded. I watched the road ahead of me and realized we were already out of Forks, I glanced at the speedometer : 120 miles/hour. I sighed.

“What’s wrong ?”

“120 miles !” I pointed the speedometer.

He exhaled : “We’re not going to crash Bella. You know you can trust me.”

That wasn’t a question but I answered yes. “If we don’t find anything, you’ll never love me more than the way it is now ?”

“You know I’ll always love you more than anything.” He smiled his crooked smile and my heart raced.

“You know that’s not what I meant.” I said as I looked down at my hands.

He stayed silent for a moment and then said : “I don’t know if I can do that, Bella. If I can go any further than holding you, caressing your cheeks and kissing you softly. I don’t want to hurt you. Even if I can control myself, you mustn’t forget you’re in danger every second you spend with me.”

“I don’t believe this Edward. I know you, it shows in your eyes I’m not in danger anymore with you.”

He shook his head, I knew he didn’t want to hear this but that was the way I felt. I felt very safe with him.

“I don’t know Bella… I don’t know.”

I decided not to bother him anymore about this. It had come naturally when he had first caressed my cheek, his human instincts were resurfacing because of me.

I knew we would arrive in Seattle in less than 40 minutes instead of around 3 hours thanks to his speed. So for now, I decided to just look through my window. After a few minutes, Edward asked me : “What are you thinking about ?”

“Nothing special.” I smiled at him, he didn’t insist because it was the truth and he could see it.

We finally arrived in Seattle and he parked right in front of the bookstore. I put off my seatbelt and get off the car ; fortunately, the bookstore was open. Edward came to my side and led me into the bookstore. As soon as we came in, the woman standing at the counter gasped. My eyes widened because I’ve just realized she was watching Edward. I looked up at him and he smiled at me. The woman seemed to relax and greeted us.

“Hello, welcome in my shop. How can I help you ?”

“Er… We’re looking for a book about very specific spells.” I hesitated to tell her the truth, maybe she would think we’re crazy.

“Mmm… I think I’ve got what you’re looking for.” And then, she made us a big smile and searched something behind her.

“Here,” she handed me a book that looked more like a grimoire than a book. The cover was just black and the book was quite thin. I opened it to check what was inside. I saw the word “vampire” and closed the book. Indeed, it was what we were looking for. I asked her : “How much ?”

“6 $ dear.” I began to search for my wallet in my bag when Edward took my hand and handed a 10 $ note to the woman. “Keep the change.” Then, he led me to the exit and we climbed into his car.

“Er… Thanks.”

“Give me the book.” His voice was grave.

I frowned. “Is there anything wrong ?”

“I just want to see the chapter you opened the book at. I think I saw something interesting.”

I gave him the book and he began to go through the pages, very quickly and for a second, he reminded me of Kyle from Kyle XY. I suppressed a chuckle.

“Here,” he said.

I leaned closer to him as he showed me the pages. “It’s talking about a sort of witch who is able to make spells to erase some vampires abilities.”

“Where is this witch ?” I asked.

“Salem.”

I raised my eyebrows. “Are you sure ?”

“Positive.”

I thought about it for a second and said : “Let’s go now.”

“Now ? Don’t you-”

“I don’t nothing Edward. We’re going to Salem right now !”

He started the engine. “Alright.”