What if Alice never saw Bella jump? Will Bella ever be able to let go of Edward?
Bella continues life in Forks with out Edward. Jacob has picked up the pieces, will she finally realize he is there for her? Will she ever be able to let go of Edward?
1. Chapter 1
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I could feel my toes curling over the edge, willing my body to follow. The icy rain pelted my face, and for an instant I looked down to the water bellow. The waves were tossing angrily against the black rocks bellow, testing my will. Maybe I should wait for Jacob. After all, Edward had been gone months now. What were a few more days until I heard his velvet voice? It seemed like an immensely long time once I actually thought about it. But I stuck to my gut and slowly turned to walk back to my truck.
I suddenly found myself slipping down the sheer face. Of course in this moment my body would decide to betray me in its clumsy ways. My mouth was open and fear choked my throat, my eyes wide; my fingers searched and clung to everything in sight but they could not find purchase. What had I done now? I was going to die and Charlie would never know what had happened to me. If by some chance someone had seen me fall they would probably think I was trying to kill myself anyway. My dad would probably think I died unhappy and he would blame himself forever. How could I do this to him? The past few months I had been tricking myself, doing everything in my power to hold on to the shred of hope the maybe Edward did still love me. Why? So I could continue the suffering and stomp all over everyone I loved in the process? Jacob had offered me his heart. And I had used him. Maybe I should just let myself fall. I didn't deserve everything everyone had given me.
Finally, after what seemed like hours of falling, a firm hand grasped my wrist. The sudden stop jerked my head back and slammed my body hard against the sheer rock face. I peered up, frozen drops hitting my scratched face, and found it was not the hand I had been expecting. "Sam?.." My voice was horse and scratchy. I must have been screaming...
He gently hauled me up the cliff and tucked me against his chest as he turned and ran into the pouring rain toward Jacob's house. I must have passed out because the next thing I knew I was on Jacob's couch and he was gently shaking me awake.
"Bella? Bella...come on....wake up...!"His hand cupped my face and I could hear him talking to Sam.
"Maybe we should take her to the hospital...how hard did she hit her head?"
"She didn't really...she hit her whole body pretty hard against the cliff..." Sam said slowly.
"Wow. That’s so Bella. Sam, I think you should head back to the Clearwater's. I'll stay with her until she wakes up. Let me know if there's anything I can do." Jake said quietly. It was about then that I fell back asleep.
When I finally came to, it was dark and I could feel jakes arms around me. I tried to lift my head but pain shot through me neck, disabling my feeble efforts, not to mention I was held vice-tight in Jacobs’s arms. "Hey sleeping beauty." a small smile played across his lips but didn’t quite touch his eyes.
"Hey..." I tried again- nope, more shooting pain. "...ouch." I said groggily.
"Bells, why didn’t you just wait?" He said smoothing a lock of hair behind my ear.
"I don’t really know why Jacob...I was trying to turn around and come back here...really. But I guess I shouldn’t have expected my feet to carry me safely to the truck after standing to close to the edge..." I didn’t have to look to see the disappointed look on his face. He took a deep breath in and held it for what seemed like an eternity. He slowly let it out; I could feel his hot breath wash over my face.
"I’m just glad you're ok. You have no idea Bella. I really thought I had lost you." he stopped and looked me in the eyes, his deep eyes smoldering into mine. "Just please, promise-" I gently pressed my finger to his lips to silence him.
"Jake, I promise. You're the whole reason I didn’t jump," well, that and Charlie, "I realized, while I was falling, that I haven’t been there for you the way I should have been. It’s just not fair for you. Jake, I swear I will understand if you just want to take me home and leave it at that. If you want, I won’t even call anymore, really Jake...I..." It was his turn this time. He pressed his warm lips to my forehead.
"Bella. Please, never, ever, say that again. I never want to lose you. If I had my way I would keep you right here, in my arms, forever." A little smiled played around his lips, but still didn’t quite touch his eyes
"Jake, I...I just..." I looked down nervously, and chickened out. "...what’s going on with Sam, with you? What’s wrong?" I slipped my hand up to smooth the lines on his forehead. He closed his eyes, and reached up to take my hand. He slipped them down and laid our hands on his bare chest. I followed with my eyes. I never realized just how...beautiful he was and just how grown up he suddenly looked.
"It’s Harry Clearwater. Bells, he had a massive heart attack this morning. Everyone's down at the hospital-" He choked off a little.
"Oh Jacob. I’m so sorry," I squeezed his hand and laid my head on his chest. I could hear his steady heart beating away under my ear. "If there's anything I can do for you, or Billy...just please, let me know." I looked up at him; his lips were pressed in a straight line.
"Just be you Bella. And, please, stay away from the cliffs." He smiled slightly, and it finally touched his eyes, warming them. In them I could see a little bit of my Jacob. I couldn’t help but smile in return.
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