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when the world came crushing down

Summary:
edward gets killed by the volturi in order to protect alice. but the question is: what will bella do? i think we all have a pretty good idea.... but would she take it that far? Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!

yes... yes she would. thanks to my beta alice_1901


Notes:
hey guys! review please! that would be just apples and peaches! now before you begin, please understand there will not be a sequal... unless you ask me, AND if i get 50 reviews!!!


10. the funeral

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So today was the day, Renesmee and Jacobs funeral… it’s been about a month since Edward and mines return from Italy. But now happy times are closed to us and we must face facts that we will never hear our daughter laugh again, never again see that smile spread across her face, nor to hear the words “I love you” come from her lips. Both Edward and I haven’t fully grasped this concept, but I had a feeling it was soon to come… sooner then we could ever hope for. But it’s not as if Renesmee is the only one who is lost. Jacob was my best friend, my sun. He showed me the light even during the darkest hours, especially when I couldn’t seem to find the light in the world myself. Edward will always be grateful for this.

“Are you ready?” Edward whispered into my ear. Was I ready? Ready to see my best friend and little girl off from us forever? Would I ever be ready? Could I ever be ready?

“No…” was my sorrowful response.

“Me either… But it’s time.” He said with a stifled sob. He called in our priest Amelia. Carlisle knew her from some were in Italy and knew she would be perfect for the job.

“We are gathered here today to acknowledge a great and terrible loss. The loss of a wife, mother, daughter, grand daughter, and friend. And also the loss of a husband, son, co father, and friend. It’s with the deepest of sadness to see them leave us from this earth. But we must see them off to their peace with one and other.” Amelia spoke in a solemn tone.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust…words so cliché yet so true. And also unfair. It is just not fair to have to attend your own daughter’s funeral… to have to see her off into the darkness that is death. Words so contradictory to the poem I had once “dreamed” two months ago.

“Would anyone like to bid their final goodbyes to the two?” said Amelia.

Six people raised their hands. Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Rosalie, Edward, and me. Carlisle was the first to speak.

“It’s a very hard day to wake up and see that the ones you love are no longer with you. And then it’s an even harder day when realization sinks in that they are gone. I don’t seem to think that day has come for any of us quite yet, but only because we are not ready for it yet. In truth I don’t think we ever will be ready to let them go, yet we must. And it is with great sadness that we do so. Renesmee, Jacob, we love you and hope that you may find happiness in which were ever it is that you are headed.” Spoke Carlisle, his voice ringing with wisdom.

And now it was Esme…

“I just can’t believe this could happen to two such good people. Surely they did no wrong to cause there deaths. They died for who they loved, Jacob to Renesmee and Renesmee to Jackie. Then the old saying ‘love conquers all’ came through my mind. Then I supposed they are happy, because the ones they died for seemed to be ok to them as they left. You know, Renesmee gave Jackie over to Alice in her will as a mother, as some sort of truce so to speak. And I now believe that saying has some truth to it… goodbye, we all love you.” She said between sobs.

And now for Alice…

“I was never very close to Jacob, but he made Renesmee happy, so he made me happy as well. So maybe happiness is the most important thing to us. Love, life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness seems to have made more sense in the history books, as life is not as easy. Because with those words also came agony, sorrow, cruelty, and death. But there was still love among us, so I guess that makes everything ok on the end. I love you guys.”

Rosalie? Rosalie was never really close to either of the two.

“I just wanted to apologize; through out both these people’s lives I have been cruel, cold, sick, and heartless. There deaths have made me see the errors of my ways and I can only hope that they forgive me, were ever they are at the moment. It may not have seemed like it but I loved both of them and always will.”

Then it was Edwards turn, I could already feel his hurt.

“Nessie… my daughter, gone. Forever? It doesn’t seem to make any sense to me. Almost like it just doesn’t make any sense for the world to let any one person be in so much pain. The hurt that I feel, the loss that is here, I just can’t seem to take it all in. being able to say goodbye to her right now is probably one of the hardest things I will ever have to do, because I don’t want to have to stay good bye… so I will have to make it short and sweet. I love you, Goodbye.” Then another tear fell down his cheek. Every one looked around confused as vampires couldn’t cry. Like he said before… he was just that hurt.

I took a deep breath and headed down the aisle, about to take my chance to say my last goodbye.

“The feeling of… loss, is not foreign to me. I had to live through my husbands ‘death’ so to speak, and through out the past 500 years I have watched each of my old family die out. But this is different. The loss of your own daughter is to much to bare, and then to not have your best friend by your side helping you makes it even worse, but knowing that they are probably out there someone, happy, and together, makes things a little worth while…” I took another deep breath and said my last few words that I could ever speak to my little girl. “Goodbye… I love you.”

After I had walked off the alter Alice came to me with open arms.

“Bella, I found this in her room. I think you should have it.” She whispered.

She then pulled out the locket Renesmee had gotten for Christmas 500 years ago. I held it close to my heart, and promised myself never to let go. then i turned to look into the deep red eyes of Jackie... i knew she had a life ahead of her. as for me, i was not so sure. But I knew this, as long as I had Edward I could survive.