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New Rising

Summary:
Bella is learning to cope with Edward's PTDS...but is something more sinister lying behind the reason why he will never be in the sun, or eat, or sleep? Sequel to Right or Wrong?Reposted!


Notes:


2. Secrets

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“Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday dear Bella! Happy Birthday to you!” My family sang in unison as I sat in front of the little chocolate covered cake. Edward, Abel, November, Alice, Rosalie, Emmett, Jasper, dad, Esme and Carlisle all stood in front of me smiling their wide toothed smiles as I thought of what to wish for.

I just want the best for the people I love.

The candles flickered before extinguishing, everyone clapped and hugged me. Before Emmett devoured the cake I took a little piece for Abel and Vember. Edward came behind me as I was cutting the cake and squeezed my waist in his arms. He kissed my cheek softly as I slid the piece of chocolate on the paper plate.

“Happy Birthday Bella.” He whispered breathing his cool breath in my ear. I turned around and kissed him, he flinched and moved back a bit. I opened my eyes as we kissed and saw his eyes clenched shut and his face distorted. I pulled away growing angry by his cautious behavior.

“What’s the matter Edward?” I asked aggravated.

“Nothings the matter.” He replied surprised by my anger. Ever sense that day I went to Port Angeles he was acting so strange.

“Yes there is Edward. Ever sense that incident with Sam at Port Angeles you have been acting so weird! I want to know what’s going on!” I yelled. Everyone was sitting in the living room and I tried to lower my voice so they couldn’t hear. Edward’s face turned from innocent to furious and I realized what I had said.

“What incident with Sam? You talked to Sam?!” He nearly growled. His eyes grew black and his hand clenched into a fist.

“Well yeah...I can’t talk to him or something?” I asked feeling guilty that I ever kept it from him but still a little pissed off that it had to be like that.

“What do you mean?! Of course you can’t!” His voice grew louder and the laughter in the other room stopped.

“It’s not Jacob Edward!” I hissed at him.

“Bella! You know as well as I know that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree! Sam is probably the same way as Jacob! How could you be so stupid?!” I winced at the sound of this and then felt that tinge of rage rise up from my throat.

“Stupid! How am I stupid?” I asked and Edward’s face twisted into a grimace.

“Because it’s not safe!” He roared and pounded the table with his fist, breaking it in half. His chest heaved up and down and I shrank back from his violent temper.

“Bro! Calm down!” Emmett yelled from the doorway of the kitchen.

“No im not going to calm down!” He roared again then looked away remembering something.

“Wait a minute…Is that who you were talking to while I was gone? Is that the ‘old friend’” He asked and unbelievably growed angrier.

“Ye-yes.” I stuttered terrified by his reaction. I heard a crunch sound coming from somewhere inside the room and looked down to see his fingers indented in the chair of the broken table. Life time guarantee my ass! How was he doing that? He clenched his teeth shut and walked hurriedly out the back door. By the time I reached it he was already gone from the back yard.

“What was that about?” Rosalie asked astonished by the turn in Edward’s calm composure.

“I don’t want to talk about it!” I yelled and stomped upstairs to the bedroom. Esme followed me and opened the door quietly. I was sitting on the bed with my legs pulled up to my chest crying.

“Bella dear, it’ll be alright. You know he means well, he just wants you to be safe. He hates what Jacob did to you and for that he’ll never be comfortable with you being alone with anyone that close to him.”

“But Esme! I know what’s right and I know what’s wrong and it’s wrong to just judge someone by stereotypes and appearances!” I shouted through tears. Esme nodded and seemed to be deep in thought.

“I know Bella but unless Sam does something that proves him to be good Edward will never forgive him.” She whispered as she hugged me. “Just give him time.” She got up and patted my head lightly.

“Esme?” I said before she walked out of the door.

“Yes Bella?” She turned around and smiled. Her smile was a warm, motherly smile and it reminded me of how much I missed my mom.

“Did you see Edward break the table?” I asked. She looked confused and then realized what I was talking about.

“Ah yes I did. It must have been adrenaline honey. He was pretty mad.” She concluded. I looked out the window and sighed.

“Now come down stairs and have a good time Bella, it’s your birthday!” She finally said as she held her hand out in front of her. I took it and she led the way downstairs back to the anxious guests.

Edward hadn’t come home for hours now and it was starting to get dark. Worry was getting in the way of my anger and I slowly started to relax from the confrontation earlier that day. I put the babies to sleep and crawled into bed alone, it was the first time I went to sleep alone since he went missing. I drifted off to sleep and dreamed about nothing in particular until I awaken by a sudden movement beside me. My heart raced until I heard his voice.

“Bella? Are you awake?” Edward whispered and I looked at the clock to see that it was three thirty.

“When did you get home?” I asked lifelessly, resentment rising in the pit of my stomach. Where has he been?

“I’ve been here love. I just got up to go to the bathroom.”

“Yeah but when did you get here? Where have you been?” Edward pursed his lips and sighed.

“I’m sorry about today Bella I really over reacted it’s just- ”

“Why aren’t you answering my question!?” I shouted. He ground his teeth together and looked away from me, not sure what to say.

“In the woods. I was in the woods and I got home at twelve.” He collapsed beside me and I huffed loudly.

“You’re lying.” I said scooting away from him. He pulled me back against his body and tried to kiss me but I turned away.

“I swear Bella. I was in the woods just walking around. I didn’t do anything!”

“That’s exactly it! You never do anything!” I said getting angrier and angrier by the minute. Edward turned angry and sat up.

“What do you mean I don’t do anything!? I go to work! I cook! I clean! I take care of the kids! I do whatever you want me to!” I rolled my eyes and sat up in bed staring him straight in his eyes, they looked gold in the moon light.

“I’m not talking about that Edward! You never eat! You never s leep! I can see the dark circles under you’re eyes all day long! You never want to go anywhere! You don’t like kissing me! You can hardly touch me! We don’t even have sex!” I was shouting now and probably looked madder then he did. His head cocked back in surprise and he looked like he was in pain. He shut his mouth and stared at me blankly.

“God Edward! Why don’t you just leave me already and get it over with! Just admit it! You don’t love me anymore!” I yelled and started to tear up.

“You don’t think I love you?” He whispered, looking as if I was the one saying I didn’t love him.

“Yes Edward I do!” I whimpered still trying to sound mad.

“You don’t even know how much I love you Bella! I love you more then life itself! How dare you say that! I couldn’t even live one day without you in my life! You don’t even know!” I buried my head in my hands and started to weep. He grabbed me in his arms and held me close.

“And that! You’re so cold! And you’re eyes are different! What is that! That isn’t some silly made up side effect from your stupid war! You’re always lying to me! Why can’t you just tell me the truth?!” I was still trying to be angry but it just sounded like I was pleading. Then he said something that made me shiver, but not because he was ice cold.

“I just can’t.” And then I slipped into sleep exhausted by the day.