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Before I Die

Edward has cancer. He knows that he'll die soon, and before that happens, he wants to have fun with his life. He doesn't want to find love, but as he has 'fun', he meets a girl, named Bella. AH AU BxE


12. Chapter 12

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I was lying down on my bed, a blood stained towel was shoved up my nose. My throat was sore, and it felt like I never drank water in life, considering the fact that I'm so dehydrated. Esme never left my side, in fact, she was sitting beside me reading a book. Carlisle stopped by, Mom made a house call.

“Did you hear that? Carlisle said to drink a lot of water.” Esme said after he left.

I rolled my eyes.

“I'm cancerous, not deaf.”

Esme half smiled.

“Well, do you want me to get the water for you?” she asked.

“No, I'll get it myself.” I said as I tried to get up.

Esme pushed my back down gently.

“Its okay, don't strain yourself, I'll get it.”

“No, Mom.” I said quickly.

“Do you want ice?” She asked ignoring my protest.

“No, just leave me alone.” I snapped.

Esme's eyes narrowed.

“If you always push the people who love you away, you will have no one.” She said fiercely.

“Good.” I said matching her fierce tone. Esme huffed, folded her arms over her chest and stomped out of the room. I sighed, what is with me? First with Bella, now with Esme?

Maybe Esme is right, I shouldn't push away love, I should welcome it greatly. But then again, why should they love me? Weakly, I got up from bed and started to change in a pair of jeans and a shirt, I was knew what I should do now.


Another dreary day at Rock Climbing. Alice was helping an old man strap on the harness, while I watched a little kid cry in the corner because he couldn't rock climb with his grand pa. The bright side was that the sky was blue, and Mike Newton asked me out. Not that him asking me out was a good thing, I wanted Edward to ask me.

“Hey!” Alice snapped. I shook my head, to clear out my fantasies.


Alice jerked her chin toward the entrance. I walked up to him, not really believing my eyes.

“Edward, hi.” I said.

Edward smiled, his lips were so pale, probably natural for him.

“Hi Bella.”

“Are you here to rock climb again?” I asked walking back to the register.

“Yes.” He said curtly.

“Okay, that will be twenty dollars.” I stated.

“Will you climb with me?” he asked a sly look came into his eyes.

I felt my jaw drop open, but I closed it before I looked like an idiot.

“Sure.” I stammered, I don't think anyone has asked me to climb with them, especially someone this cute.

Edward smiled again, then looked down at his feet. I grabbed two harnesses and handed one to Edward. He put it on without my help, and after I slipped mine on, I raced him to the wall. He beat me there, he was laughing at me panting.

“Shut.” I snapped. But he continued laughing.

“Well I can beat you at climbing.” I taunted, reaching up I clamped my hand on the plastic rock. I started climbing, at first slowly, but then a little faster. I glanced sideways, Edward was right next to me. I decided to go faster, and when I finally reached the buzzer I let out a victory yell.

“Haha!” I teased as I climbed back down, when my feet touched the ground, I sat down on the ground.

“You were cheating.”Edward mumbled.

I rolled my eyes playfully. I got back up and walked back to the register.

“Twenty dollars.” I repeated.

Edward reached into his pockets and took out a crisp twenty dollar bill.

“Listen, I was wonder if you would like to go...” he mumbled, he was looking down at the floor so I couldn't understand him.

“What?” I asked.

“Would you like to go...” He mumbled again, a little louder this time.

“I'm sorry, I can't here you.” I leaned in closer.

Edward looked up and it shocked him at how close our faces were. My heart beat quickened, as he talked.

“Would you like to go on a date with me?” Edward whispered.

I smiled. “What took you so long?”


Twelve o' clock tomorrow at the pier. Twelve o' clock tomorrow at the pier. I thought to myself over and over again. It makes me incredibly happy that I finally have a date in such a long time. Well of course its my fault for pushing them away, but now, I think shes the one.

Bella's the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with.

And who knows how long that will be. Screw six months, I'm going to live for years. I was so giddy with excitement, that I didn't even realize that Jasper, Esme and Emmett were looking at me questioningly.

“I think hes gone crazy, he keeps smiling.” Emmett whispered.

Esme smacked him on the shoulder.

“Why are you so happy Edward?

“I'm going on a date.” I said.

Esme clamped her hand over her mouth and squealed.

“Really? Well you have to bring her here!” She insisted.


“Well I have to know what she looks like.”

I rolled my eyes, of course.

“Just don't scare her away.” I warned.

Esme sighed. “Of course not.”

“Congrats bro.” Jasper said, patting me on the back.

“Why are you congratulating me?”

“Because, this is the first time I've seen you smile like this. So this must the girl.”

“She is, it took me a while to realize it, but she is.”