when the world came crushing down
edward gets killed by the volturi in order to protect alice. but the question is: what will bella do? i think we all have a pretty good idea.... but would she take it that far?
yes... yes she would. thanks to my beta alice_1901
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The past few days have been awkward to an extreme. Mainly because Alice refuses to leave the Cullen mansion because she feels she is a member of the family…which is true. Yet there is a tension between Alice and Jasper, that no one can deny.
“ Alice, I’m done with this!” screamed Jasper with a sudden outburst that shocked us all out of our seats.
“ what are you talking about Jasper Hale?” she replied, using her, ‘has he finally gone mad yet’ voice.
“ I cant take living here with you around! I cant take looking at your face everyday knowing your not mine! I cant take that I still love you! I JUST CANT TAKE IT ALICE CULLEN!” he emphasized the difference between Hale and Cullen in there names… the divorce was filed 3 days ago…
“ then what do you plan on doing about it? Its not me who caused this! I wasn’t the one who cheated on there wife with there niece! That wasn’t me Jasper Hale!” she retorted.
“ I’m leaving! I’m Leaving this god forsaken town! Alice, I love you, more then anything. But I cant take this anymore.” he said in a low, grim tone.
“ Jasper, you cant do this… I love you! I cant live without you by my side! don’t go Jasper please don’t go!” she pleaded.
“ Alice, if you loved me… why did you leave me?”
“ because… you’re a cheater Jasper. First Maria, then Renesmee. How am I supposed to know if you going to do it again or not? It could happen again. Bella, Esme, Rosalie, hell maybe Tanya will come frolicking in the wind! I have stayed nothing but loyal to you in our relationship…”
“ Alice, I would never, ever hurt you again!”
“ Jasper that what you said last time! And look at how well that turned out!”
“ I… didn’t understand the consequences…. I do now though! I didn’t understand you could leave me! Alice, we belong together…”
“ Jasper, I just cant” she said these words with a hefty sob.
“ then I guess I must leave… Goodbye love.”
“STOP! You cant leave! You cant!” I shouted with all my might as I made a sudden realization. Renesmee… he cant leave her.
“what? Bella what are you talking about!?” he retorted loudly.
“RENESMEE! You cant leave her! She needs you! What happens if this doesn’t go well? Like it didn’t with me! She could die Jasper! She needs you by her side!”
“Jasper, you know this is what you must do… you know it.” spoke up Alice.
“ Fine…” he said as he hit his fist to the door next to him as hard as he could.
Renesmee just looked around…sullen. Her eyes filled with the loss that was true to her heart. The heart that was broken. The one thing that mattered most to her, was killed. Gone… forever. She turned to look at me. We both exchanged the same excruciating expression of understanding and pain.
“what do I do?” she asked… I knew what she was asking. How would a ½ human, ½ vampire take to being pregnant with a ¾ vampire ¼ human.
“ I don’t know… I don’t even know how this happened. But we have to talk to Carlisle. He may have answers… theories.” I replied in a dead, grim voice.
“ I’m not getting rid f this baby… you know that.”
“I understand Renesmee… I know the feeling. Your dad wanted to get rid of you at first.”
Then the memories came. They came so often now a days. Flashback after flashback.
“Bella!” he crossed the room in a flash and put his hands to my face. “are you in pain?”
“ no, no-”
He pulled me to his chest. “ don’t be afraid. We’ll be home in sixteen hours. You’ll be fine. Carlisle will be ready when you get there. We’ll take care of this, and you’ll be fine, you’ll be fine.”
“take care of this? What do you mean?”He leaned away and looked me in the eye. “were going to get that thing out before it can hurt any part of you. don’t be scared. I wont let it hurt you.”“ that thing?” I gasped.
He looked sharply from me, toward the front door.
“ dang it! I forgot Gustavo was due today. I’ll get rid of him and be right back.” he darted out of the room.
I clutched the counter in support. My knees were wobbly.Edward had just called my little nudger that thing. He said Carlisle would get it out.
“no.” I whispered.
Then I was pulled back into reality.
“ Renesmee, I will never let anyone touch that baby.” I said this slowly and determined.
“ thanks mom! Now…should we go see Carlisle?”
“ yes…” then we got up, and started toward Carlisle’s study. Completely unaware of the events to come…
We slowly approached Carlisle, with the same looks of uncertainty on our faces.
“I have been expecting this moment… and I do have a few theories.” said Carlisle, in a calm tone.
“ well lets here them then.” Renesmee whispered.
