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Tattoo

Summary:
What Renee was thinking about as she watched her daughter board the plane to live with her father. This Renee's story


Notes:


1. Memories

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Tattoo

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

Present

"Are you sure about this Bella?" Renee asked her daughter worridly, "You can still go to Floride with us."

"I'm fine. Mom," Bella rolled her eyes.

"Well call if you-"

"I will Mom." Bella quickly interupted.

"Th-"

"All Seattle Washington passengers please board the plane."

"That's my flight," Bella said quickly. Renee pulled her in a hug.

"Love you," she whispered.

"Love you, too," Bella said as she ran off.

Renee smiled sofly as she thought about all those years ago.

Flashback

17 years ago

Renee ran around in every direction. She had eight suicases all around her filled with clothes. She had to get out of here she was suffacating in here.

"Mommy?" asked a quiet voice.

Renee turned around. She smiled softly when she saw it was only a small three year old girl. It was Bella He beautiful little girl.

"Yes baby?" Renee asked just as quietly.

"Wah you oin?" Bella asked innocently.

Renee sighed. How was she to explain this to Bella? She was so young. How was she to explain that she was wrong about her love for Charlie Wrong about staying here. How she needed to move on. How they BOTH needed to move on. How Chalie couldn't come with them. How she need to be free.

"We're leaving Bella," Renee said quietly.

"Willy? Whey? And whay Daddy no tell me?" Bell pouted with an adorable look on her face.

"Daddy doesn't know. He's not coming with us. And we're not coming back?"

"Whay?" Bella asked.

"Because I was wrong and I need to move on, baby. Even though it means leaving Daddy behind."

"k," Bella said smiling, "i love you Mommy."

"I love you too Baby," Renee murmered softly.

End Flashback

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

Flashback

9 years ago

"Mommy! Look!" squealed a small seven years old.

Renee looked up from her spot on the camping ground. Charlie had always love camping. He had wanted his only child to love it as much as he did. Who was she to argue? Bella was his daughter too. And even if Bella rarely saw her father she was still connected to him by going camping. Despite what Charlie believed every decision she made about Bella she always thought about what Charlie would have thought. Always. He would always be with her life. Kind of like a tattoo.

"Yes Baby?" Renee asked pulling Bella onto her lap.

"Look! I caught a fish! It's even bigger than the ones Daddy used to get!" Bella informed excitedly.

Renee waited for a pang. Something to prove that her heart wa broken. With a shock she realized that othing was. He heart was whole. Even though she was still love with Charlie. She wasn't IN love with him anymore. But he was still a part of her always would be.

"Mommy?" asked a quiet voice.

"Your dad would have been so proud sweetie," Renee said hugging her little girl.

"Really?" Bella asked hopefully.

Renee pulled away and lokked Bella straught in the eye, "Really."

End Flashhback

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

Flashback

17 years ago

"Renee?" asked Charlie quietly.

Renee refused to look at Charlie as she load the last of her bags in her car.

"I can't do this anymore Charlie! I'm suffocating in here. I need something more. Something better."
Renee turned to look at him, "I need to be free. Coming here. Loving you. Staying. Getting Bella," she sighed, "It was all a mistake."

"All a MISTAKE!" roared Charlie, "I can handle you regreting me. Regreting staying her, moving her, living her loving me," his hand curled into fists.

"But Bella," he breathed, "Don't you dare regret our daughter."

Renee buckled Bella in the back.

"I don't," she whispered, "This was a mistake. All of it. And it hurts to even tinkh that I could leave you but none of this I regret. it might be mistaked but I don't regert it."

Renee pulled away from Bella and walked up to him.

"We're leaving now," she informed quietly, "The divorce papers are on the table."

"We?" whispered Charlie.

"Me and Bella."

"No," he moaned, "Not Bella. Don't take my daughter away from me."

"I'm sorry Charlie. But I need her too. And I;m not taking her away. She'll come to visit and you can come to visit too," Renee whispered sobbing.

"No..." Charlie breathed, "Be-B- Bella."

"I love you Charlie. Just not like I used to," whispered Renee. She leaned up and gave one last kiss.

Renee abruptly pulled away, "Goodbye."

"Goodbye," Charlie choked out a few tears sliding down his cheeks.

Renee quickly ran to the driver's seat and drove away. She refused to see a man as string aas Charlie break down. If she was leaving and taking everything away she might as well let him keep his pride.

End Flashback

[Chorus x2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Present

"Renee?" asked Phil.

"Hmm?"

"Our flights here," he informed her.

"Oh."

'Take care of her Charlie,' Renee thought she's your daughter too. Renee followed Phil to the plane. And away from her daughter.

'So this is what it feels like to be left behind,' she thought sadly.