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HeartBreak

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banner by marauder_by_midnight Edward comes back after an unnexpected night. But what if Bella doesnt want him back in her life? Edward comes back after 13 years since his and Bella's last encounter, Bella has a new life and a family, will Edward endure the same rejection he faced? Thanks to Marauder by Midnight for the GORGEOUS banner!


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17. Edward's story

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I didn't sleep, I didn't want to sleep, I wanted so much to talk to Edward, alone, since I haven't really had the time to talk to him but I was too much of a coward so I pretended to fall asleep in his arms, all I wanted was to inhale his sweet aroma and hear his breathing, and feel him cradling me. Not until I accidentally sneezed did he realize I was never actually asleep.

He jumped startled and I cursed out loud. I looked up at him, thinking I were to find his smoldering dark eyes looking angrily down at me, but instead I found his eyes liquid golden and amused, and his crooked smile on him. He shook his head slightly, chuckling, "This whole time you were not asleep?" He asked amused.

I dropped my head and nodded, he chuckled again making the bed shake slightly.

"Why?" He asked, lifting my head with his fingers.

I blushed, "Because I wanted time with you...I wanted to talk with you, but I couldn't make my lips move." I said.

He smiled and dropped his head low, I thought he was going to kiss me but he whispered into my ear, instead, "You can talk to me anytime..."

I shivered as his cool breathe made its way to the back of my neck. I looked up at him and nodded, "Why did you come back?" I asked, this question hadn't been answered completely and I needed to know.

Edward sat me up and moved in front of me, he crossed his legs and looked directly into my eyes, "Do you want to hear the full story of my thirteen years away?" He asked me, my heart thumped.

I nodded slowly.

Edward looked down to the mattress, I could tell he was entering in a part of his life that he regretted. I took his hands and gave them a soft squeeze. He smiled and sighed and began speaking. His voice was softer than I have ever heard it, it sounded far away so I paid close attention to whatever he was to say.

"After I left you, thirteen years ago, I went out looking for Victoria..." I gasped but Edward held up a finger telling me not to interrupt, I nodded and he continued, "I never found her, apparently your wolves found her, I found out because that was the day I came to see you at prom..." His face fell into a small frown.

I remembered back to when I was 18, I remembered Jacob telling me when they found Victoria and that they smelled another vampire near by, but it didn't seem like much of a threat. I looked at Edward and nodded, "That's why you came? To find out if the wolves had caught Victoria, but you never really got to talk to me because right after you said 'will you take me back' I ran away from you..." I said, my breath caught in my throat.

Edward nodded and continued his explanation to my question, "I should have started with Victoria rather than asking if you could take me back, huh?" I looked at him and blushed feeling embarrassed, but I nodded.

"Yes...now continue."

"Right, I returned home after five years of being gone, I cant explain that to you, its a very dark part of my life that I dread to revisit even in my thoughts," He shuddered, and I ran my fingers through his palm making him relax, "Alice had been angry with me for about two months, almost no one talked to me int he house, except for Esme and Emmett and Carlisle, every body else weren't to happy with me.

"I never decided to go back to school, I wanted to stay away from school as much as possible, I know Alice told you this earlier today but I'll explain the whole reason... I didn't want to go back because I wasn't able to stand human thoughts much, I had been isolated from humans for so long I couldn't control my power, it would get out of control and I would pick up any thoughts from anywhere. The human girls thoughts would have devastated me and the males' would have tormented, I especially didn't want to hear the thoughts of...'lovers'.

"That would have destroyed me, I couldn't handle two teens falling ‘in love’ with each other, they didn't know what love meant, they were just attracted to each other, so much it would have disgusted me." Edward nodded slowly, and looked at me. I smiled at him, "They don't know what true love is until they meet some one like you-"

"Or you." I said, and I immediately blushed.

"Right." Edward said with a smile.

"Continue..." I said looking down at our entwined hands and blushing. I dropped my hands from his and he took my hands back in his.

He nodded, "Where was I, oh yes...it hurt me knowing that people were still falling in ‘love’ out there in the world, but what was much worse was knowing that they would not last and their thoughts would surround their ex and I couldn't bare to hear their thoughts, heartbreak and sadness, it would all lead my thoughts to you..."

I nodded understanding and he continued to talk, "I stayed home and until a couple of years ago did I try to pursue a job in neurology, and I got it.

"I was always depressed ad I knew I got on every one's nerves, especially since every night I would go out to the porch and stare at the moon, looking out into a bright starry sky, the stars reminded me of you, it reminded me of every night that I used to spend in your room. About a week ago did Alice and Jasper insist for me to come, I wasn't sure, I was scared that you would dump me like that night at prom...." He said looking away from me and out to the moonlight.

I looked at him, feeling sorry for everything that had happened to him...I laughed softly and he looked at me with a questioned face, "No, I’m not laughing at you, really, I’m laughing that we both have our share of heartbreak...like now." I said clutching onto my chest, it ached when I thought of Jacob’s death, our first kiss, and when I thought about Edward, my first kiss ever with a boy and with him, in the meadow, and him leaving me in the forest. "I’m sorry." I whispered.

"About...?" He asked.

"About how you’re life was after I left you at prom." I said covering my face with my hands.

Edward chuckled and took a hand off my face, "I lived through it..." He whispered, "and so did you..." He said with a soft sigh.

I covered my face again feeling embarrassed about the perfect life I had after he left and the horrible life I put Edward through after prom. I was living the good life and he was isolating himself from the world -from his family, even.

Edward chuckled again stroking my hair softly, "Bella, don't feel embarrassed about that, the reason why I left in the first place was for you to have a human life, to have a family and you did, so I feel perfect that I at least that came true." Edward smiled a perfect smile, yes you are perfect, I thought.

I looked at my hands, "So, you are fine with me marrying and all that?" I asked shocked.

He nodded his smile still in place, "I would have done anything to keep you happy, Bella." Edward said tracing random circles on the palm of my hand, "even if it meant leaving and losing your love forever."

I blushed and slipped my hand out of his grasp, "Edward, I have never stopped loving you."

Edward shot his head to me, "Really?"

I rolled my eyes, "Haven’t you noticed these past few days?" I asked shocked.

"I thought you were bluffing....I thought the kiss was just pay back, you trying to toy with my emotions."

"Never, not about that."

We laughed quietly together, our eyes connected. Then the laughter drifted into a peaceful silence.

"But, I'm so old, and I know I shouldn't love you."

"Bella, you don't look old, really, thought Alice did exaggerated about '23' she though "26' and so do I."

"26! So I looks about ten years older than you? That's horrible!" I whimpered.

"Bella, I pass for a twenty two right now. You only look four years older than me," he assured me, I connected with his eyes and they were saying he was telling the truth.

I blushed, "Thank you."

I stared at Edward liquid butterscotch eyes, my heart putting itself back together, the holes closing up. I drew my head an inch closer to his, my eyes now focused on his flawless lips, I opened my mouth slowly, Edward’s eyes bulged open when he realized what I was about to do. I licked my lips, feeling the taste of his on mine.

Edward pulled back slowly, his teeth clenched and his eyes went hard. I can be stubborn too, I thought moving my head forward still. Edward’s head bumped the wall and I smiled, he was cornered. I pressed my lips gently on his neck, I brushed my lips slowly up his neck and kissed his cheek.

I giggled and cuddled next to him, rapping the blanket on me and sighed.

"Goodnight, love." Edward said.

"Goodnight." I said moving myself closer to his body.

Edward slowly rapped his arm around me and I sighed happily once more before sleep carried me away.