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Before I Die

Edward has cancer. He knows that he'll die soon, and before that happens, he wants to have fun with his life. He doesn't want to find love, but as he has 'fun', he meets a girl, named Bella. AH AU BxE


18. Chapter 18

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In front of me was an endless stream of water. I took a step forward and sunk into the deep blue. I was drowning, and yet, nothing. I wasn’t in pain, I wasn’t suffocating.

I was just, me.

I bolted straight up, and realized that Bella was still sleeping next to me, breathing softly. Running my fingers through my stubbly hair, I thought of the dream and it scared me, was that how death was supposed to feel? Is it supposed to feel like nothing? I shuddered.

My door creaked open; Jasper was leaning against door frame.

“Hey,” he greeted, quickly looking at a very naked Bella, than back at me.

I sighed, and got up very gently from the bed, trying not wake Bella up. Jasper looked away as I picked up my boxers from the floor and slipped them on.

Jasper cleared his throat.

“So I’m guessing you checked something off…” he began.

“Shut up.” I mumbled.

Jasper laughed throatily.

“Esmes not here is she?” I asked, panic struck me as I remembered.

Jasper smirked.

“No, she never came home.” He said.

My eyes widened.

“Did something happen? Is she okay?” I questioned.

“She stayed.” He said curtly.

“Stayed? What do you…oh.” I got what he meant; I got a mental image of my mother and doctor sleeping together. It seems like Jasper got one too because he shuddered as well.

“Jazz, come we are going to watch a movie.” A familiar voice called downstairs.

I looked passed Jasper and into the hallway, peering at nothing.

“Alice.” I concluded. Jasper flushed slightly.

“Don’t be a perv, she didn’t stay the night with me, she came here to pick up Bella, but since she’s busy…” he trailed off, glancing at Bella again.

I narrowed my eyes and stepped into Jasper line of vision, blocking Bella.

“Oh and Alice has something for you.” He said, walking back downstairs. I rolled my eyes at what it could possibly be. I padded my way back to my bed, shaking Bella gently to wake her up.

“Mmm, five more minutes Mom.” She moaned sleepily.

I chuckled softly.

“Bella, I’m not your Mom, get dressed we’re going downstairs to watch a movie.” I said.

Bella’s eyes flew open and then she sighed dreamily.

“I love you…” she whispered.

I grinned. “I love you too, now get up and get dressed. I don’t think Alice will approve of your…nakedness.”

Bella smirked, she obeyed and put her top and panties back on. Her eyes searched the floor.

“Where are my pants?” she questioned.

“You threw them out the window remember?” I said.

Bella’s eyes lit up as she walked over to the window, she peered down.

“Crap! They’re not there.” She exclaimed.

I snorted.

“Yeah because the neighborhood is filled with thieves that love to steel hot girls pants.” I said sarcastically. Bella turned around.

“Did you just call me hot?” she said calling my bluff.

“No.” I said stupidly.

Bella giggled and hugged me, resting her head on my bare chest.

“Bella, if you’re awake, I have your pants!” Alice yelled.

“Dear god.” Bella muttered into my chest. We pulled apart and walked downstairs, hand in hand. I found out that Jasper and Alice weren’t the only ones who were here.

“Well lookie here. There’s the happy couple!” Emmett exclaimed. I’m pretty sure that I turned a faint red at that moment, but not as worse as Bella who had turned scarlet.

“Emmett.” I warned.

“What?” he feigned innocence.

Alice held up a pair of denim jeans, she smiled widely, and with a flick of a wrist, she threw the jeans to Bella.

“Good aim.” I complimented.

Alice kept her smile there and turned back to the TV.

“Whats playing?” I asked, continuing to walk down the stairs.

Jasper shrugged.

“Alice chose the movie.” He said.

“Its like a Best Buy in that room!” Alice chirped.

Jasper laughed at his girlfriend’s tone.

“What movie?” I repeated.

“Back to the Future.” She said curtly.

“I would have never pegged you for a Sci-Fi kind of girl.” I said impressed.

Alice shrugged and turned back to the TV.

“Dude, he has the same name as me!” Emmett screamed.

Jasper snorted. I got that feeling again, where the director was waiting for me to say my lines, but I had no clue what to say. My head started to hurt, which was weird because I haven’t had a headache in weeks. The pain wouldn’t subside.

“Shit.” I mumbled falling to the floor. My hand was pressed against where it hurt the most. Bella fell down with me; her hands were on my back in comfort.

“Are you okay?” she whispered in my ear.

I couldn’t respond, the pain made it hard to speak without yelling. Jasper was kneeling beside me, watching me carefully. He had his keys in hand ready just in case we had to go to the hospital. Emmett was in the kitchen looking for my meds. Alice was just watching, she didn’t look worried, but she had this look on her face as if she knew what was going to happen next. Emmett handed me five pills. The small capsules always made me nervous. I downed the pills, water helped a ton.

“Better?” Bella asked.

“Almost.” I said, trying to get up. The room was starting to spin; I was used to it this way.

I could feel it; in my mind I knew I was getting closer. The cancer didn’t want to go away, as much as I wanted it to go away and never come back; it was still there haunting the remains of my life. I wanted to kick myself for ever thinking that I could get better once. Every day it just got worse. Esme once said it would get better. Jasper agreed with her, along with Emmett. They are all liars.

But they still love me. I needed to make a decision, a life changing one that could happen if I tried. I licked my lips in anticipation as I looked Bella in the eyes.

“Will you marry me?”

The room grew silent, and Bella froze, she was still looking at me in the eyes.

‘Cut!’ the director would yell.