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Belonging

Summary:
banner Heaven just moved to Eatonville Washington. Another move due to her "problems". She is dying inside as her parents distance themselves from there "freak" daughter. She doesn't know why she is freak, or how she ended up the way she is. Edward is bruised and broken after Bella chose a life with Jacob over him. Can Heaven let the Cullen's know her secret? Will Edward drop his walls and let this sweet stranger into his life? Will she ever find somewhere that she truly belongs?


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23. Chapter 23

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Once in the car, I couldn’t help but let my tears spill over. Alice didn’t say a word, and we drove for a long time. I wiped away my tears as we began to drive down the deserted streets of a city.

“Where are we?” I questioned, rain started hitting the windshield harder.

“Port Angeles.”

“He’s going to stay with her, isn’t he Alice?” She looked over at me,

“My vision’s aren’t clear around the wolves. I can’t see anything he is going to do when he is near them.”

I could tell from the tone of her voice, that she was unsure herself. More tears began to spill over.

“I need to get away Alice. I have to. I cannot hear him say he doesn’t want me.” I sobbed loudly.

“You don’t know that’s what he is going to do Heaven.” I shook my head.

“Yes I do! Did you see the way she looked at him?” She pulled the car to the curb in front of a small restaurant. A florescent open sign flashed through the window.

“Edward does love you Heaven.”

“I know he does, but not like he loves her.” I sobbed. She wiped my tears away with back of her cool hand.

“It’s different with you Heaven. You’re his best friend. You are both so much alike.” I sobbed again.

“Come on, you need to eat.” She said and stepped out of the car, I looked down at my clothes when she opened the door for me.

“Unlike you Alice, I don’t look perfect in anything. I don‘t want to go in there dressed like this.” She laughed lightly.

“You look fine.” she said.

Stepping out of the car, I pushed the warmth away from my entire body, fighting to keep it off of me.

We made it inside without getting soaked from the rain. The waiter seated us in a far corner booth, and took my order.

Laying my head in my hands, I fought back the tears. My world was unraveling again. I was searching my mind for options. I knew I had to leave, but where would I go? I didn’t even know if my house was sold yet. Edward had been handling it all for me. Then it came back to me. I remembered Edward telling me that my parents were still going to pay for my credit card.

Hearing my food being set down on the table, I looked up. I told the waiter thank you, and began to pick at my food. My mind was reeling with the places I could go, and what I could do. Glancing towards Alice I saw the anger in her eyes.

“Why would you do that Heaven?” she questioned. I hadn’t realized that she would see my intentions so quickly. I looked back down at my food,

“Why would you leave all of us? You know that wouldn’t just be hurting him.” I grimaced, knowing she was right.

“I can’t handle it Alice. I’ve lost so much already. If I just disappear, it will seem as if all of this and all of you were just a dream. I can keep my happy memories.” A tear trickled down my cheek.

“But do you honestly believe Edward is going to leave you. After all that you have been through with him and this family?”

I nodded my head, “I know he is Alice. I feel it.”

Shaking her head furiously, she nearly shouted, “He’s not! Even if Bella wanted him back, he wouldn’t hurt you that way.” I laughed sarcastically.

“I know she wants him back, and I know he wants her. I wouldn’t make him unhappy by forcing him to be with me!”

“Why are you so stubborn? He told you that he wouldn’t leave you Heaven. That he loves you and needs you.”

“I’m sorry Alice, I have to.” The anger rose into her face again,

“Even after all we’ve done for you!? Only days ago, you were telling us how happy you were to belong somewhere. Now your just going to up and leave, on account of something you don’t even know is going to happen?” She was talking fast and took a deep breath,

“What if Bella doesn’t even want Edward, what if you are wrong about everything. You would want him to be the person he was when you first met him, because of you this time?” She had me there, and I faltered for a moment.

“It wont be like that Alice.”

“Yes it will.” She said firmly.

I stayed silent for awhile. Not eating much, just pushing my food around on my plate.

“Is there a bus station around here Alice?” I looked up at her.

“What are you going to do Heaven? Leave with only the clothes on your back? Which aren’t even yours.”

I nodded my head, “I have my credit card I’ll be fine.”

“Where are you going to go?” She asked, sadly.

“I’m not sure yet.” I pushed around some more food on my plate.

“Heaven it’s nearly two in the morning, can’t you wait until tomorrow?” Her tone was pleading.

“I can’t see him again Alice. I know what he will say, and I cannot bear to hear it.”

Tears pooled under my eyelids.

“But you don’t know that! Please Heaven. Don’t go.”

I shook my head, “I have to, I can’t take that chance. I’ve lost so much already.”

“So you’re just going to throw us all away?” Her tone was soft.

“I’ll come back. One day. After my wounds are healed.” I made eye contact with her,

“I love you all so much Alice. You know that.” Tears flooded down my face, and I stood up.

Alice tossed some money on the table and we walked out of the diner in silence.