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Before I Die

Edward has cancer. He knows that he'll die soon, and before that happens, he wants to have fun with his life. He doesn't want to find love, but as he has 'fun', he meets a girl, named Bella. AH AU BxE


16. Chapter 16

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Its a strange feeling you know. Passing out, usually in books, an author would describe it dramatically. Like, 'It felt like the world was going dark. My life ending quickly, as I closed my eyes and drifted.' But thats just a big fat lie. Because all you feel is nothing. You go limp.

My eyes fluttered open, I was no longer at my house. Instead I was at another hospital room, strapped to a hospital bed. It seemed like my whole family was in that little room. Emmett and Jasper were on the couch, and Esme was sitting at the foot of my bed, reading another magazine about 'Health'. But it was Bella that looked out of place. She was leaning against the wall, watching me carefully.

“Hi.” I croaked.

In three big strides, Bella was by my side.

“You scared me there.” she said.

“Why are you here?” it sounded like I was being rude.

Bella frowned. “Do you not want me to be here?” she asked.

I sighed. “Not really.”

“Edward!” Esme gasped. “Excuse him, he doesn't like people seeing him this vulnerable.”

“Its okay Miss Cullen.” Bella said, she turned to leave. It sort of pained me to see her walk away.

“Wait!” I tried to yell.

She turned back around hopefully.


“Are you here because you felt guilty?” I asked.

“I'm here because I want to.”

“So you don't care that I have cancer?” I questioned.


Bellas really different isn't she?

“Come here.” I motioned, patting the side of my bed. Without hesitation, Bella sauntered over and sat on the bed.

“Why did you run after you told me?” she whispered.

“I was afraid that you wouldn't like me anymore. If you were going to say it, I rather it wasn't to my face.”

“Why would I stop liking you? You're still Edward, the same person I met that day at rock climbing.”

“I'm not good for you Bella, I never really was.” I murmured.

Esme put her magazine down to scowl at me. I glared at her back, letting her know not to interrupt. Bella frowned.

“Thats nonsense.” she mumbled.

I snorted.

“Seriously Bella.” I said.

“Fine, what kind of guy do you think suits me then?” she questioned.

“One who will grow old by your side, one who will look and care after you instead of the other way around. One who will-”

“I get it. But Edward, I don't need a guy to grow old by my side. And I can take care of myself.”

I sighed, stubborn isn't she?


“Edward, we have each other. And right now is what is important. It doesn't matter that you have cancer. Or that you might not grow old with me. Or if you can't take of me. I want you. Thats all that matters, and I won't settle for someone else.”

Esme, who was clearly listening to our conversation, grinned.

I opened my mouth, yet nothing came out.

For the first time in years, a girl has gotten me speechless.


The following week

I like watching things sometimes. Observing their natural habitat, it amuses me. In this case, I was watching Emmett make out with Rosalie. I really had no choice, I was waiting for Bella to come back out, Alice whisked her away into their room to get changed.

Its been fifteen minutes.

Fifteen minutes of a nonstop make out session between Rosalie and Emmett. There was only one word for that. Blech.

After the day I fainted in Bella's arms, my hair was starting to grow back. Little sprouts of bronze strands were now replacing my once bald head. It made me incredibly happy, I haven't had hair in months.

“Hey there handsome.” Bella cooed, posing by the door jam.

I was left speechless again by the sight of Bella. No words could describe her utter beauty that moment. Emmett finally stopped kissing Rosalie and looked up. Red lipstick was smeared all over his mouth. I smirked.

“Looking good Bella.” he commented.

“Not so bad yourself.” Bella teased, walking back toward me. She sat down on my lap and I put my hand on the small of her back, holding her there.

“Where are we going?” I asked in her ear.

She shuddered gently.

“Um...ask Alice.”

“And where is she?”

“Still getting ready.”

“Ah.” I said.

The small pixie skipped into the living room after a few more minutes. Jasper was by her side immediately. The two gazed into each others eyes. I'm not even sure they have kissed yet.

“Alice, where are we going?” I asked.

“We are riding go carts.” she responded slyly.

I raised an eyebrow.

“Are they still open at eight o' clock in the evening?” I questioned, glancing at the clock behind her.

“It is, if you tell them about your condition.”

Rosalie and Bella shot her a death glare. I just laughed it off.

“Sweet.” I said.

“Excuse Alice, she talks without thinking.” Bella said, while continuing to glare at Alice. Alice stuck her tongue out.

I rolled my eyes at their childishness. Bella jumped off my lap and stood there waiting for me. Ever since she found out that I had cancer, she hasn't treated me differently, like I expected her to. She waited for me to get up, when I finally did, she intertwined her hand with mine. I kissed her gently on the cheek.

“Do you know how important you are to me?” I whispered in her ear.

“Tell me.” she whispered back.

“You're my remaining life now.”

Bella's eyes started to water.

“Lets go! I will kick all your asses!” Emmett taunted, pumping his fists in the air.

“I love you...” but somehow, my words were too soft for anyone to hear.