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I just want to DIE!

Should I die, I don't think anyone would actually care. My name is Bella Swan and I want to die. I live with my dad in a town called Forks and I want to die. I had a boyfriend who was a vampire but he left me and now I want to die. My best friend Jacob has abandoned me for a cult and now I want to die. Did I forget anything? Oh yes, I want to die because my life sucks. This story is incredibly depressing and i have no idea why i wrote it. Don't read, save your sanity

I was bored. No i am not getting depressed again, those days are over (many thanks to Moonspinner). But for some reason, i started to write this. Maybe i'm being possessed. OH! i just had a great story idea....Anyway, this is during the stage where Jake is ignoring Bella (stupid mongrel). She decides she wants to feel a new pain. Warning: This story may not end well. My sad stories don't tend to have happy endings...well actually, some of my less sad stories don't either. My random ones do but the rest don't often.

5. Takes your life

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I caused no more trouble over the next couple of days. I got used to it; though I knew one day, something would happen. I also knew, one day I'd probably become a vampire or be murdered at the hands of one. Okay, Father was a werewolf but he had a ‘deal' with the Volturi.

Faolan and I became friends quite quickly and the others were all right too. Calder and Archer were funny (twins) and there were four other girls, Jemima, Kik, Bo and Shenria. Kik was also a twin. She had a brother called Kuk. They were both quite quiet and they had a way of staring at you, like they could read your mind. In a weird way, I settled in. I kept myself busy so I wouldn't think about Diana in the basement. Then one day, things changed.

I was in the kitchen, baking cakes. There was always food in the cupboards and fridges but there were some things we were forbidden to touch by Father. No one dared break the rules he set.

"Lykell!" I turned.

"Hey Shenria. What's up?"

"Father wants to see you. He won't say why"

"Now?" I said, exasperated. I was racking my brains, trying to think of what I could have done that made him want to see me so urgently.


"Can you keep an eye on these? They're nearly done. Even you couldn't mess them up at this point" We had to take turns cooking each evening. Shenria was a rubbish cook and sometimes I'd secretly help her (Father got annoyed when we did this so we needed to make sure it remained secret).

I headed down the corridor. Everyone was in the recreation room. Everything was scheduled here. Part of me appreciated that fact as it meant I didn't ever have to face reality or think about...Father was such a control freak we had to sleep at the same time. He gave us drinks with sleeping pills in before we went to bed. And he locked out bedroom doors at night too. Just in case. I reached Father's study and knocked.

"Come in Lykell" I glanced up at the camera that panned along the corridor and scowled. Then I headed into the room.

"You wanted to see me Father?"

"Yes Lykell. I am rather happy to report that we have had an offer regarding you. It appears that one of the Volturi is searching for a bride and I believe you would be perfect. So, next week we're going to Italy to visit them"

"All of us Father?"

"Yes. I couldn't leave my children alone! So, I want you to make sure that you pack some nice clothes and make a good impression"

There was no point asking if I got a choice. If I did, I'd be being ‘ungrateful' for this ‘fantastic' opportunity. Oh, and I'd probably have my eyes gouged out like Diana.

"Okay Father. I'll wear my best white dress"

"Good girl" I left and headed to my bedroom. I flung myself down on the bed and cried until no more tears would come.