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A Dark Adaptaton of New Moon

Summary:
It's been a year since Edward left Bella. Strong ties bond Jacob and Bella together, but one night of surpise and misfortune will forver change the lives of these three people. What would you do when all you love is violently taken away?


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15. Chapter 15 - Probe

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Chapter 15 - Probe

So this is your opinion of me? Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have been overlooked had not your pride been hurt by my honesty...

My pride?

...in admitting scruples about our relationship. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?

And those are the words of a gentleman? From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realize...'

I lift my head carefully and peak beneath my shoulder to find that she's fallen asleep and I mute the volume on the TV. It amazes me how she can watch this movie over and over again, having read the book a hundred times or more. I feel pretty confident that I can recite almost all the lines of Pride and Prejudice with keen accuracy. But I truly can't complain. If it means having to watch every romance flick in the planet just to have the opportunity to be with her, then it's not so bad.

I slowly slide out from under her head and replace my shoulder with a pillow. She stirs a little but continues her sleep. I stare at her for a few moments, curled up and peaceful with dark long hair tangled in her delicate ivory hands. She's a beauty even when she sleeps. I draw the comforter over her and exit the room, closing the door quietly behind me.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about her reaction when she saw Gabriel earlier. She had stopped breathing momentarily and her palms became sweaty. The last thought I was able to read from him, before Bella came along, was his contemplation of returning to Romania. Nothing out of the ordinary... so I really didn't pay him no mind. Then, yesterday, as Esme worked on my bandages, I heard when Alice's bedroom door opened and the last word from his head when he saw Bella... ‘impossible'. After that, he pulled a curtain around his thoughts and since then, I've been plagued with many unanswered questions.

I make my way down the stairs and straight to Carlisle's study. Since Gabriel's arrival last week, Carlisle had practically moved into his lab working fervently on deciphering Gabriel's DNA and possibly extracting the key ingredient of his healing capability, not that any of our kind would find any use for it. I suppose Carlisle, ever the advocate for humans, would like to apply its benefits to terminal diseases such as cancer and AIDS.

I find the door to the study open and Carlisle holding up two x-rays to a lamp, his head alternating between the two, making visual comparisons.

"Yes, Edward" he says, without looking at me. He puts down the x-rays and bends to write into a notebook laying his desk.

"I was hoping you could spare a few minutes" I say.

He looks up at me then, slightly surprise and smiles. "Why, of course. Come in. Sit down" he waves a hand towards a chair. I walk into the room and stand just behind the window, looking out at the sheeting rain.

"Carlisle, has Gabriel spoken to you of Bella?" I ask, casually.

"Bella?" he asks, his voice marked with curiosity. "No, he has not" he frowns, confused.

I purse my lips in frustration and frown at the lack information.

What troubles you, son? comes Carlisle's voice in my head.

"Do you trust in him? I ask, aloud.

Surely, I do. I have known him for all my 305 years.

"Yet, you've only just discovered his ability to heal" I counter, dryly.

Edward, Gabriel is a very clandestine individual. Although I have known him for over three centuries, I rarely ever am awarded a visit from him. The last time I saw him was about a year before I created you. At that time, there wasn't the technology there is today. I have always known of his ability, but have only now been able to fully commit to studying it.

I stare out the window while my mind shuffles through my memory, trying to find something that would give me a better understanding of this man. I find nothing.

Why do ask about him? Is there... a problem?

"I was able to read his thoughts when he first visited last week. Then he went blank when he saw Bella. He's deliberately shut me out of his head completely since then."

Carlisle walks over to my side, hands in his pockets, looking out the window as well.

Edward, I'm sure you have nothing to worry about. Apart from being a healer, Gabriel imitates power. He adopts the abilities of those within close proximity. You are a mind reader, and I can assure you he knew this. I'm sorry to say but, eavesdropping on a person's thoughts is not well-mannered. I know that you can't help it and I'm not accusing you in any way, but try to put yourself in his shoes. How would you feel if someone was able to read your mind? Surely, he mimicked your ability and upon realizing that you were in his head, he made it a point to keep you out. Like I said, he is a very reserved person and doesn't share much about himself with anyone.