“ this is a very delicate, and confusing situation. But I do stand by my theory. You see, I think it is possible for a hamp (human vampire mix) to reproduce with a vampire for almost the same reasons Bella could have Nessie with…Edward.” he said that last part slowly and hesitantly, afraid to hurt me worse then I already am.
“ some explanation please Grandpa?” spoke Renesmee.
“ well, the human parts of your body allow you to have children I would assume. And jasper is a male vampire, as was Edward, so he can reproduce with you.”
“I understand that, but I think the main question would be can she survive this baby?” I said, speaking for the first time.
“ I have also thought about that. Its seems to me, that being pat vampire would make her stronger, and much, much more likely to survive then you were Bella. Which, is very good news, and I believe this will work out for the better. But, of coarse, these are just theories. There is still a chance of fault here.”
“ thank you Carlisle, when do you think she could come in for her first ultra sound?” I questioned.
“ in about a week or so. Any other questions?”
“ no, I think that’s all. Thank you Grandpa.” and then we both got up, and strode out of the room… wordless. that’s how we were half the time. that’s how it always is when one suffers great loss. Ever since the divorce with Alice, Jasper has been in some what of a depression. He just isn’t himself anymore.
After snapping out of my thoughts I realized I was standing, alone, in the middle of the stairwell. As I began my way down to the living room I noticed a slight movement at the bottom of the stairs…
I raced down to find the cause of this, and when I did, shock over came my face.
There he was, standing before me. As beautiful as ever, his eyes the shade of green Carlisle told me he had before he was changed. his skin had a dim glow to it, and he was wearing his favorite pair of khaki pants and a white tank top. With a very sad smile on his face, he slowly approached me.
I didn’t even care if this was a hallucination. All I cared about was that my imagination had conjured up the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. If my eyes could shed tears, I would have broke down crying.
“ Edward Anthony Cullen, were have you been?” I asked, you could hear tearless cries of joy in my voice.
“ waiting for you, love.” and with that I jumped into his arms and embraced him.
“ I miss you.” I sobbed.
“ I missed you to, but I had to do it, you must understand.”
“ I know… I need you though.”
“ I know love, I know. I need you to.”
“ once this is all over, I will see you soon…”
“ Isabella Marie Cullen, you can not kill yourself.:
“ lets just hold off the lectures, I don’t want to spend this arguing.”
“ I cant… I have to go.”
“ what? Why!”
“ I cant stay here forever! I love you Isabella!”
“ no you cant leave yet! I cant do this without you!”
“ goodbye… I love you…”
“ I love you too…” with these words, a sob racked through my body. Then I opened my eyes. I was still standing in the middle of the stairwell.
“ who the hell were you talking to?!” shouted Rosalie… apparently my half of the conversation was said out loud.
“ I… I just… Edward!”
“ my god you are crazy! Bella, do you have any idea how strange it is to be walking up to your room when suddenly you see your sister-in-law talking to herself about how much she loves your dead brother?”
“ Rosalie… I just-”
“ will you ever get a grip? He’s gone. he’s not coming back! Will you ever accept that so we can all get on with our lives?”
“ he isn’t gone!” I said this lie with such truth I almost believed it myself…
“ oh really? Well look what Emmett got when he found Edward dead in Volterra.” then she handed me a golden ring. The ring that hadn’t come off Edwards finger for 500 years, the ring he said never would come off. The ring that came along with the vows ‘until death do you part’.
“ Edwards wedding ring…”
“ he’s never coming back Bella.” her voice tinged in fury.
“ ROSALIE! What do you think your doing?” cried Esme as she walked down the stairs.
“ just doing us a little favor, that’s all. Its enough to have Renesmee and Jasper all depressed. So I figured I might take care of this one.” she sad this with a snide and sarcastic tone.
“ Rosalie, why don’t you go up to Emmett and leave Bella alone.”
“ but Esme! She was sitting there talking to herself!”
“ I wasn’t talking to myself! I was talking to Edward!” I retorted.
“ HE IS DEAD.” and with these cold hard words, I broke down into sobs, of pain, misery, and pure and total agony. The wall that held back my pain, broke once more. It seemed as if the ground beneath my feet was about to come crashing down. The hole in my chest ripped open to include my back, my legs, my arms, my whole body toppled over in shear pain.
The words I thought the first time Edward left were replayed in my head.
It was over. Love, life, meaning, over.
My life was over…
Its been a week since Edward’s… visit. So today was the day Renesmee would be getting her very first ultra sound. We have been anticipating this day for nearly two months, and with good reason. For Renesmee this wasn’t just going to be an ultra sound… this was going to be the moment of truth. The truth behind weather or not she faces life… or death.
