A change of heart; Edward's New Moon
Banner done by the wounderful Eternitys_Charm After Edward is saved by Bella in New Moon, she leaves him for Jacob.... How does Edward cope with losing his love..... we shall see
Edwards POVThis is NOT a Jacob/Bella story, it's primarily Edward
Rating 3.7/5 Word Count 1398 Review this Chapter
“Come in.” a soft voice said, I walked into the room and Bella turned to face me. My eyes widened at the sight of her, she was still as beautiful as the day I’d last saw her. Her mahogany colored hair had been pulled back from her face, making her look more mature. It was odd seeing Bella look so…womanly. She wasn’t the same girl I left so long ago.
The white dress she wore fitted her beautifully. The lacy bodice bared her creamy shoulders; the skirt was gently A line and fell into a short train.
Her eyes sparkled as they traced my face. “You look exactly the same.” She whispered.
“You don’t.” I said, flashing the crooked smile she loved so much. Bella’s face lit up and she rushed across the room towards me, wrapping me in a hug. I froze, shocked and happy by her reaction to me. I wrapped my arms around her waist, returning the embrace, and momentarily lifting her feet off the ground. Her body against mine made me think of a past time, when her jumping on me was a normal experience.
“I’m so glad you came.” She whispered in my ear.
“I am to.” I said, breathing in her sent, and swallowing the venom in my throat softly enough so Bella wouldn’t hear me. We stayed that way for a few minutes, Bella in my arms; her feet dangling off the floor. I gently put her down and the blush I loved so much colored her cheeks.
“I’m sorry,” she said straightening her skirt, “I didn’t mean to jump on you like that.”I smiled at her.
“You never have to apologize to me Bella,” I said, fixing my jacket, which had become mussed from her hug. She blushed even deeper.
“I have a present for you,” I told her, raising a hand to silence her as she began to protest, “Just take it.”
“Edward, I can’t accept it,” she said with her hands on her hips, her voice chiding “you know how I feel about presents, and you shouldn’t have bought me anything.”
Some things never change. I pulled out the long white box and handed it to her. Bella hesitated for a second, biting her lip before opening the box. Her eyes widened as she took in my mother’s bracelet. The heart shaped diamond glittered even in the murky light of the room.
“It belonged to my mother; I inherited it when she died and… I want you to have it Bella,” I said, “so a piece of me will always be with you.”I know it wasn’t the most appropriate gift to give her on her wedding day, but I couldn’t help it. If only she knew…if only she knew, I had planed to give her the bracelet as a wedding present, for our wedding.
“Oh, Edward, it’s beautiful.”
I smiled again, smiling seemed easy around her. I knew this wouldn’t last though. As soon as I left this room everything would go back to the way it had been before, but I wouldn’t think of that now. I would just enjoy this fleeting moment of happiness while it lasted.
“Shall I help you put it on?” I asked reaching for the bracelet as Bella nodded.
I slid the cool sliver chain onto Bella’s delicate wrist, letting my thumb brush against her skin longer than necessary. Our eyes met and I was surprised to see that her eyes were filled with tears.
“Bella, love, what’s wrong?” I asked, even though she wasn’t mine I still felt protective over her.
“It’s just…” she looked away from me, a tear running down her cheek.
“What, Bella, what is it? Did he do something?”
“No, no it’s not him. It’s just… you look so …sad.”
I stared at her in shock, I thought I’d had a handle on my emotions, but I guess I’d been wrong. I looked at Bella who was looking down at our feet. Walking over to her I placed a hand under her chin and raised her face to mine.
“Edward, I’m so sor-..
“Listen to me,” I said, cutting her off, “are you happy?”She broke our gaze and nodded.
“Then that’s all that matters” I let go of her chin and turned away, ready to leave before the whole in my chest ripped wide open again.
“No, it isn’t,” a soft voice said from behind me. “Your happiness is important to me Edward, I want… I need you to be happy."
I remained facing away from her, trying to control my emotions. She wanted me to be happy yet, the only thing that would make me truly happy was being with her. I inhaled an unnecessary breath, wincing as the venom burned my throat. I turned to face her, taking her hands in mine I said, “You know what would make me truly happy, but I won’t take that from you, marry Jacob, be happy and every thing will fall into place.”
Bella gave my hands a soft squeeze; we looked at each other, Bella’s eyes looked sad, a bride shouldn’t be sad on her wedding day.I leaned in and whispered in her ear, “As long as you are happy I’ll be happy.” Then I softly pressed my lips against her cheek. We looked at each other again and an understanding passed between us. We both knew where we stood now. Bella smiled at me one last time and I gave her a soft hug. With out anther word I left the room.
The service was beautiful. Bella looked stunning as she walked down the isle. When she and Jacob exchanged vows they way they stared into each other’s eyes made my heart ache. As they ran down the isle hand in hand, after the service, Bella’s cheeks were flushed pink with happiness.
My family and I followed the crowd to wave her off as she left with Jacob. When she reached the church doors, Bella turned around and for a moment and our eyes met. The happy glow in them softened slightly and she mouthed three words that made my heart sore, even though I knew they weren’t meant to be romantic. For a second my mind flashed to a time when this kind of future could have been possible for us. I had imagined Bella holding my hand, and looking into my eyes at the alter, the two of us holding hands as we rushed trough a crowd of well wishers. That was the past now.
Jacob and Bella entered his car and sped off. A light rain had started to fall; Jacob’s car had left slight tire marks in the thin mud. As I watched, the rain quickly erased them, leaving nothing but a muddy spot on the road. I sighed and turned away, heading toward my car. I had seen enough.
5 years later
Time passed. We moved again, things changed. I never saw Bella again after that day. I knew she had her own life to live now. We heard about the birth of Bella’s first child. A girl named Sara after Jacob’s mother. I imaged a child with a heart shaped face and long dark hair, of course I never saw her.
So time slid by. I went about life as normally as possible, as hard as it was. Then it happened.
The day started of like any other Alice and Rose went shopping. Japer, Carlisle and I went hunting. Everyone returned home and Alice made us try on the new clothes she’d bought us. In the middle of wrestling Jasper into a new jacket, Alice froze. Her expression changed into her vision face. Her bad vision face. I entered her mind and had the vision with her….
My world was torn into shreds and I was on the floor screaming at the top of my lungs. Carlisle rushed to my side trying to find out what was wrong. I curled into a ball, pressing my head between my knees, trying to comprehend what I had just seen. Alice was sobbing and Jasper was holding her by the shoulders trying to calm her. My screams died into whimpers. Jasper turned to me, expecting an explanation, but my jaw was shaking too much for me to speak. Then Alice choked out the words that horrified everyone,
“Bella dying…Volturi coming…”
My world seemed to go dark.