You Call this a Vacation?
Bella goes on a vacation with all of her friends including two from her hometown in Phoenix. When one has undergone a drastic makeover and attitude adjustment and is found all over Edward, how will Bella take it? Did Edward really cheat on Bella? All Human.
I just thought of this the other day when I was at the store. Random right?
3. I'm Sorry
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(Back to Bella's POV)
I was in a ball on the corner of the balcony with tears streaming down my face. I was waiting for Alice to come back with a glass of water. She was very upset that I wouldn't tell her what was wrong. I looked towards the door and saw Alice talking with Edward. I don't know what was going on but Alice seemed confused. She shrugged and walked onto the balcony as Edward walked away. Just like a man, cheats on his girl and runs away from it. Some boyfriend I have. Or had.
"Here Bella", Alice smiled gently giving me the glass. She sat down on the floor in front of me with some tissue. She wiped my face and began to figure out what was up.
"Thanks Alice. I appreciate it", I said genuinely but I was having difficulty breathing.
"Of course Bella. Now tell me what's wrong"
"I can't Alice", I started as tears began to flow down my face again.
"Bella please...you're hurting and I can tell but I can't help you unless I know the problem. You told Jasper and not me. Bella that hurts I thought we were best friends...sisters even", she began to play guilt trips.
It didn't help it just made me cry harder.
"Alice I'm sorry but you see how I am just thinking about it. How can I possibly say it without breaking down? Alice I do love you you are a sister to me, if I had the strength I would tell you. I want to but I don't know if I can"
"Try", she encouraged.
"Alright", I gave in taking a deep breath before I began. There was no way I'd make it through the whole story without losing it. With Alice I told her everything or nothing so I had to say the whole tragic truth.
"It's okay Bella. Just try I'll keep up", she soothed.
"Okay so I went up to show Edward my new look", I started.
"And I saw the door was slightly open so I went in and...", I had to stop or the sobs would take over me again and I'd never finish.
"Be strong Bells", she whispered.
I took in another breath and figured I'd try to spew it all out as fast as I could so I could get it over with.
"Marissa was laying on top of Edward, they were in their underwear making out", so I began to cry...hard. I couldn't even control my voice anymore.
"I left and fell down the stairs where Jasper and Emmett found me. That's how they knew. I swear I would have told you first but they were there and forced it out of me", I continued to cry and Alice's face turned to pain.
"You know what the worse part is?", I wiped my tears but it was hopeless.
She shook her head with a grimace.
"Right before this happened I had just talked with Edward about how insecure I was about Marissa. He assured me I had nothing to worry about. He told me he loved me. I believed him....Alice I believed him but it was all a LIE!", I put my face down and cried.
Alice's eyes filled with tears.
"Bella I am soo sorry", she whispered. "I had no idea he would do such a thing. I would say you were joking if you weren't crying so hard. I just saw him inside and he wanted to talk to you I told him you weren't feeling well and he said he'd talk to you later then. Does he know that you know?"
"No I don't think so. Jasper and Emmett might have told him but I don't know. I don't want to talk to him. I'm not strong enough. Sad as it is, I still love him. I'll never let him know how much he broke my heart", I said sniffling.
"I'm really sorry Bella", Alice hugged me and she was crying too.
"Thanks Alice. Guess I won't be joining your family after all though"
"You'll always be family Bella. No matter what my jerk of a brother does, we love you. Would you like me to talk to him for you?"
"No it's okay I don't want you to fight with your family. Not a big deal. However, I'm calling Charlie to arrange for me to go back home. I don't want to be here anymore. I won't have fun and I don't want to ruin it for the rest of you. I'll leave tomorrow night maybe"
"Aww Bella. If you leave, I'm leaving. I'm not friends with any of these people. I came to hang out with you. Jen is a sweetie but she's not my best friend, you are"
"No Alice I'll be okay. I just need a vacation from this vacation", I smiled but it didn't reach my eyes.
"I understand. I'm going to give that brother of mine a piece of my mind. I'm going to have Jasper come with me and Emmett will come out here"
"Thanks Alice but you don't have to do that"
"Too late", she smiled and stood up.
(Leaving Bella's POV, switching to Edward's POV)
I was sitting on a chair by the pool. I was beside myself in pain and guilt. Bella, my one true love was hurting because of me. Couldn't I do anything right for the sake of the one's I love?
I never cheated on Bella and I never would. I was just coming out of the shower and I was looking for a shirt when Marissa came in. She asked if she could use my room to change into her swimsuit since Jennifer locked their room door. I figured she would use my bathroom. She began to change right there in front of me. She had stripped to her underwear before I noticed. I was just about to ask her to use the bathroom to change when she pushed me onto the bed.
I didn't even realize what was happening when she forced her mouth on mine. She tried to remove my jeans when I tried to push her off. I don't use force on a woman but it wasn't working so I eventually had to or I wouldn't get her off of me.
It was only about 5 minutes but Bella had come in at exactly the wrong moment and now she thinks I was trying to have sex with her best friend. Now everybody thinks that. I don't know what to do because I had let her change in my room. If I had gotten her off of me sooner, none of this would've happened. Bella would believe when I told her the truth. Now she'd witnessed otherwise. What could I possibly do to convince her of this?
My eyes were flowing with tears. It was rare for me to cry, I was really upset of the situation.
"Edward", Alice's voice disrupted my thoughts.
Alice walked out with Jasper following behind her. She looked angry, disappointed, all at the same time. Alice was a small girl but she was very intimidating when she was mad. She probably heard. I was going to get an earful. Not that I didn't deserve what was coming to me.
"Alice I-", I started to explain.
