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Belonging

Summary:
banner Heaven just moved to Eatonville Washington. Another move due to her "problems". She is dying inside as her parents distance themselves from there "freak" daughter. She doesn't know why she is freak, or how she ended up the way she is. Edward is bruised and broken after Bella chose a life with Jacob over him. Can Heaven let the Cullen's know her secret? Will Edward drop his walls and let this sweet stranger into his life? Will she ever find somewhere that she truly belongs?


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16. Chapter 16

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My wish had not been granted, and I awoke to the sound of Edwards voice,

“Carlisle! She waking up.” I heard a sort of urgency in his tone.

Carlisle? Where am I? I felt his cool hand slip into mine.

“Were home Heaven.”

Home? How? Where? I felt disoriented and confused. Trying to open my eyes, they felt heavy.

Once I had managed to open them, it took a long moment for them to focus. I looked around, realizing I was in my bed at the Cullen’s. My body felt weak and my stomach ached badly.

What’s going on? What happened?

“Carlisle is here Heaven, he will explain.”

“Heaven, can you look at me?” I heard Carlisle’s voice and I turned my head to look at him slowly. My eyes still slightly unfocused.

“What’s going on?” My voice was hoarse and it felt like someone had taken sand paper to my throat.

“Can I have something to drink?” Edward reached for a water bottle on my side table and handed it to me. I lifted myself up slowly into a sitting position. I saw Edward sitting near my legs, and Alice was on the other side of me. She smiled when I looked at her.

“We’ve been worried sick about you!” I shook my head, trying to clear my thoughts and remember what had happened.

“What happened?” I turned my head towards Carlisle.

“Do you remember anything Heaven?” He questioned, I saw the concern flash through his eyes. Closing my eyes and breathing deeply, bit and pieces began to come back to me.

“New York, the hotel.” A faint smile played on my lips at the memory of mine and Edwards love making. I opened my eyes and looked at him shyly. Alice’s laughter rang throughout the room.

“Of course she’s going to remember that.” Edward shot her a dirty look and took my hand.

“What else do you remember? Try to think Heaven.” I closed my eyes again, and it came rushing back to me.

My parents, there two new little girls. The beautiful home they had been living in. Losing them forever. Screaming in the car, hoping for death to overtake me. I felt the darkness coming over me again, when someone shook me roughly.

“No Heaven, stay here. Stay with me please.” It was Edward’s voice, I tried to shake the painful memories out of my head. I felt his cool lips connect with mine.

“Stay here, please.” His hand found the back of my neck, I opened my eyes and he was looking at me with desperation.

How long have I been home?


“Only a day and a half.” He said. I turned to Carlisle.

“What is wrong with me?” I asked him softly.

“Heaven, you fell into a Psychogenic Coma, a form of catatonia. You were like this when Edward brought you to me. It’s due to the emotional stress that your mind has been through. I have been giving you small doses of benzodiazepine to help bring you out of it.” I closed my eyes, and I felt as if I was sinking into the bed.

“Stay with me Heaven, open your eyes.” I forced my eyes open again, and looked at Carlisle.

“You need to stay with us, you have to keep conscious. I do not know how your body is going to react to extended periods of time in a coma. I don’t know what it would do to your body if I gave you an I.V. I would need to use venom and it would stay in your bloodstream. It could kill you immediately or transform you into one of us. You cannot live without water or food. You need to stay coherent. I am going to go get you another dose of the medicine.”

He turned towards Alice, and I saw a slight nod of his head and she got up to follow him out of the room.

Looking at Edward, I saw the pain and the hurt in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around me, this time I tried to push the warmth building up my legs away, it went down slightly but I couldn’t get it completely off of me.

“Don’t try so hard, I don’t want you to fall asleep again.” He mumbled into my neck,

“Please stay here Heaven. I can’t lose you. I will make you happy again, I promise.” I wrapped my arms around him.

I’m scared Edward. I’m so scared. It hurts so bad, I feel like someone has stabbed me through the heart. I have no one Edward, no one at all. I know you didn’t mean the things you said to me in the hotel. I know that if Bella were to ever return, I would be only a faint memory to you. I want to die; I don’t want to be here anymore.


