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Before I Die

Summary:
Edward has cancer. He knows that he'll die soon, and before that happens, he wants to have fun with his life. He doesn't want to find love, but as he has 'fun', he meets a girl, named Bella. AH AU BxE


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20. Chapter 20

Rating 4.5/5   Word Count 1402   Review this Chapter

Edward

I’m pretty sure I had the room stunned with my words. Even Bella, who knew that I had cancer, had her mouth hanging open. I cleared my throat hoping that it would make someone speak.

“Oh my.” Renee whispered, I guess it worked then.

Charlie faked coughed into his hand. “Wow, well I guess…if you put it that way….” He said.

A grin slowly spread across my face, is he going to give the blessings?

“Edward.” Renee smiled warmly, reaching across the table for my hand. She rested her warm hand on top of mine and blinked. “I see that you two are clearly in love, so what’s stopping you? We give you our blessings.” She granted. Bella still had her mouth open, I leaned in close to her and whispered, “Close your mouth or you will swallow a fly.”

Bella obeyed and slowly closed her mouth, her eyes were still wide.

“How long have you had cancer?” Charlie asked, taking a sip of water.

There was a bump under the table; Charlie winced, while Bella glared at her father.

“Dad…” Bella growled.

“Well, I’ve had cancer for three years now. I was diagnosed when I was sixteen.” I informed.

Charlie whistled. “Must have been tough.” He said.

I nodded. “Yes sir, it was.”
Renee looked like she was about to burst into tears.

“Lets get on with food shall we?” she said, her voice shaking a little bit.

***

Its been two weeks since I have proposed to Bella, when Esme came home that day, Emmett couldn’t keep his mouth shut and just had to blurt it out. Now Esme is helping with the décor and the dresses. She knew a designer in Paris, who owed her a favor. It didn’t come in a surprise when she announced that, she had her ways. The ring I’ve bought Bella is simple. She didn’t want something with a big diamond, just one that she will treasure for years to come (pic on profile).

Every morning, I got up, the room spinning and my head always winded up in the waste bin. The room always filled with the sound of me throwing up. I was getting worse every day, but I put it off as laziness. I didn’t want my family or Bella to worry about me. Alice was taking forever to set up the wedding. It seemed like every caterer she signed up for put us on a six month waiting list.

“That’s what you get for rushing…” Alice tittered every time Bella brought it up.

My face was now a very pale color, almost transparent. I sometimes sneak into Esme’s room and use her concealer so no one will notice my sickened face. At the thought of a man wearing makeup always cracks me up.

“Edward!” Bella had yelled. It was a sunny afternoon that day; Alice was on the phone constantly trying to convince restaurants to cater our wedding on such a short notice. None of the caterers were willing to come. Bella had given up on finding one, and she needed to talk to me.

“Is it okay if we serve McDonalds at the wedding?” she asked me in an apologetic tone. I smirked at the thought of everyone getting a happy meal.

“Whatever makes you happy love.” I said, kissing her cheek softly.

Alice pouted.

“It won’t make me happy!” she exclaimed.

I chuckled and left the two to argue about what food to serve. I had passed Jasper on my way back to my room, he had a mixed expression on his face, I couldn’t decide if it was a look of exasperation or sorrow.

But that was over a month ago, I’m still living surprisingly. The wedding planning is done, and tomorrow is the day that I would get married to Bella. All this time, I’ve watched Bella panic about little things while sitting in my chair. I wasn’t able to do much during this time, but she still loved me like she should.

Music started to play suddenly, I was in a church. Time must have escaped me again. Bella started to walk in, slowly going down the aisle. She was beautiful in her wedding dress, which Alice must have picked out for her.

‘Hello,’ I mouthed.

‘I love you’ she mouthed back. I smiled and we both turned to the priest.

“We gather here today…” the priest began.

***

On the dance floor of the reception, we were swaying side to side slowly. Bella rested her head on my shoulder, the song that we both picked started to play by the same band that I performed with. The song was by Edwin Mcain, the song itself was called ‘I could not ask for more’.

Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see, The smile upon your face,
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are, Is everything to me,
These are the moments, I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments, I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

I felt my breathing slow. I leaned down and kissed Bella slowly on the lips, cameras clicked feverishly.

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .

The band was exceptionally good at playing this song, played the right notes at the right time, stayed on tune.

These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .

I thought about my list as I continued to dance with Bella. All the things I wanted to do were done now, the ‘something gets the heart going’ is this right here. Bella made my heart pump like crazy.

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
And right here in this moment, Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .

“Bella, I love you…” I whispered, my voice almost gone.

“I love you too.” She whispered back.

I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.

The song finished, but Bella didn’t pull away, not like I wanted her to. I didn’t ever want her to leave me. I closed my eyes, and went limp.

Bella

“Oh my god!” I yelled, Edward was in my arms, his weight was sinking me to the floor.

My family and his rushed to us. All of them panicked stricken.

“Call an ambulance!” someone yelled.

“Already did!” someone else shouted.

“Edward, wake up.” I said desperately, shaking him gently. Please God, not now. I begged silently.

Esme was tearing up.

The ambulance came quickly, they put him on the gurney and rushed away. I had asked to stay with him on the way over. I was holding his hand the entire time.

Edward

I couldn’t open my eyes, they were glued shut. I could hear my surroundings though; there was some beeping, some crying, some shuffling, and some sniffling. I felt pressure on my right hand. I tried my best to open my eyes.

When I finally did, Bella was looking down at me, her eyes were red.

“Hey.” She croaked.

I couldn’t respond, I just lightly squeezed her hand back in response.

“You scared me.” she whispered.

“I love you…” I whispered my voice barely audible.

“I love you too.” She whispered back. I nodded softly and closed my eyes for the last time.

At first I did fear death, but now I’m welcoming it, because I’ve done everything I’ve ever wanted.

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true.

The heart monitor went dead.