Bella is the new girl in college and Edward is the playboy who has no limits to flirting with any pretty girl he sees. Among all the drama between the two and their friends, does Bella have what it takes to change this heartless player into a loving boyfriend? Or will she just get her heartbroken for the 3rd time in her life? All Human.
7. Unexpected Toy
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Wonderful. Screwed things over with Bella yet again. I really need to talk to her. Just talk. No flirting just be myself.
The next day I waited outside her class for her. She walked out, glanced an annoyed expression and continued walking.
"Bella, I understand you're angry but could I talk to you?"
She stopped and slowly turned to face me. "Like a normal conversation or are you just coming to try out some of your new pickup lines on me? Because if that's it Edward I'm not interested", she turned back and continued walking.
I grabbed her arm to stop her.
"What Edward?! You coming to make fun of me and rub it in my face some more how worthless I am and how trashy I was to have a guy sleep with another girl not to mention kick my--"
"Shh", I shushed her covering her mouth with my other hand.
"Please Bella, I'm not coming to mock you and your previous relationship I just want to talk to you"
She forcefully pulled her arm out of my hand and pushed my hand away from her mouth.
"Fine! Talk!", she crossed her arms like a child. Normally I would have found that amusing but I was too upset to laugh.
"Alone?", I asked.
"Is this your way of getting me away so I'll get into bed with you?!", she accused.
Wow, she is really angry with me. I feel horrible. Obviously she doesn't think very highly of me, based on all of these accusations she's thrown my way.
"Bella", I sighed. "Fine, you don't have to talk to me, but just keep in mind I tried to fix this. You weren't cooperative"
"Edward! How do you expect me to want to spend any time with you let alone being by ourselves if all you do is throw accusations at me?!"
"I'm throwing accusations at you?! 'Edward stop trying to get me into bed....Edward don't flirt with me....Edward don't call me worthless'", I imitated her.
She took a deep breath, her eyes filling with unshed tears. She pressed her lips in a hard line shook her head and walked away.
Why can't I say anything right? Because I'm insensitive, obviously.
"Bella, please I'm sorry. If you want me to apologize right here, right now in front of everyone I'll do it. Just please hear me out", I pleaded.
She stopped and turned to me again, wiping tears from her eyes.
"Fine.....fine. We'll go to the lounge. No funny stuff. If you're going to continue to offend me, please tell me now and I'll be prepared so I don't embarrass myself and cry in front of you again. I shouldn't be so damn weak"
I took her hand into my own. "Bella you're not weak. And I promise to be nice...and genuine"
"Alright come on", she pulled her hand away from mine and walked a few feet in front of me to the lounge.
She took off her flip flops and sat cross-legged on the beige sofa with a throw pillow on her lap. I sat beside her and we turned to face each other.
"Alright what do you want to say?", she began.
"Okay", I took in a deep breath. "I'm really sorry, about the whole ex boyfriend thing. I shouldn't have eavesdropped. That was low--"
"Not to mention illegal", she added.
"Yes that too. Honestly...", I stopped looking down. I wasn't comfortable saying the next thought on my mind.
"Honestly?", she pressed.
"Okay well I'm going to tell you something I've never told anyone before so please don't make fun of me"
"Make fun of you?", she looked confused. "I wouldn't"
"Alright, well....Bella honestly I don't know what's wrong with me. I've never felt this way about anyone. Every girl I've been out with I've always seen as like a toy when you're a child, you see it and it's a pretty toy and you want it but when you finally get the toy in your possession, it's not as fun a toy as you expected. You get disappointed and are off to look for a new toy. I began to look at girls that way. I've never...encountered a toy that was worth anything more than just something to look at and all the fun was in wanting it and trying to get it rather than when you actually had it. Until I met a toy I call Bella. That toy was anything more than I could have ever expected, it had more interesting things in it's interior than the exterior advertised and I found myself wanting to do nothing but spend time with that toy and get to know everything it is. I have an unbreakable bond with that toy and I don't know what to do. At times I worry that I'm too attached to the toy and I want to break myself away from it, but then I think about how my life would be without that toy there and I just can't walk away from it like the other toys. It's worth way more than just that. I don't know that toy analogy was pretty dumb and childish but I don't know....this is a first for me", I sighed.
She looked either in shock or like she was daydreaming. Either one, I was concerned.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have told you that. It's not me to open up about my emotions to anyone. I thought you were safe to talk to but I don't want you to be afraid of me. I could understand that, a person you hardly know, is rude to you then tells you a few days later that he thinks he's falling in love with you. I'd be weirded out if I were you", I apologized. It's not like me to be so open about my emotions. Usually I was an emotionless beast who made fun of people when they fell in love.
"No Edward....it's fine. You can trust me I wouldn't tell people or anything. I just want to know that you're not lying, I mean you've gotta understand my point. Things didn't work well in my past so I'm a little paranoid when I get too close to a guy because every guy in my past, has let me down. My ex boyfriend which you know about and....my father and I...don't get along", her eyes filled with tears again.
"Why's that?", I asked concerned.
"Ever since I was a child, my dad hated me. Not sure why. Maybe it was because he didn't love my mom but because I was born he was obligated to stay with her at least til I was of a good age. He would beat my mother and I, and he cheated on my mom ending up getting another woman pregnant. He left us when I was 9. He regretted it eventually, when I was 16, he tried to get involved in my life again. But he already missed 7 important years of my life. I couldn't forgive him, he still tries but I just can't...he was my father and he was horrible to me. I had a sad childhood because of him. In all honesty, my life was the best it could ever be in those 7 years I didn't hear from him. My mom is an amazingly strong woman and I try to be strong like her but I just can't when every guy that's supposed to be a protector to me, a father, a boyfriend, ends up abusing me physically and emotionally. It's hard", I wiped the tear streaming down her face.
I took her face in my hands.
"Bella I would never do that to you. Ever. I could never hurt you intentionally. I may act like the biggest asshole in the world but that's not who I am. Nobody ever opens up to me or bothers to get to know me truly. Every time I'm into a girl, nothing ever like how I feel about you, but they always give in to my every word. They're more interested in my image than me. But you didn't fall for my charm. That's how I knew you were different. Sure you kissed me, amazingly I might add but you were always keeping up with my game if not one step ahead of me even. That's special to me", I admitted.
Wow I have never expressed myself so freely to anyone especially a girlfriend. I've never felt so comfortable with anyone. Not even Alice or Rose and they're like sisters to me.
"If you can prove that you're not playing me. I'd love to give you a chance because honestly, I care about you too. But you have to understand I'm scared to fall in love. I always fall too hard"
"Don't have to worry about falling hard because I'll be there to catch you. No matter what. I won't bruise you Bella. I promise you that. And I'm very good on my word, that's all I've really got going for me", I promised looking directly in her eyes.
"Thank you", she whispered emotionally.
"Do you trust me?", I had to ask.
She took a deep breath. "I haven't got a choice, I'd regret it everyday of my life if I didn't trust my heart and give this a chance. I hope my trust is in the right hands"
"Most definitely is", I hugged her gently.
She looked up into my eyes and slowly leaned it.
For the first time we kissed, gently, yet full of passion. There was no need to make out for the sake of kissing. We kissed and a lot emotion was shared between us both.
I knew Bella was something special.
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