“ hello Renesmee, Bella,… Jasper.” said Carlisle in a hushed yet anxious tone. Jasper came along as this was his baby too.
“ So what exactly do I need to do?” asked Renesmee.
“ I just need you to lie down and relax while I spread the ‘jelly’” Carlisle chuckled… I’m just going to assume it’s some sort of inside joke. What could possibly be funny in a time like this?
Carlisle began to spread a thick substance onto Renesmee’s stomach. After he did this he picked up some sort of Machine and the contents of Renesmee’s womb were displayed onto the screen… all to be revealed.
“ well Renesmee it seems that if you were to look right over here,” he pointed to a smudge on the TV., “ you would find that you are going to have a baby girl. Congratulations.” Renesmee looked up at Jasper warmly, while he looked away, sadness clear on his face… only Alice could bring him out of his depression.
“ It also looks like you are about 6 months along, even though you have only been pregnant for four. I’m assuming that the vampire parts in the baby increase the growing rate, just like you did with Bella. So basically, one month for you, equals three months for any other woman. So you should be due in a little over a month.” Carlisle explained.
“ thank you Carlisle, I assume we will be seeing you soon for another ultra sound.” I spoke.
“ yes, I’m thinking we should do an ultra sound once every two days. That way we could track her pregnancy properly.” we all gently nodded then walked out of the room. No one expected what was to happen next.
As we were all walking down the stairs, we saw Alice waiting at the bottom.
“ so I hear Renesmee got her first ultra sound in today… I hope your happy Jasper… about being a father and all.” she sniffed, as if she would be crying if she could.
“ Alice, there is not one part of me, that does not regret what I did to you. If being a father means losing the one you love… then is it really worth it?” Jasper said in a solemn tone. Renesmee carried a deeply hurt expression.
“ Jasper, I love you. I cant stand to see you moping around the house all the time.”
“ I love you! that’s what has me moping!” he cried.
“ if I love you and you love me, then Alice, what the hell is stopping us?” he exclaimed.
“ Jasper, I-” but it was to late, he interrupted her by crashing his lips to hers. The sad thing is, Alice didn’t even try to stop. It was a passionate, yet heartbreaking kiss. I turned to see Renesmee’s expression…. The look of true pain was there. It was almost like when she saw Jacob get killed, except toned down a bit. Her heart shattered, you could see it in her eyes.
“ WHY? Jasper!!! Agh!” then Renesmee got up and ran out of the house.
“ sorry I ever betrayed you! It will never happen again!” cried Jasper.
“ I never understood what I had until it was lost. But I found you again!” Alice replied.
“ Alice, iv been waiting to ask you this again. For the 3rd time.” Alice gasped as jasper pulled out Alice’s old wedding ring that she returned to him during the divorce.
“ will you marry me? Again?” he asked her as he bent down on one knee.
“ yes.” she said, with a sob, sobs of happiness.
“ thank you. that’s all I ever ask.” he said with a smile, then he kissed her again.
“ Renesmee!” I shouted with the sudden realization.
I ran as fast as I could to the old oak tree. I met Renesmee there… and her knife.
“ mom!” she dropped the knife to the floor.
“ Renesmee, you mustn’t kill yourself… think of your baby.”
She slowly nodded and gave me hug as she wept in to my shoulder.
“ this is going to be harder then I thought…”
“ I know honey I know….”
After the past two months events I have found myself emotionally exhausted. As close to tired as a vampire can get, so one moment I’m on the coach, just thinking, but dreaming. I was actually dreaming, consciously of coarse. But it was one of the saddest, cruelest, and scariest dreams I’ve ever had…
It all started on the beach….Renesmee and I walked hand in hand along the coast line, watching the sunset fade to black, blacker then our hearts had become. We began to see to white figures in the distance…
“ what are they?” she asked me.
“ I have no clue… lets take a look.” so we ran, full speed to the figures.
After we figured out what they were, we began to walk slower… cautiously, over to the two white crosses stuck into the ground just in front of the water… there were two names drawn in the sand. Edward and Jacob.
Renesmee and I exchanged the same pained look, then kneeled down before the crosses.“ I can never forgive you
For you do not deserve forgiveness
Do not deserve its light
From the shallow dark of wrong
To the heavens of truth
Its coming, yet I don’t run?