I closed my eyes tightly, and let the darkness take me over. Edward’s lips on my own brought me back.

“I meant it Heaven, I meant it all. I love you, don’t leave me please. I can’t lose you too. Bella is never coming back; I’m yours forever, for as long as you will have me. It will kill me if I lose you, please Heaven. Open your eyes.”

His lips pressed against mine again softly, the cool sensation sending tingles down my spine.

Don’t lie to me Edward.

I could hear the anguish in his tone when he responded, “I’m not lying to you Heaven. I have loved you since I first heard your thoughts. I didn’t want to admit to myself that I loved anyone but Bella, but I do. I tried to push you away from me with my anger and hate, but you stayed. Which made me love you even more.”

I opened my eyes and looked at him, I saw the sincerity flowing through his features. Tears sprang to my eyes and I began to sob loudly, clinging to his neck.

How could they do this to me, there own flesh and blood. I know I’m a freak Edward; my own parents don’t want me! He caressed my hair.

“I want you Heaven. This family wants you, for as long as you live we will be here for you.” I continued to sob, and Carlisle walked into the room.

“Heaven, my dear.” I felt Edward release me and Carlisle give me a light hug,

“We are your family, and we will be forever. Don’t you forget that. You are my daughter Heaven. Just as much as Edward is my son.” I sniffed and he released me.

Regardless of what any one said, I still did not want to be on this earth anymore. I knew one day that I would lose them all.

I closed my eyes again, and Edward put his cool hands on the side of my face and kissed me lightly.

“Heaven, can you try to stand up for me?” I heard Carlisle ask. I opened my eyes and sighed deeply.

I threw my legs over the edge of the bed slowly, and Edwards arm was around me. My entire body felt weak, and my legs wobbled underneath me. I collapsed down onto the bed after a few moments.

“Good, Take this and keep drinking that water, I’m going to have Alice prepare you something to eat.” He said handing me a small pill. After taking it, I laid back onto the pillows. Edward crawled up next to me on the bed and encircled me into his arms.

“Promise you won’t go?” He questioned, sounding like a suffering child.

I can promise I will try. I hurt Edward, imagine Bella leaving you ten more times.


“It would hurt just as badly if you left me Heaven.” I snorted, I wasn’t in the mood for his games.

“Games? Is that what you think this is.”

Yes, that’s what I know this is. Quit telling me you’re over that stupid girl. Yeah I said it, stupid pathetic little girl. Who didn’t know what she had. Something I know I will never have.


I looked him square in the eye, and I saw the pain in his face. I knew I was hurting him, and it was tearing me apart inside.

“I know what you are doing Heaven, and your not going to push me away. You’re not going to push me away the only time I’m telling you not to.”

I laughed bitterly, and tried to shrug out of his arms. I felt my guard pushing up over my knees, but it wouldn’t come up any farther. He pulled me closer against him.

“Stop doing this.”

I don’t need you Edward, I don’t need anymore of the hurt you have caused me. I am so twisted inside, I’m through with everything. I don’t need you, or Alice, or anyone.

“I love you.” he whispered. Trying to push his lips to mine I turned my head away from him and he sighed.

Tears welled into my eyes, I wanted to kiss him and have him hold me. That would only set me up for more hurt in the future.

“Trust me Heaven, please. I will never leave you. Why won’t you believe me?”

I know your not mine Edward.

“But I am!” I heard the frustration in his tone, “Can’t you just give me the chance to show you I am?”

Chances are risks Edward. I cannot chance placing my heart into the palm of another person. Ever again.


“I will show you Heaven, and no matter how hard you try to push me away I will still be here. I wasn’t lying when I was making love to you.”

I turned to him with tears streaking down my cheeks, and he pressed his lips softly against mine. I was unresponsive at first, but his kiss became more urgent, and I kissed him back slowly.

As friends or lovers I don’t care, but if you ever leave me, I would die Edward.