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Before I Die

Edward has cancer. He knows that he'll die soon, and before that happens, he wants to have fun with his life. He doesn't want to find love, but as he has 'fun', he meets a girl, named Bella. AH AU BxE


19. Chapter 19

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My jaw dropped open. The room around me was silent, so silent in fact that if you dropped a pin, you would probably hear it. Did Edward really say that? He was looking me straight in the eyes; the kind of look that you knew was serious. The palms of my hand started to damp.

“You have to let me do the wedding!” Alice said, breaking the silence. It was as if she broke a spell of some sort because the room suddenly became alive. I got up slowly, Edward watched me as I did so, and his eyes never left mine.

“Bro, are you serious?” Emmett asked, clamping his hand on Edward’s shoulder. Edward flinched at the contact.

“As a heartbeat.” He whispered.

I took a deep breath and willed my voice to say something, anything, to keep from this torture that was inflicted on the both of us. I knew I loved Edward, from the moment I saw him I knew that something will come between us. But marriage, it wasn’t something I could handle right now. Could I tell him this? And break his heart in the process? What if he didn’t understand? What if he hated me for saying no?

“Man oh man Edward, what have you done?” Jasper muttered, walking to the couch, he plopped himself and stared blankly at the TV.

“Just tell me Bella.” Edward pleaded.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. But if I do say yes, we could live happily together. We could spend each moment together, everyday. And God knows how long that is. I really do love Edward, so what’s stopping me from saying yes?

I knew the answer of course. It would be the heartbreak when he…dies. But I’ve always believed in miracles since I was a little kid, maybe it will work out.

Edward frowned. “Is that a no?” he said softly.

“No.” I said. “It’s a yes.”


It took all of my power to keep from picking Bella up and yelling like a mad man. I couldn’t help my wide grin though, that just came on its own.

“Really?” I asked, almost not believing her words.

Bella nodded, a smile slowly spread across her face.

“You have to let me do the wedding!” Alice yelled again. When Bella ignored her, she pouted.

“Why not?” Alice questioned in a whiny voice.

“It’s our wedding.” Bella said simply. Alice folded her arms across her chest and turned to face me.

“Edward…” she began. “We’ve only known each other for like three weeks, but aren’t we really close now? I’m going to be your sister in law one day, so you might as well let me.” She said.

I looked at her questioningly. “Sister-in-law?”

Alice almost went red, but it went away quickly, she gazed at Jasper without saying another word. I knew what she meant.

“Ask Bella.” I said. Alice rolled her eyes making her look like a little kid.

“She will say no!” Alice exclaimed. Bella sighed.

“You’re making this into a big deal.” Bella said.

“Well I wouldn’t have to if you let me.” She said as it were the obvious.

I knew this conversation wouldn’t go anywhere, Bella had to say yes or else we’ll be here forever.

“Fine.” Bella muttered.

Alice’s little jaw dropped.

“I need my cell phone.” Alice mumbled to herself. “Cake, dress, flowers, tuxes, priest, church.” She chanted to herself as she exited the room, Jasper followed her.

I smirked at the Bella’s expression.

“What made you say yes?” I asked.

“To you or Alice?” she asked.


Bella shrugged.

“Trust me; I’ve known her longer than you have. She will never let it go.” And with that, she sighed again. I almost laughed. Then Bella’s expression changed.

“Will your Mom be okay with you getting married at nineteen?” she asked in a small voice.

“Maybe, maybe not, but I’m an adult now. We wouldn’t need her consent.” I waved it off.

The frown didn’t leave Bella’s face.

“My parents will care.” She said.

“Then I’ll talk to them.”

She looked dubious.

“Have you talked to them about me?” I asked.

She nodded quickly.

“Right after you asked me out on that date.”

“So it wouldn’t be a problem.” I said, getting the keys to Esme’s car, but then I quickly realized that she wasn’t here today.

“Actually, there is…they don’t know you have cancer.”


The ride to Bella’s parent’s house wasn’t very far from my house. Just about a twenty minute drive if you drove at an eighty speed that is. There house was pretty small compared to mine, with a lawn every neighbor would envy.

“Are you sure you want to talk to them?” Bella questioned.

I nodded determined.

“Just…don’t hate me once you meet them.” She sighed.

“Why would I hate you?” I asked.

“You’ll see.” She said getting out of the car. I followed her as she walked up the steps and onto the porch. She rang the doorbell twice before the door swung open. A man who looked like he could beat you up with a club grinned and pulled Bella into a hug.

“Daddy!” Bella exclaimed.

“Hi Bells. Nice to see you.” He said.

“Dad, this is Edward.” Bella said, taking a step back. He grinned and shook my hand. His grip almost crushed my hand.

“Hello Mr. Swan.” I greeted.

“Call me Charlie.” He corrected. “Well come in, Renee’s been waiting for you.” He said walking back into his house. Bella took my hand and squeezed it lightly.

“This is my Mom.” Bella pointed. Renee pulled me into a tight hug.

“So this is the Edward you’ve been talking about.” Renee said, looking at me head to toe.

Bella blushed slightly.

“You have a lovely house Mrs. Swan.” I said, trying to be polite.

“Thank you honey, and feel free to call me Renee.”

Great, we’re already on the first name basis. When Renee pulled away from me, her eyes zeroed in on Bella’s hand, which was still clung to mine. Then when she saw nothing, she blushed and went back to the kitchen.

“What just happened?” I whispered in Bella’s ear.

“I think she was looking for a ring.” She whispered back.

“Ah.” I nodded.

“Well, what brings you two here?” Charlie asked suddenly.

“Well…” I began before Bella elbowed me softly.

“Look, dinners ready!” Bella said, walking to the dining table. I smiled and joined her.

“What were you saying?” Renee asked, carrying a bowl of lettuce.

“Well, I was going to ask for your blessings.” I said.

Bella moaned, her head falling into her hands.

Charlie’s eyes narrowed at me.

“Blessings for what boy?” he asked, all the friendliness was gone.

“We decided to get married.” I stated.

Renee’s eyes popped open.

Married? Its only been a month!” she shouted.

I shrugged; I really didn’t want to wait any longer than a month to find what Bella gives. I wanted to say this, instead I said, “Will you give your blessings?” I asked.

“No way in hell will I give my blessing.” Charlie sneered.

This was going to be hard.

“Why are you two rushing?” Renee questioned.

The truth was a hard thing to say some times, but then it’s usually better to say it than lie.

“I have cancer, and I didn’t want to wait five months before I married Bella. In truth, I just want a chance to be normal, have a life that I was supposed to have. If I should wait, like you want us to, I’m afraid that I might not have that chance. I’m just begging you to give us your blessings.”

And for once in my life, I actually got an adult besides my Mom, speechless.