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Torn

Summary:
This picks up/re ends new moon. Edward and Bella go to meet Jacob and it turns into Bella's worst nightmare.


Notes:
I realized as i was writing this that you kind of need to forget the whole Charlie-finding-out-about-motorcycles thing. It just didnt fit into the plot of this story. DISCLAMER: This story is an alternate ending/sequel to new moon and twilight, both of which were written by Stephenie Meyer. All characters and such are property of her, not me.


3. Truth

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I was in shock when I was conscious again. When I try to remember exactly what happened that night, after Edward told me that he agreed to change me, it gets a little rough around the edges. I know that he kissed me and it was so unrestrained that it made me faint. It was so amazing, I couldn’t even begin to describe how it felt. But anything after that is just a blur. Edward was going to enjoy this. His kissing expertise always seems to alter my memory.

“Bella?” I heard, “Bella can you hear me?”

“Ha, yes, loud and clear Edward, very funny.”

“You know, I never realized how very silly you can be when you pass-out. Ha, especially when it’s my kissing expertise that does it,” he chuckled.

“Wait, did you really agree to change me or was that part of last night a dream?”

“Silly Bella, of course. Do you really thing I could spring something like that on you and not mean it? Bella, come on!” he laughed, but there was an edge to it. Apparently his decision was not made without compromise.

“Edward…”

“Yes…”

“Um, I’m a little worried about this….and it’s not why you think…”

“You can read minds now?” he asked. I bit my lip. This was not going to be pretty.

“Edward, I don’t know if this is really a good solution. Don’t get me wrong, I want to be with you forever, it’s just…the whole Jacob thing….” I trailed off.

“Love, don’t worry. I promise you and Jake will talk again.”

“How can you promise me that? You promised me I wouldn’t remember you, that I wouldn’t be reminded of you. You took your pictures and you music away from me, and yet, you left your name in my photo album. Edward, I don’t think you right!” I said; traces of hysteria noticeable in my voice. Edward’s face, his face was so hurt, I was so angry that I had said anything to cause his face to look the way it did.

“Edward, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to--”

“Bella, Bella love, I, I don’t,” he whispered, “I don’t know how to help you. I’ve tried, oh God, how I’ve tried, to suppress the selfishness in me; I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to make things work, to make things better – and easier – for you. Bella, please, please…” he sobbed, “please, Bella.” I made my angel, my savior, cry. It was so horrid I couldn’t even describe how I felt. Reaching out for him, I whispered gently,

“Edward, Edward I love you. Please,” I put my arms around him and laid my head on his shoulder, “you have done everything, everything I dreamed of. You are perfect, in every way, Edward. Everything you do for me and for those around you is perfect. Who told you that you failed? Who could say such blasphemous things about you? Edward, oh Edward, I love you.” I felt his arms around my then. His fingers reached up to my face, to touch the skin on my jaw line.

“Truly, Bella? Do you truly believe that I, a vampire you thirsts for your blood above all others, is the best thing for you? Bella, I am not good for you, I’m not. I wish you could grasp that,” he whispered in my ear, “I love you, Bella, with all of my being, and I will do what is right, I will, even if that means harming myself in the process.”

“No, Edward you can’t leave me again. You promised, Edward I lied! Everything I said was a lie! I didn’t mean a word of it! Edward I love you. That isn’t something that can be changed or taken away. If you find a way to, to kill or, or harm yourself, did Alice tell you what happened to me? Edward, don’t do this again. I couldn’t bear it.”

“Bella, love, I won’t leave you, but I will do what is right for you and if that means that I have to stop, to stop encouraging you down a path that only someone like me, damned like me, can walk,”

“Edward Cullen. You will not stop doing anything. You know me, but you obviously don’t know you. I need you, and if that means turning into a vampire, Jacob be damned, then that is what I will do. I will be with you for as long as I can.” He looked at me then, I could tell he was thinking about something of utmost importance. So I decided I would try to alter his memory, just to try….