I was standing out on the sea shore
Watching it come closer
I knew it was coming, yet I don’t run
For you cannot run from the inevitable
Because there is one thing certain in this world
And that is death
So I do not run, as it will happen someday
Its not as if I will be sad about my own death
It shall be painless
Unlike the cruelty of life
Were pain stands by every emotion
Every second of everyday
Someone is suffering
So I’m taking the easy way out
To stop my suffering
To stop the darkness, I step into the light
Life is dark, death is light
Only because just one has misery
So I step into the light, away from the now forgotten darkness
To start a new day after this painful dawn
I escape this harsh world, and come to you with open arms.” I gently said, to the cross marked Edward.
I could never forgive him for leaving this world. Leaving out on my own. I was so lost in my own train of thought I hardly noticed Renesmee was no longer with me. No one was with me. There were suddenly nine crosses before me instead of two… hen it hit me as I read the words unscripted below them.
Esme, Alice, Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, Jacob, Edward, and Renesmee…
Every one I loved was dead… the sand suddenly turned black, and the sky was the deepest shade of red, as I shouted to the heavens,
“ why don’t you just kill me already!”
And then I brought myself back into the world, away from my day dream. I was breathing faster then normal and decided I should distract myself. So I picked myself up off the coach and walked into Alice and Jasper’s room, which is were I found Alice and Esme discussing wedding arrangements.
“ hello Bella, why don’t you have a seat and give us a hand?” said Esme in her motherly voice.
“ so as I was saying, I ordered all three of the brides maids dresses yesterday, so they should be here tomorrow, and-” I interrupted Alice.
“ three? Who are the bridesmaids going to be?”
“ you are going to be the maid of honor, which shouldn’t come as a surprise to you at all, then the other two are Rosalie and… Renesmee.”
“ WHAT? You can not have Renesmee be a brides maid to the father of her child’s wedding! Its just not right Alice!”
“ she’s strong she can take it!”
“ well I hope your right, but if this hurts her any more then it should, I swear to god I will cut your-”
“ Bella! Calm down! I talked to her about it when you were… day dreaming. She started crying but said she agrees. The dresses are lavender by the way! I’m going with a purple theme! My dress is white of coarse and is going to be here tonight when we pick it up from the tailors… all in all the wedding should be ready in about a week and a half.” she said quickly.
“ were do you plan on havening it?”
“ in the house, just like you and… Edwards… Bella do you want me to change the location? I could if you wanted me to!”
“ no, that’s ok Alice…” I looked at my toes so she couldn’t see the lies evident in my eyes.
“ ok, thank you Bella! Your going to be a great maid of honor! This wedding is going to be beautiful I swear!” she looked at me with warmth and happiness…
“ you just keep thinking that Alice.” I replied coldly.
“ what are you talking about Bella?”
“ you and I both know what I happen to be talking about!” I shouted.
“ no… I don’t.” she retorted.
“ this wedding may be beautiful, but he hearts of those you hurt in the process aren’t.”
“ what do you mean?”
“ RENESMEE ALICE!”
She looked very shaken and taken back by my outburst.
“ I…” then I sighed and strode out the room. Does anyone In this house care about peoples feelings?
“ Rose! for the billionth time, your hair looks fine!”
“ oh just shut up why don’t you and get in the car!”
So today was the big day… Alice and Jaspers wedding day. This morning was no were near as chaotic as my wedding had been, mostly because the bride and groom were both vampires, meaning it wont take five hours to make them look beautiful… they already are. All they had to do was slip into there cloths, maybe do something extra special with there hair, and then there ready to go.
“ are you ready Alice?” Esme asked as Alice prepared to walk down the aisle.
“ yes, more then ready actually. Bella I think you should grab Rosalie and Renesmee and start heading toward the alter, it would be terrible if none of my brides maids were there beside me!” Alice said in a cheery voice.
“ ok. Good luck out there.” then I slowly walked toward Renesmee, heart broken by her expression.
She was crying… very lightly, not sobbing. But tears flowed down her cheeks like a river. She clutched her stomach…
“ were going to see daddy get married ok Jackie? Stay strong Jackie, I will if you will…” she whispered to her huge stomach. She looked about 8 ½ months pregnant.
“ Jackie?” I asked….
“ oh, hi mom… I’m naming the baby Jackie…”
“ any particular reason?” I inquired.
“ Jackie is the girl version of Jack or Jake. Jake was Jacobs nick name…” she muttered in a hushed tone.
“ so your naming your baby after Jacob then?”
“ yes… he was the love of my life. Even though this baby isn’t his, I will always love him as if he was the father.”