"That still doesn't explain the way he reacted towards Bella yesterday upon seeing her for the first time. He knew the minute Alice and Rosalie carried her in. I saw that. He could smell her blood and he knew she was human. But something happened that moment, when he looked at her. His thoughts just vanished and the way in which he looked at her... like he was trying to see right through her..."

Bella is a very attractive young woman, Edward. I'm sorry to say, but she can appear like candy to anyone's eyes - especially that of a vampire, though Gabriel is completely harmless, as you know. I'm sure if he was hiding anything at all, it would've been his reaction to her - from you.

He places a hand on my shoulder and grins as he walks back to his desk. Although, his ideas made logical sense, something about this Gabriel was just not right. I can't put my finger on it but I know there's more than just a random attraction. I abandon the subject being that I know I would walk out empty handed. I walk over and take a seat across Carlisle's desk. There is still something I need to know though I think I may have already figured it out.

I sit and fix my eyes on him, thinking of how best to approach this.

"Carlisle... Bella and I... the other night..."

He looks up at me, pausing before leaning back into his chair. He watches me, waiting.

"... we... had relations" I say watching him carefully. He raised his brows in apparent surprise. Though Carlisle is technically not my father, I still regard him as one and I guess, because of this, I find it difficult to speak to him so intimately.

"And in the heat of the moment... well... I bit her" I say.

His surprised look twists into concern as he leans forward across his desk.

"I don't understand" he puzzles.

"I didn't change her. I didn't allow the venom to spread. I merely wined on her blood, was all."

"Incredible" he muses. "You were able to withhold, to not give into your thirst, especially for her. That's absolutely incredible."

"Believe me, it took every single fiber of my strength to stop myself from killing her. I thought my love for her alone would be able to break my desire, but even that wasn't enough, not when I was actually able to savor her blood. It's something I wouldn't dare try again."

"And wisely, so" he says, pointedly.

"But I wanted to ask you, being that I have never drunk human blood without killing them. What effects can human blood have on me, if any at all?"

"Well, for one, you'll definitely find it hard to resist drinking from them again, which is why you were insane to have done so with Bella" he says and gives me a scornful look.

"I know."

I didn't tell him that we made love again and that although my thirst for her blood remains my constant companion, I found that I was able to manage myself.

"Other than heightened thirst, you shouldn't really experience any physical changes, per say. You may be able to get a better sense of her now that her blood flows in your veins. If she's ever afraid or excited or markedly emotional, you would probably be able to feel it. It's a rare phenomenon, considering that there are very few vampires that would feed but not kill. However, this would not be the case had you indeed changed her. Once a human blood dies, all of its idiosyncrasies perish as well."

"I see."

My thoughts are now confirmed. This is why I was racked by anger and terror yesterday on my way to her house and why I felt such despair last night after we left La Push. I am somehow, now connected to her. What Alice must've seen was me running in panic to Bella's house and called me right at the very moment I thought about it. I can't help but feeling relieved at the fact that although Alice can no longer see her, I can still feel her. But why couldn't I feel what she felt earlier when she saw Gabriel? Almost as if reading my mind, Carlisle smiles at me.

"And you need not worry so much about Gabriel. Though a human still possesses free will, no other of our kind can touch her. She is yours and all that come near her will know."

I look back at him, wanting to smile at what I've just learned but still feeling unease at the mention of Gabriel. How I wish more than ever that I could tap into Bella's head and know exactly what she's thinking.

"Thank you" I say as I stand. "I won't take any more of your time."

"Oh, you haven't" he says with a smile.

As I turn to walk away, I stop and remember I have one more thing I've forgotten to mention.

"By the way, Bella and I are getting married. Just thought you should know" I say.

He leans back into his chair again and his face is warm as he smiles.

"Congratulations" he says and I head back upstairs where my angel waits.