To Find Heaven in Hell
Things were never meant to have turned out like this .The Volturi were meant to have been scared away, someone was meant to have made a passionate speech swaying them against a fight, our powers and the powers of those who supported us were meant to have defeated them. But things never turn out the way they are meant to, do they? Do Vampires go to heaven? Yes...some What will Bella do to save Edward? Everything. The amazing banner is by the very talented DM-is-my-God
BPOV. First of five chapters. *All the wonderful characters belong to Stephanie Meyer*
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Devon walked in, looking more relaxed than before. “You may thank me now. I have not only gotten the directions for both Jasper and Edward but I have also attained permission for both of your entrances into hell... I never thought I would say that. This family is the most complicated charge I have ever had. I think I may retire.” Devon was holding two scrolls in his hand.
I reached for them. “I won’t thank you considering you are the one who put them there.”
“Fine, fine. Some people just can never be happy. I will be going now, I think I need to sit down and recover. Vampires are not something I encounter every day, and your kind is extremely strenuous.” Devon didn’t say another word, not even goodbye, he just picked up his small red book and left.
I handed the scroll with Jasper’s name to Alice and opened the one with Edward’s name.
I scanned the page quickly. The elegant writing simply told me to keep going straight ahead and follow my inkling. Well, that was helpful.
Emmett and Rose were saying goodbye. Carlisle had refused to allow Alice and I to travel alone, for some reason he didn’t really like the idea of two of his daughters going to hell by themselves. Unfortunately, Alice’s route was different from mine so we would be taking different directions. Rosalie would be going with Alice and Emmett would be helping me return my angel to his rightful place.
“Ok, I think we should get going, no one knows how long this will take.” Emmett was unusually serious.
We all hugged and said goodbye. If I had to choose between a hell with Edward and heaven with my family they all knew what my decision would be. Maybe this was goodbye forever.
“I hope you find him Alice.” I hugged her longer than the others and then kissed her cheek, I knew exactly how she felt and my heart was now broken even further with the realisation that I might lose her as well.
She returned the hug, “Don’t worry I will, we both will.” And with that Alice and Rose left.
Emmett and I also left without another word; I was trying to concentrate on my inkling. Yes, because my instincts are always so on target.
We picked up the pace, running at vampire speed- as Emmett had said we didn’t know how long it would take.
“You know Bella, I blame Edward’s dramatic streak for this.” We had entered a beautiful forest- it reminded me a lot of Forks, everything was covered in green.
Emmett surprised me; he had just been accusing Devon that all this was his fault and now he was accusing Edward, it didn’t make sense. “What do you mean, Em? He isn’t to blame; he would have been admitted into heaven. I just don’t understand why he didn’t want his place.” I had to stop running; the pain was once again becoming unbearable. I put an arm around my waist, trying to hold myself in shape even though I could feel myself coming apart; it would only be a matter of seconds before the sobbing began. This reminded me so much of when Edward had left me- the pain this time, however, was intensified, so intense I could feel it in my bones.
Emmett put a protective arm around me. “Sit down, Bella.” I did as he asked and he soon joined me on the fluffy green floor.
“Bella, I think I might know why Edward... why he didn’t believe in heaven.” I didn’t say anything; I just stared at Emmett and tried to control the sharp stabs on my heart. Emmett put both his hands on either side of his face and leaned his elbows on his knees. “When we were in the clearing with the Volturi, you were the first to- to die. They went straight for you, and Edward saw everything. He couldn’t even get close to you; every time he tried more newborns were thrown in his way. It was so- so horrible, we could hear your screams and Edward’s but we couldn’t do anything. But then-“ Emmett’s voice broke and he ran his hand through his hair. “Edward stopped fighting. He had four vampires around him and he just stopped. He fell to his knees and hung his head... they killed him instantly.” Emmett swallowed hard, I had to look away. “Edward saw everything. Would you believe in heaven when you saw the love of your existence killed in the way you were?... Jasper was the same, it was clear they had planned how to render Alice’s talent useless... the planned worked and after she was ... killed all our senses were cut off. But not before Jazz saw what happened, every terrible detail...” Emmett’s voice was filled with sadness. The memory of us in the clearing wasn’t something I ever wanted to remember and yet it was the reason behind my pain now.