"Edward Cullen do NOT even start with me after what you did. I cannot believe you would do such a thing. Such a heartless thing to a wonderful person. Do you have no emotion at all?", she got close to me.
Jasper took her in his arms and sat her on his lap on the chair beside me.
"Alice please let me explain"
"Who's stopping you? What possible explanation do you have for hurting her this way?"
"Alice I didn't mean to hurt her. It was all a misunderstanding. I don't want to explain the whole story to anyone but Bella. She's the only one I owe it to", I said sadly.
"You're darn right you do. You owe her so much more then just that. Edward you're such a jerk. You're an amazing liar you can make her feel so loved and confident about your love for her and then you go and shatter her heart crush it into a million pieces and step on them. Edward I thought you loved her but if you truly did you wouldn't keep throwing her away like trash. You know she loves you and you use that"
She was right. Not about the using part but I have hurt Bella too many times. She doesn't deserve me.
"I'm sorry", I apologized sincerely. I didn't know what else to say.
"Quit apologizing so you can hurt her again. This is not a game Edward. You're playing with someone's emotions. A human being! It's cruel!", she was furious. Rightfully.
"I know. Look I need to talk to her", I said.
"Well you better hurry because she's leaving tomorrow. She can't take this anymore", Alice said.
"Okay", I whispered and walked towards the balcony.
Emmett was in front of the door like a bodyguard.
"Em I know you're all mad at me right now. Rightfully so but I really need to talk to Bella right now. Please?", I begged.
"Bella, Edward wants to talk to you. Is that alright?", he called like a secretary arranging a meeting.
I could hear her take a deep breath.
"May as well get this over with I suppose. Sure let him in...or out", she called back.
I walked out to the balcony closing sliding door behind me. She was still sitting on the ground. I sat beside her leaning against the balcony.
(Switching back to Bella's POV)
He sat beside me. He seemed relaxed but when he looked in my eyes, I saw pure agony. What's bothering him? MY eyes should be the ones with hurt filled in them.
"Bella. I can't even begin to tell you how incredibly sorry I am. You don't even know how horrible I feel right now. Before anything I just want you to know exactly what happened. I never cheated on you. She asked if she could use my room to change, I thought she meant the bathroom. She stripped her clothes and before I could even respond she threw me onto the bed and kissed me. You know I'm not the type to push a female aggressively. Pushing her without much force wasn't working, she clung to me so I eventually had to get very physical. I swear it didn't last more than 5 minutes you came in and saw the worst of it. I feel absolutely horrible for hurting you. You don't deserve a person like me. I'm not even a man for all the pain I've caused you. I wouldn't blame you if you didn't forgive me. But despite what you may think, everything I've told you was not a lie. I was 100% honest about my love for you. That will never, ever change", he began to cry.
His story shocked me. Edward was never one to lie to me, but he was so skilled at lying it was hard to tell. Usually I could see through his lies but this one I wasn't too sure. I truly did love him and I wanted so badly to forgive him and stay with him but I would never be fully sure of him again and there was no way the hurt would ever go away.
"Edward how can I be sure you're not lying? I've always trusted you but you have to understand it's hard for me to believe what you say over what I saw myself", I cried too.
"I know. I feel so awful for doing this to you", he whispered wiping my tears instead of his own.
"What's an even harder pill to swallow is I had just finished completely opening up to you about my insecurities about Marissa. And then, to see you making out with her pretty much naked. You'll never understand how that made me feel", I cried.
He closed his eyes tight but that didn't stop more tears from leaving his eyes.
"I'm sorry Bella. I wish I could prove it to you, I guess I will never be able to regain your trust. You don't know how sad that makes me", he said quietly.
"I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through. I wish that I could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears that's why I need you to hear. I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be. And the reason is you", he said quoting one of my favorite songs making me cry even harder.
"I'm sorry Bella", he said and kissed my forehead.
He sat beside me in silence and we both cried together. Well he cried, I sobbed.
Jen came out then.
"Bella. Have you forgiven Edward?", she asked slowly with a strange look on her face like she knew something I didn't.
"Not really. Why?", I asked.
"Well maybe you should. Well you might want to see this", she handed me a cell phone.
"Why would I want to see this?", I asked with confusion.
"It's Marissa's cell phone. It kept buzzing so I looked at it, read her messages", Jen said kneeling in front of me.
I'll have Bella going up there in ten minutes. Make sure the timing is right so she walks in on a hot moment =D
Perfect! She came in at the right moment. She even fell down the stairs on the way down. Mission Accomplished! XD
-Kissy with Marissy
I was so shocked and so hurt that my former friend would do that to me so maliciously.
"Thanks for showing me Jen", I smiled feeling relieved that Edward wasn't lying to me after all.
"I'm sorry you guys. I can't believe how evil she is", Jen said with sympathy.
"It's okay. Thank you Jenny you're a good friend", I smiled.
"Aren't you going to get her back?", Jen asked.
"No, it's been a long day. I don't have any fight left in me to be completely honest", I admitted.
"Yeah you're right. If there's anything I can do let me know", Jen walked away leaving Edward and I alone.
"Edward I'm sorry I didn't believe you", I started.
"I don't blame you. I'm sorry for putting you through this. Really I-"
I interrupted him with a kiss. Staring at him ramble about his guilt made him really endearing. I just had to kiss him, it's been a long day full of hurt and not enough time with the one I love. He kissed me back immediately full of passion. There was a lot of emotion coming from the both of us. Relief from all the day's events and mostly just love. Unconditional love.
I would love him forever. Even when I thought he cheated on me, I still loved him. I was altered and I think he was too. It was a great feeling.
"I love you", Edward whispered on my lips. "Always", he said echoing my exact thoughts.
"Always and forever", I whispered back and continued kissing him.