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I just want to DIE!

Should I die, I don't think anyone would actually care. My name is Bella Swan and I want to die. I live with my dad in a town called Forks and I want to die. I had a boyfriend who was a vampire but he left me and now I want to die. My best friend Jacob has abandoned me for a cult and now I want to die. Did I forget anything? Oh yes, I want to die because my life sucks. This story is incredibly depressing and i have no idea why i wrote it. Don't read, save your sanity

I was bored. No i am not getting depressed again, those days are over (many thanks to Moonspinner). But for some reason, i started to write this. Maybe i'm being possessed. OH! i just had a great story idea....Anyway, this is during the stage where Jake is ignoring Bella (stupid mongrel). She decides she wants to feel a new pain. Warning: This story may not end well. My sad stories don't tend to have happy endings...well actually, some of my less sad stories don't either. My random ones do but the rest don't often.

4. Cut to deep

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I woke up. My head hurt and all I could see was black.
"Where am I?" I said, but the sound of my voice hurt my ears and there was no reply anyway. I sat up. The room was dark and I could dimly make out the shape of a table and chair. I could smell meat.

"Hello?" there was a creak outside and the door opened. The bright light stung my eyes and I winced.

"Ah...you are awake" a tall figure was standing in the doorway.

"Where am I?" I whispered.

"The Lupine Base. Your home"


"Yes. Werewolves?" he asked sarcastically "The last werewolf in existence lives here. Father. He is only alive because he made some kind of deal with the Volturi"

"Who?" I felt like I knew the name but I couldn't remember.

"The vampires in charge of all the vampires"


"This is our home. We are all brothers and sisters. I am your brother Faolan"

"Why am I here? I remember...I was in the woods...by my home"

"This is your home now. I am taking you to see Father. He will give you your name and you can meet the rest of the family"

"I have a name! My name is Bella"

"No! You are no longer that person. You are part of this family and if you say something like that in front of Father he will punish you," said Faolan.

"Didn't you have a life before this?"

"No" he said determinedly. He led me to a large chamber where a man with brown hair sat.

"Hello my child. I am glad to see you are awake at last. From now on, you shall be known as Lykell"

"That is not my name! My name is Bella!" I shouted. He stood up.

"No. you are part of my family and your name is Lykell. That is the end of it! Faolan, take Lykell to the dining room and get her some food. Then take her to her bedroom. She can meet the rest of the family at supper time"

"Yes Father" said Faolan. He tugged me from the room.

"I told you not to argue! That was hardly anything considering what he could do!" he hissed at me.

"I don't care!"

"Listen, Bella, you seem like a nice kid but if you go against him you will never see daylight again"


"Follow me" he led me down into a basement.

"That is Diana. She argued and now that's all that's left of her" what was before me was a girl, her hair was matted and she was covered in dirt. She was rocking backwards and forwards. On her arms were long, barely healed scars.

"She can't hear us. Father slashed her ears and removed any chance of hearing again" she turned and I gasped. Instead of eyes, there were bloody sockets.

"He did that too," he confirmed. He pulled me out of the room and along to a large wooden panelled room. There was a long table with chairs all around it.

"I'm not hungry," I said. I couldn't get the image of Diana out of my head.

"Okay Lykell. I think you should eat, but I'll take you to your room if you want" he led me down a corridor with loads of doors. Each door was painted and had a plaque on the door.

"This is yours" he stopped in front of a red door with Lykell engraved on the front. He pushed it open.

"You're allowed to decorate it however you want," he said. He smiled.

"Bye Lykell"

"Bye Faolan" he left and I sat on my bed in despair.