I nodded. “You’re right Emmett, I wouldn’t.”
We stayed sitting down on the grass for a few minutes, both lost in our own thoughts. But I didn’t want to think too much, I just wanted to get things done, to get the situation resolved so that I could start to enjoy my real heaven.
“Come on Em, we need to get going. For some reason I don’t think it will be that far away, but you never know.”
We were running but not talking, which was rather odd considering this was Emmett: he usually couldn’t keep his mouth shut for more than three seconds.
“Bella, lets play a game.” That was more like him.
“I’m really not in the mood right now, Emmett. You know with all the I-need-to-save-Edward-from-eternal-damnation thing.” How could he think of playing games at a time like this? But then again this was Emmett.
“Oh come on, Bella. You and I both know we will, so why can’t we just play a little tiny game on our way to find him?” Well, he did have a point, and it would distract me from all the constant doubts and painful memories.
“Fine, what do you want to play? I’ll play anything but not I spy.” I absolutely hated I spy, it was the most pointless game ever invented.
Emmett smiled, “Ok... I’ll give you a word and you have to say the first thing that comes into your mind, and you can only give one word answers. Got it?”
I nodded. “Got it.”
Emmett started the game. “Carlisle.”
Emmett was not happy, “Funny? Is that what you think? I was expecting sexy, delicious, amazing. Funny is just so blah.” He started pouting.
He made me laugh, confirming what I had just said. “I’m sorry Emmett, but funny is the only way to describe you, and I could never think of you as sexy... it would practically be incest.” I wrinkled my nose, the thought was just so wrong.
“Yeah, I guess you’re right. But I would just like you to know that I’m darn hot.”
I giggled. “Fine, if you say you are then you are.”
Emmett flashed me a big grin. “Let’s get back to the game.”
Emmett raised an eyebrow.
Emmett gave an exasperated sigh.
Emmett rolled his eyes.
“What? How can a chair remind you of Edward?” Emmett was getting a bit annoyed.
I gave him a sad smile. “Well, there was a rocking chair in my old room and Edward would always sit on it. So when you say chair, I say Edward.”
“That's it. I’m not playing anymore. I didn’t even get one innuendo in there.” He stopped and crossed his arms.
I stopped also, I should have known better than to play a game with Emmett, he always got so stroppy when he didn’t get the outcome he wanted.
“Emmett, you said I had to say the first thing that came into my mind and that was it. It’s not my fault all my thoughts revolve around Edward.” I looked down at my hands, the pain was back. Why did we have to play that stupid game?
“I’m sorry, Bella. I didn’t think it through.” His expression was pained, he really meant his apology.
“There is nothing for you to apologize for, Em. Lets keep going... I have a feeling we’re close.”
We started running again. The forest was changing the further we went in to it- it had been a vivid green with bright flowers spread along the grass, but it was becoming darker, the leaves were not as colourful and the grass was beginning to disappear, becoming just soil. The sky was also changing from a powdery blue into a deep indigo and the weather was turning miserable as rain clouds threatened in the horizon.
It didn’t take long for us to reach the end of the forest- I suppose it was the end of our heaven and the start of Edward’s hell- it was the emptiest place I had ever been to. There were no trees in sight, no buildings; no wind, there wasn’t even a single rock on the floor. It hurt me so much to imagine Edward in such a desolate place, with nothing but a sky above his head and concrete under his feet.
We slowed down to a walk and followed the road as it continued, there was nothing ahead and the road appeared endless, like in one of those western films where the path ahead begins to look narrower and narrower.
Emmett and I didn’t speak at all as we walked the road, but sometimes I looked up and saw him staring down at me with a hurt gaze. He was thinking what I was... what if the road never ended? I had to believe it did.
After what seemed like hours of walking the road did end. It stopped right in front of a high red brick wall which seemed to stretch endlessly just as the road had. In the middle of the wall there was a simple wooden door.
I took a step forward. I knew whatever was beyond the door was Edward’s hell. I took a deep breath and straightened my shoulders. You can do this. It doesn’t matter if its hell, Edward is in there.
I turned the handle and opened the door.