“ that’s great Renesmee… but we have to get to the alter for the ceremony! Help me find Rosalie!” she quickly nodded her head, and wiped her face of tears, the hurried after me to find Rose.
“ there you are! We have been looking all over for you! Come on Rose we have to get o the alter!” I said when we found her in front of a mirror… doing her hair and make up… of coarse.
I grabbed her hand, and Renesmee’s, and tugged them to the alter were the brides maids stood. I placed my self closest to were Alice should be since I’m the maid of honor… Renesmee stood farthest from her.
Suddenly the music started… here comes the bride. Alice and Carlisle walked down the aisle, slowly, toward the alter.
When the music started, so did the flash backs of me and Edwards wedding…
A sudden fanfare of music trilled through the soaring music. I recognized my cue.
“ don’t let me fall, dad.” I whispered. Charlie pulled my hand through his arm and then grasped it tightly.
One step at a time, I told myself as we descended to the slow tempo of the march. I didn’t lift my eyes until my feet were safely on the flat ground. Though I could here the murmurs and rustling of the audience as I came into view. Blood flooded my cheeks at the sound; of coarse I could be counted on to be the blushing bride.
Alice and Carlisle were halfway down the aisle by the time I turned to see who the groomsmen were. I could see Emmett and Peter in the far end… but the best man was the one who shocked me.
Edward was the best man… dressed up in a tux. Last time I saw him in a tux was at our wedding…
All I really saw was Edwards face; it filled my vision and overwhelmed my mind. His eyes were a buttery, burning gold; his perfect face was almost severe with the depth of his emotion. And then, as he met my awed gaze, he broke into a breathtaking smile of exultation.
Suddenly it was only the pressure of Charlie’s hand on mine that kept me from sprinting headlong down the aisle.
The march was to slow as I struggled to pace my steps to its rhythm. Mercifully, the aisle was very short. And then, at last, I was there. Edward held out his hand. Charlie took my hand and, in a symbol as old as the world, placed it in Edwards. I touched the cool miracle of his skin, and I was home.
“ we are gathered here today, to witness a man, and woman, in holy matrimony.” the priest began.
Our vows were the simple, traditional words that had been spoken a million times, though never by a couple quite like us. We’d asked Mr. Weber to make only one small change. He obligingly traded the line “ until death do you part” for he more appropriate “ as long as we both shall live.”
“ and do you Alice Cullen, take this man, Jasper Hale, to be your law fully wedded husband? In sickness and health, for rich or for poor, as long as you both shall live?”
the priest asked.In that moment, as the minister said his part, my world, which had been upside down for so long now, seemed to settle in its proper position. I saw just how silly I had been for fearing this. As if it had been an Iunwanted birthday gift or an embarrassing exhibition, lie the prom. I looked into Edwards shining, triumphant eyes and knew that I was winning too. Because nothing else mattered but that I can stay with him.
I didn’t realize I was crying until it was time to say the binding words.
“ I do.” spoke Alice in a small voice, you could here she wore a big smile on her face. Jaspers face lit up
“ then do you, Jasper Hale, take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife, in sickness and in health, for rich or for poor, as long as you both shall live?” the priest asked Jasper now..
I do.” said Jasper, in a promising tone. He seemed to be trying to get it across to every one that he would never hurt Alice again. another flash back...
“ then I now pronounce you husband and wife, you may kiss the bride.”Mr. Weber declared us husband and wife, and then Edward’s hands reached up to cradle my face, carefully, as If it were as delicate as the white petals swaying above our heads. I tried to comprehend, through the film of tears blinding me, the surreal fact that this amazing person was mine. His golden eyes looked as if they would have tears, too, if such a thing were possible. He bent his head toward mine, and I stretched up on the tips of my toes, throwing my arms, bouquet an all, around his neck.
He kissed me tenderly, adoringly; I forgot the crowd, the place, the time, the reason… only remembering that he loved me, that he wanted me, that I was his.Jasper kissed Alice very subtly, but only to show respect for her. Then they turned to the audience to embrace there families.
I turned my head to my little Hallucination of Edward, and smiled. Today’s wedding was like two weddings side by side for me, due to the flash backs and hallucinations. These flashbacks didn’t hurt like they normally did… they felt sweet in a way. But that feeling was taken away the moment I looked at Renesmee.
Her eyes were filled with tears, not yet escaping her eyes, while she was holding her large stomach… she was trying to be strong like she promised Jackie…
“mom!” she cried as she sobbed into my lavender dress.
Every one turned to look at us. Suddenly every one realized that this happy day was a dark one as well…